Jiahui's

It's the fight, the effort that counts

2011-04-29T12:36:00.003+08:00

A post I came across from tumblr.. And it really means a whole lot to me :)

Within our relationship, we need to understand that it’s not all about fun and games. Sometimes we will go through tough times. Times that will deliberately push us to the limit of our breaking point. It’s not that we don’t want it to happen, it just does. All we can ever do is fight for what we have. Don’t let it slip away this easy because you never know that what you have right now may be the best you’ll ever see. Show them how much worth they have to you, show them you’re not ready to let go, show them you’re not going to let go.

Though you may be going through this downhill stage in your relationship, always remember to fight. It’s the effort that counts. Remind them why you love them, remember the times where you were at your happiest. Bring back those memories to where you made them last. The butterflies, the smiles, the love. All you can ever do is prove to them how much you love them. Don’t let go so easily, bring back that joy into your relationship. I know how much you really do love to see them smile. Don’t you miss the way they smiled at you? If so, please don’t let go. This relationship of yours is worth too much to throw away. Make it last. And always remember that you’ll do anything just for a shot of their love.

I love you sayang :)

I love you blog

2011-03-03T02:01:00.003+08:00

Dear diary

Thanks for being there for me all along.. But now, I need to move on to somewhere else.. Do not worry, I'll be back again.. Just not so soon.

xoxo

Day 4. I am honestly.. Upset.

2011-03-02T23:21:00.003+08:00

Dear diary

I was still lethargic at work today.. But compared to yesterday, it was slightly better. Only had one pathetic sales today and it was Zp & Colin who helped me with it.

My muscle ache has been really bad.. And thankfully Zp and Colin massaged my neck and shoulders to make me feel better!

Some things happened right before knocking off. And I was that close to crying. Bye, I don't wanna talk about it anymore.

Overload :(

2011-03-01T19:21:00.005+08:00

If you must know, why I would always stay up to wait for your call.. :')

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Dear diary

Back to work! Thank goodness my telemarketing skills are still there. Just needed half an hour to refresh and get familiarized with everything again.. Kinda bored of the same old cycle I go through everytime I go back there to work, -.- It's only the first day of work and I'm already wondering if this would be the last time I'm working there. Cos I am seriously bored of the work.. And am working there again just because I love the people.

Lunch was definitely my all time favorite maggie goreng.. I know maggie is unhealthy and yeah there isn't much ingredients that can give me the nutrients I need. I'm gonna try cutting down on eating that, even though I love it so darn much :(

Anyway.. I had only 4 HOURS OF SLEEP. Training + kbox + 4hours of sleep = Horrible skin + eyebags + pale lips + everything else that's jialat!

Thankfully Zp made me some tea that kept me awake throughout the noon.. I was seriously about to start dozing off, -.- I find the current seating arrangement quite ok.. Love disturbing the blurrrrrr hipopo :P

Went Jp to get some stuff after work.. And yeah now I'm home. Boring life eh, :/

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Sigh I'm feeling really stressed up. I don't know what to do about it.. Listening to Cow's advice and gonna start practicing that habit and see if it works..

Bye.

The mistakes would never change the feelings :)

2011-03-01T01:52:00.003+08:00

Dear diary

Woohoo! I feel good today :) Didn't waste my time doing nothing.. I went for Tchoukball training in the evening and I'm glad my skills are still there.. But my stamina dropped A-LOT. And when I say alot, I mean it. Haven't been training for so long.. I hope I'll be able to make it for the training sessions even when it's a weekday. Need to brush up my skills for teens games!

Well anyway.. I left 45mins earlier from training cos I needed to have dinner before meeting the rest to sing K.. I was so, darn hungry. Like.. I cooked maggie in the noon, and added 3 hotdogs to it. I ended up only eating only a few mouthfuls of the maggie and all 3 hotdogs. I don't know why but I just didn't have appetite, sigh. Bought sushi when I reached Jp.. It's like my first decent meal of the day. But it's already 2am now and I'm feeling hungry again, -.-

Went to Jurong Safra kbox at 10pm to meet the rest! Had a great time singing.. And there were like a total of nine of us in one room Not squeezy though.. I'd call it cozy ;) My sis joined us much later cos she wasn't feeling well earlier on, but decided to come in the end. So... woohoo! As she promised, she's paying for me :P Sometimes I feel that the only thing that I have to cherish in this family is my sister. Like, how she pampers on me once in a while. (I know we bicker at times, lol)

So I left on my own at 12.45am.. Had a hard time flagging a cab, the roads were so empty :/ I need to sleep early! Work starting in less than 7hours' time. Omg. Why am I still awake? Cos I'm still drying my superrrrr long hair, -.-

Didn't get to talk much to sayang today.. But we managed to have a short conversation over the phone. He showers with so much love, more than I can ever ask for. I understand he's busy with work and all, but I really hope we'd spend more time talking/texting each other whenever possible~

I love you darling boy, :) I trust that you would bother to reply me whenever you're free, right?

Goodnight, bye~

An entry for.... You :)

2011-02-28T02:29:00.003+08:00

It's 2.30am now but I can't seem to fall asleep. Decided to write an entry for A.. :)

Dear sayang

Ever since the patch up, I am so glad that we are keeping communication open. I understand that at times we may have different opinions towards a certain issue, but nevertheless, it's all about give and take :) I'm learning to be a better partner, and I know I used to be really unreasonable regarding certain issues. Taking a step back to look at things from a different perspective, and also learning from others helped me greatly.

Darling boy, I hope you'll continue guiding me like how you've always been doing. When I reflect about how much I think I've changed.. I realized that most of the time, it's you who has done this "transformation" on me. I'd be able to say with confidence.. I'm definitely much clearer with what I want in life. What are the things I wish to accomplish by the age of 21, and what are the plans I should be making for myself.

Well I should say.. That's just part of it. . I'm just thankful and glad to have such an amazing darling boy, who's able to show me the way when I've got no idea where I should be heading to.

Thanks for being so wonderful, darling. You're the sweetest thing that has ever happened to me :) Love you ttm! xo

A unique date

2011-02-27T15:25:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I take a while to look closely at you darling, and I start to fall in love with you all over again..

Dear diary

I didn't write here last night cos I got home late..

I spent half of the day at home and went out for a date with A in the evening :) Well, we merely wanted to make the date simple cos we've already watched 2 movies within a week. . His idea of going Henderson waves was rejected due to the bad weather.. And I suggested going to Sentosa Boardwalk since the rain has stopped. It ended up pouring heavily again when I just stepped out, -.-

On the train we were discussing whether to go Vivo or elsewhere.. And we ended up heading to Bugis for dinner. Omggggggg I've been craving for that beef rendang for ages. Like ever since I first tried it last year, around the Hari Raya period.. Hehehe I'm so thankful sayang brought me there for dinner again! :D So I had a lil "fear factor challenge" after eating.. And I failed that challenge :/ He said that I shall try it again the next time we dine there! Omg *shivers*

We walked over to to Ritz and had a mango strudel for dessert :D I can't wait to go back there again and get the durian strudel! :)

Hanged around Bugis for a short while and surveyed the pet shop for meow2's new cage.. Hope we'd be able to find a more comfortable one for her real soon! Hehe walking around Bugis really gave me an idea of what to... :P Not telling, heh~

And our last stop was Chinatown. Bought some daily necessities.. It's the first time I brought sayang there and he had the same reaction as I did, when Hua first brought me there. Hahaha! :) I thought it was a really unique date cos we have never spent a day like this before.. Like, really simple, yet it's sweet at the same time.

Well I guess, "It's the people that make the place!" No matter where I'm at, it always feels wonderful with sayang around ;)

So we made our back at around 9.30pm, and I went home to get changed before going over to Hua's place. We were supposed to watch a movie together at her place, but we ended up webcamming with bb and having supper instead :/

Saw 2 uncles getting into a quarrel/fight, and the one at fault had the cheek to ring up the police! Well.. The police don't seem to be interested to entertain their nonsense anyway. Lol. Back to her place at 1.30am, continued the conversation with bb for another hour +.. Decided to go back home cos I need to bath and dry my hair before I can sleep.. :/

And now it's already 5 in the evening, I'm stuck at home doing nothing. Well well, I woke up rather late.. Not meeting sayang today cos he's got some family gathering going on. I'm really looking forward to our 2D1N stay in the upcoming weekend, hehe~

That's all, bye :)

I am number four

2011-02-26T01:43:00.002+08:00

Dear diary

I'm finally home! So tired after a loooooooong day..

It's 1.43am now. I hope I get my hair dried soon so I'll be able to sleep.

Met my classmates at 12pm+ today, had a quick lunch at Mac cos we were running late for the movie. Whoa, the show "I am number four" is seriously awesome. There were some funny incidents in the cinema too.. I think I can't sit together with Eric. We'll make too much noise, LOL.

Well well, we bought Starbucks coffee and headed to the Esplanade. Hanged around there from late noon till evening.. It was really relaxing to just sit by the river and chat while having a cup of cappuccino :) Made a sudden decision to meet my darling boy for dinner! So he came over to Esplanade and met me there cos his lesson was cancelled, and we had Thai Express :) Hanged around the Esplanade area and watched the water performance at MBS.. The lightings were gorgeous, :)

Oh and we watched "I am number four" after that. Like ummmm, I know I already watched it in the noon.. But since he's so interested and I thought the show's really awesome, I don't mind watching it again :)

Before the show started we tried "kiaping" soft toys but kinda failed terribly. Always so close, but still so far :(

I'm too tired to continue thinking if anything else that's interesting which happened today.

I.Want.To.Sleep.

Good night!

Always keep communication open :)

2011-02-24T23:19:00.004+08:00

I wanna watch Dear John with you again darling ;)

Dear diary

Ummm.. I actually stoned for quite a while before I started typing anything here. Woohoo! I didn't spend the whole day at home today~ Basically I went out in the late noon.. Shopped for baking ingredients at NTUC before heading over to bb's house to make my first attempt for fruit tarts. sigh, the custard didn't turn out well though. Hope that the next time when I try it again, it'll turn out fine!

So I hanged around her place till 10pm.. Looking through the pictures her Dad took and had a good laugh at the conversation between him and bb. Will never get along that well with my own Dad I guess, sigh. Uhh.. whatever -.-

I think I survived on a rather small amount of food today. Feeling alright though.. I hope my appetite remains like this~ Hopefully I won't get hungry in the middle of the night hmmm :/

Can't afford to sleep late today, meeting my classmates @ 12pm @ City Hall tomorrow. Will be catching a movie at Marina Square.. Hope we'll have a good time tomorrow! It's been a while since I last saw them. Like errrrr ever since the last day of UT3, which was last week? :X

I kinda forgot that tomorrow is Friday until I received a text from John asking me what time and where are we supposed to meet tomorrow. Gosh.. The problem with rotting during holidays. It makes me unaware of how the days are passing by. Glad that I'll be spending my time wisely by working from next Tuesday onwards!

Should I bring Peggy out tomorrow? Heh! I shall see if she'd take up too much space in my bag.. :P

That's all for today! Waiting for sayang to ring me soon.. Bye :)

You make me feel so beautiful when I'm with you.

2011-02-23T21:17:00.003+08:00

Peggy on the left, Sheepy on the right. Heh :P

LOL!!!

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Dear diary

I spent my whole day at home surfing the net. I was supposed to attend training in the evening.. BUT. Unfortunately, my sister took my one and only pathetic sports bra and I can't stand doing sports in normal bra so I decided to give training a miss today :/

I woke up pretty early today compared to other days.. Basically I was just looking around Fb and Twitter for the whole day, cos I couldn't find anything interesting to watch.. Had a ham & cheese sandwich for lunch and I lazed in bed the whole day -.-

I totally had no idea what to have for dinner. I thought I could da bao food to Hua's place and eat there, but apparently she wasn't going home straight after work.. Thankfully sayang didn't meet his parents for dinner today, so we met up at Jp for dinner! Hehehe ;) It was really simple but well, I always enjoy his companionship :)

Walked around Jp after dinner.. And I intend to get him something simple but useful. Hehehe..

I need to plan what can I do tomorrow. I don't wanna waste a day again :( Life is really boring to stay at home all day long. Like what sayang said, it is more practical to work in the day time and go out at night. But I'll only be starting work on the 1st of March, which is next Tuesday..

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There are still some things I can't get over about. Felt slightly better after sharing it with sayang yesterday, but seeing certain things really still make me feel upset. Well.. If that's how you see me as.. There's nothing much I can do about it. And before you talk about others, think about yourself. Weren't you once like this? (or even worse?) Sigh :/

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I know, it's a really short post today. Too bad.. I stayed home the whole day -_- I thought the only interesting thing I came across was this video.. A guy was commenting and imitating Singapore clubbers. Omg, he's one annoying fella but I gotta admit it's kinda hilarious :P

That's all for today! I hope I won't spend the whole day at home tomorrow :(

Bye!

Date on a weekday! :)

2011-02-22T23:35:00.002+08:00

LOL, I wonder what they saw! :P

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Dear diary

Weeeeeeeee! Sayang is finally back today! I set my alarm at 8.30am in the morning so that I'll be able to get up and text him! :P Was so glad to have gone on a date with him.. It's rare for us to get a chance to go on a day on a weekday cos he's usually busy with work. It felt sooooo wonderful today ;) So he bought me a penguin soft toy and we named her Peggy ;) She's really, really smooth!

Anyway.. What we did today was pretty simple but I really enjoyed myself. We went for lunch before catching the movie "Just go with it" @ Cineleisure. The movie was really awesome, I can't describe how much I love romance comedies :P Had a good laugh.. And most importantly, it's been such a long while since I spent time with my honey boy ;)

We hanged around Starbucks for 2 hours.. And talked about stuff.. Went for dinner @ Thai Express before picking up the 2 cats; Meow meow & Bobo! Bobo is such a good boy.. He was really quiet and didn't make any noise all the way back! But meow2 was so happy to see sayang she kept meowing non-stop, heh. It's been so long since I last heard her meowing massively :P

Oh anyway the taxi uncle who took us drove rather recklessly. He wasn't exactly speeding but driving at quite a high speed and kept changing lanes -_- There was a point in time he nearly crashed into the car ahead.. But thank goodness sayang called out to him and he stepped on the brake. So I kinda flew and hit my left cheek + shoulder against the front seat.. I hope I don't get any bruises :( I'm just glad that we made it back safely! Saw a really really bad accident around Bt Batok area on our way back..

Sent the cats back to his place and we went Ntuc to get some stuff. And we made our way home after that..

I'm so glad to have spent a whole day out with him.. And most definitely I love the gifts which he bought from Aussie, they're really adorable :D Thank you for being so sweet hun, I really appreciate every lil thing you do for me :) Look forward to our next date! Hehehe..

I'll take pictures of Peggy and post it here soon!

Goodnight,

And hun, you're the special one I'm afraid to lose.

2011-02-21T20:14:00.011+08:00

I miss your smile hun, can't wait to see you :)

Yes, there's just something special about my honey boy.. That won't allow me to give up on us. Not a single bit.

And I do wanna... Grow old with you, hun :')

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Dear diary

YAYYYY! 12 more hours and sayang would arrive in Sg! Gosh I can't contain my excitement. Sometimes I find it better for me to write out what I'm feeling than to share it with people who would take it negatively. Maybe it's just my nature.. That I can't bottle up my emotions. But all I hope for is just someone who would be there for me, and don't mind me getting all excited when something important to me is about to happen.

10 days.. It isn't an extremely long period of time, but more or less things have changed. And honestly speaking every now and then I am still living in fear. All I want is to have a sweet and peaceful life with my dear boy, that's it. I get really stressed up when I know the near future is gonna be really tough.. Now all I want is to see him badly, get a nice big hug and feel more reassured.

My day was fine. In the noon, I managed to have a short conversation with sayang regarding whether he'd have time to meet me tomorrow. I'm hoping that everything would go smoothly.. And that we can meet. I miss him real badly. I'm really sorry for being so unreasonable at times, but I know.. For this special boy I'm changing for the better :') I know it's just a couple of hours more.. But over here I'm missing him so terribly I'm on the verge of crying.

Went over to drop my last letter for him today.. I wrote him a total of 9 letters. I take a pen and paper with me everywhere I go.. Just in case at any point of time I've got something in mind that I wanna write to him. And everytime after I pen it down, I feel so much better. All that stress that I've been going through.. I'm trying hard to hold myself close so I won't break down, sigh.

Anyway I was supposed to spend the day at Sentosa with my classmates. I'm sorry.. But I'm really not in the mood to have fun under the sun. I just wanna spend my day in a simple way today. Ended up playing pool with Jun and we met Hua @ Clementi for KOI in the evening.. And now I'm back home.

I've been writing here everyday lately because there's so much I'm going through which I don't exactly know what's the best way to let it out. Like.. I write a whole lot here, but still inside there I'm struggling. I wished there was a better way for me to ease the pain, sigh :'(

Honey I know we've spoken about that issue before.. Please hold me close. I don't wanna struggle on my own :'( I look forward to seeing you really, really soon. It's been way too long since I last saw you and I'm feeling really terrible now. Miss you tons.

A peaceful Sunday

2011-02-20T19:18:00.004+08:00

Stay close alright hun? :)

Dear diary

I pretty much wasted a day.. Or much rather I spent some time at home resting. Well I woke up at 2.30pm cos I only managed to get some sleep @ close to 5.30am..

My day was really simple. I washed up and had lunch, and surfed the net till now.. Which is like.. 7.30pm. Spent most of the time on Tumblr :) Spent the whole day at home cos the girls are all busy with their stuff today, and well.. I've got nothing going on today :(

Loading the movie "Faster" now.. Gonna watch it cos Dwayne Johnson is acting in it :P

(Have been waiting for sayang to come online.. And yay! He's finally online now :D)

I'm intending to go for a jog later on.. Cos I had supper yesterday and I'm feeling sinful for that :/ Still contemplating if I should go Sentosa tomorrow with my classmates. The exact reason/excuse would be.. I'm lazy :/ I know it's gonna be lots of fun! But I'm afraid that I can't get up on time -_- Errrrrr I'll make a decision after my jog eh? :P

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Didn't mention what we girls talked about last night.. It was mainly on relationships and our future plans. So it seems that Teo and I are facing similar problems.. But yeah I believe all of us will be able to work our own solutions out.

And then I added on regarding A's plan to study abroad.. That's when I felt so urgh.. I don't know why but yes it's contradicting.

I want the best for him, but at the same time I'm so unwilling to let him go so far away from me.

So I think the best way to put it would be, my heart totally sank when he told me about plans to study abroad. And that I want his companionship with me here, in Singapore :'(

It's like a tug of war I'm having in me. Yes no yes no.. I find myself struggling to put aside this issue cos it has been bothering me every now and then :( I want to talk to darling badly about this but at the same time I need to do it cautiously so he wouldn't misunderstand my intention..

FML. Before I go into deep thoughts again, I better stop here.

Bye!

Love you hun!

Counting down.. Tuesday is arriving soon! :)

2011-02-20T03:54:00.004+08:00

Lol, chubbbbbbby ttm :P

Dear diary

I failed to chat with sayang on Fb again today cos I was out with my girls, walking around Jp. The original plan was to bake egg tarts @ Hua's place but we ended up at Jp as she wanted to look around for her bed. Had dinner and walked around, all of us (Hua , Jun & I) managed to get new footwear. My slippers are wearing out already so yep, I bought a new pair! :)

Headed back to Hua's place at around 9pm+? Managed to bake the egg tarts but results didn't turn out as expected.. Sigh, we'll try again next time :/ I'm feeling really sinful now cos we headed out for supper at 11.30pm. And following on we spent some time in the park chit chatting, while watching Teojh jog.

And one more guy came later on and joined Teo to jog.. So what we did was to hang around the park and chit chat all the way till 3am. Yeah, so much that we could talk about.

It's already 4.30am now so I need to get some sleep soon.

My day was really simple. I just hate the part which I missed out on chatting with my honey boy, aww. Sigh I hate how time passes without being able to spend it with him. As much as I'm trying to put my thoughts aside, honestly speaking, I still have that fear in me.. That he might be leaving for Aussie soon :'( I don't wanna lead life without him, urgh.

Whatever it is.. As I've mentioned before. Wait and plan. I need to sleep like real badly now. Bye. Shall write something to honey boy again when I get up.

Miss you hun, xo.

2011-02-18T23:41:00.003+08:00

Miss you much darling, come back soon! xo

Dear diary

I didn't manage to chat with sayang today cos I got home later than usual.. Spent the evening with my girls at Chinatown. Had dinner but the food was average.. Disappointed with the xiao long bao!

Anyway today marks the end of UT3, the end of year 1.. I can't believe a year just passed like that. It means that I've already known my honey boy for a year! Awwwww :)

Well, on the other hand it means that my holidays have begun.. I'm still unsure of when I should start working cos I've been lacking proper rest, like.. Sometimes I stay up late for no reason and end up feeling exhausted the following day -_-

Was thinking if I should get up for a morning jog tomorrow followed by breakfast, but I need my beauty sleep. It's more important than anything else for now. Have been getting up really early these days just for UT..

Oh btw, I'm feeling rather disturbed by the things one of my friends told me on msn yesterday. I've been wanting to let sayang know but unfortunately I was unable to chat with him online today..

Like urgh, why make things so awkward for yourself dude? Zzzzzz. Not feeling pissed but it's just, get a hold of yourself.

Well enough of unhappy stuff for now. I managed to buy my hair mask earlier on, but I couldn't find sayang's facial cleanser today. Seems like it's out of stock for now! Shall get it for him again if I visit Chinatown again..

We headed back to Jp and had a random urge to play arcade.. So yeahhhh we had a good work out cos we played two consecutive games of basketball! Not forgetting Daytona and some other games too.. It's not exactly considered as wasting money to have fun like this once in a while right? Heh! :P

So we made our way home only at 11pm+.. And I'm really, really tired now :/

Feeling kinda empty cos I didn't chat with him today -_- It's been days since I last saw him, finally gonna see him next week! Hehehe ;)

It's a short entry today, my brain's switching off already.

Goodnight! :)

Day 6. Honey boy is coming back soon! :)

2011-02-17T19:24:00.008+08:00

One year back! Hahaha, good old times ;)

Dear diary

It's almost 7.30pm Singapore time now.. And I'm waiting for honey boy to come online soon (hopefully). Usually he'd be online much earlier, I guess he finally made it to the theme parks today that's why he has yet to come online :P

Anyway UT was really manageable today, and I'm surprised to bump into Firoz & Vincent in the same classroom. Have been receiving texts from Eric these 2 mornings with regards to bumping into familiar facilitators, -.- His UT facilitator today was our Engrg Design faci. Eh, I don't like him.

Well, it's just that he has been giving me endless amounts of "C" for daily grades even when I really did attempt to contribute my part to the team's prototype. . Ohhhh well it's over, put that aside :)

(Just as I was talking about Engrg Design.. I heard from my classmates that its UT2 grade is out. OMG I PASSED! ^^)

I intended to meet Jun for lunch after UT today, but when I rang her she was still sleeping.. So.. Had lunch at TRCC with my classmates instead, and I was soooooo delighted to bump into Bob! It's been ages since I last saw him, and urgh I forgot to rub his tummy today :P

After lunch I was dragged by my classmates to AMK Hub and we played pool for around 2hours.We took bus from Woodlands all the way there.. Yet another loooong bus ride. Surprisingly I didn't fall dead asleep this time round, I guess I had a good rest last night =)

Headed back on my own cos they wanted to have dinner there but I wasn't feeling hungry yet. Don't you guys just hate that sudden gush of fart smell when you're in the train? Like urghhhhhhh, I was taking a nap and got woken up by that foul smell -.- Random, I know :P

So I got home in the evening, and I had dinner a while ago. It's the last day of Cny that's why Mum prepared so many dishes. Originally I planned to drop letters @ sayang's place, but I realized I haven't sealed them and I didn't have water/stickers with me at that point of time :( Urghhhhh.

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Last paper tomorrow, and it'd be declaration of holidays! And I haven't made a decision yet, regarding when I should start working. I don't wanna work my whole holiday away, I wanna save some time for myself to have fun!

Heading out for some shopping and yummy food with my girls tomorrow evening. And omg, I can't wait for Monday night cos.... When I wake up the following day, sayang would be back in Singapore! Heh, :P

Alright I'm gonna get my ass to Hua's place now, at least there'd be someone to keep me company while I stay by the computer :)

When I need you so badly, I turn selfish :(

2011-02-16T17:12:00.003+08:00

(Ok I look damn fat here but who cares, heh)

Dear diary

It's 5pm in the evening now.. It's unusual that I'll blog so early. But I just have too many thoughts going through my mind and I'm trying to stop myself from falling apart.

I started doing a "compare and contrast table" in my mind the moment I stepped out of my house today. On the bus, on the train.. Anywhere. I just needed to filter out my thoughts and put them in an orderly manner.

Studying part time in sg without working = More time to concentrate and study

Studying full time in Aussie (definitely without working) = More time to concentrate and study

Y'know I'm just really afraid of what's gonna happen.. I'm afraid of losing his companionship. He has already became a part of me, so closely attached that I'm gonna panic when he's not around.

But as I have mentioned.. As much as I want him to stay by my side.. I know it's selfish. And that he has the right to pursue in what he wants. I know what I'm gonna talk about is for the long run, but yeap I gotta start looking far.

We are gonna lead a more stable and comfortable life, we are gonna grow stronger together and learn to cherish + appreciate each other more. He'd have a brighter future, and life would definitely be made easier when there's a better paying job. Ultimately I still want him to be back in Sg after completing his studies :'( I want us to be together, hun.

Goshhhhh. I have confidence in us that we'll pull it through, no matter what obstacle it may be. I tried telling myself distance would be a physical obstacle that we've never been through before.. And it seems really scary. Imagine. Now we're staying 10-15mins away from each other. And it's gonna become hours of travelling to the other side of the globe.

Fugggggg :(

Whatever it may be, I only wanna talk about it when it's the right time. For now, I need to get myself to STOP worrying about all these. And most definitely I need my darling to reassure me! :(

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UT sucked today, I was totally mindfucked while staring at the questions. Sighhhhh so much for being unable to control my emotions last night, ended up brooding over that issue instead of doing revision..

Bumped into GJ while waiting for my classmates to finish their papers. Had a quick catchup session.. And when it comes to him, I always have tons to talk about. He seems to be able to feel why I'm so troubled :( And yeahhhh my mood got better after having lunch @ CWP's Ajisen with my classmates. Went to Kiddy Palace and I saw sooooooooo many of ducky's cousins :P

I headed over to visit meow2 at 3pm, and hanged around there for half an hour or so. The lady was really friendly! Her cats kept walking around me.. And one of them even happily rolled around my lap and kept smelling me when I was sitting down infront of meow's cage! How adorable~~

Happily chatting with darling on Fb now, but he went to have dinner already. Shall patiently wait for him to be done and ask him about his day :)

Bye!

I love you, favorite boy ;)

I hate myself for having selfish thoughts

2011-02-15T23:07:00.004+08:00

Dear diary

Sayang and I have been communicating like normal already, and I'm really thankful for that.

Our conversation ended a while ago, he went to bed already. And I gotta admit I started feeling panicky and helpless when he told me about the suggestion from his Dad, which he is taking into serious consideration.

I am afraid.

I have never ever been through anything similar to this before.

And honestly speaking, I have no idea how to face it.

I want the best for my honey boy, and I hope his decision would not be influenced by what the SIM staff/his Dad said. Ultimately, I want it to be what he's interested in.

Gosh I'm all jittery and I don't know what to say.

I even starting weeping when he told me about his plans.. I mean, looking far ahead, he's doing something to ensure stability and comfort for us. Yes, I'm so confidently saying "us". And no doubt I believe that he has proven to me.. He's the one I wanna spend the rest of my life with :') Ok, I know it's too early to talk about all these but once in a while I get random thoughts like this.

I am just afraid of facing life alone without him by my side, guiding me through. And yes at the same time.. I wouldn't want to be so selfish to tell him not to do what he wants to.

I just.. I need him :(

It's not just that I've gotten used to life with him around and I'd go crazy if he's not in my daily life anymore. It's that he has always been here.. Guiding me, and holding me close whenever I'm about to fall apart. What's gonna happen when he's not around? :'(

I hate how selfish my thoughts are right now. I'm sorry honey, I just.. I would be selfish towards anything which would take you away from me :'( I understand it's the long-term goal that you're working on, and most definitely I'd wanna lead a stable + comfortable life with you!

I need a really tight hug from you now.. And whisper into my ears that this would only make our love stronger, and nothing else changes.

Damn it. I'm still feeling jittery now, I don't know how to express that exact feeling I'm having now.

Darling, I just wanna let you know how much I love you and need you by my side. Nevertheless, I'd always be supporting the decisions you've made, for I know that you're working on a long-term goal; building a comfortable future for us. Please come back from your holiday trip real soon. I need your reassurance so badly :( Love you TTM!

I don't tell you how much I love you everyday because I treat it as a routine. But it's to let you know, how much I really appreciate you honey. It's more than words y'know..

xoxo

If I could choose a place to live in forever, it'd be your heart.

2011-02-14T23:23:00.003+08:00

Dear diary

I feel wonderful today.. Cos my hard work paid off :') We're finally talking again, and building everything back together bit by bit.

I know that time has not been very kind to my honey boy, and he has been burning candles at both ends. May this holiday getaway allow him to loosen up!

I know that we do bicker at times and my insecurities kept building up cos we haven't been spending much time together during his busy periods. But thank you honey boy, for tolerating my temper and giving in to me all the while. I know that I've been really bad, and well.. I just hope that one day when we look back, we'll say to each other.. "We've grown, :')"

I managed to get up on time today. Or much rather, I dragged myself out of the bed. It's unusual for me to decide on walking to school from Woodlands Mrt.. Because I'm just lazy :/ Originally, I Intended to hop on to a cab from Woodlands to RP since it's so near, but the taxi queue was really long and there's no cab at all.

So I took my first UT3 paper today. It was quite manageable, I expect to achieve at least a "pass" for it. My nightmare comes tomorrow-- Math paper. Gawd, please let me clear it. I don't hope for wonderful results but I wanna pass it real, real badly!

I stayed in school after UT ended today. Played Wii and had lunch before I started studying with my classmates. Today was more like a recap session, for all the questions which I had done last week.

I was so excited when I saw my darling boy online in Fb chat in the evening. Nice timing, cos I happened to have finished revising what I had already planned to focus on. Stayed online for half an hour more before leaving school.. I was in one of the library's reading rooms and I went screaming "Ahhhhhhh we're chatting!!!!!!" My classmates were all ready to leave but looking at how delighted I am to converse with him, they stayed on and accompanied me till we're done. Thanks a million, you guys are awesome :')

Dinner @ Jun's place with Hua.. I arrived late, so more or less they have already prepared the ingredients required. We started eating at around 8pm I guess? We dimmed the lights, and lighted up the candles. Had sparkling juice (cos we don't really like red wine). We had chicken & mushroom soup as an appetizer, followed by pasta, then mango sago as dessert.

I was once again smiling till I couldn't keep my lips together after dinner. Cos.. I eagerly went online to check if he's still free to chat, and yeah I was pleasantly surprised to see that he's online! Had another conversation with him and I decided to go pay Meow2 a visit after my Physics UT, which is on Wednesday. However I'll need to contact the lady to check whether she's free that day :)

Honey, I'm looking forward to your return. I miss those hugs and cuddles, and most importantly your presence. Love you TTM TTM TTMMM :P Can't wait to see you online again soon! I hope you'll have fun at the theme parks :)

I miss your warmth hun.

2011-02-13T23:06:00.003+08:00

Dear diary

I'm glad to have finally heard from him.. And I just wanna tell him, let's be lovey dovey again alright honey?

Everyday I'd experience random moments whereby I miss him so darn much, I could kill to see him. I found a way to make myself feel better-- By writing down my thoughts into letters.. For him. I need his warmth, I need Vitamin L, I need all my "nutrients" from him.

My body has really been rejecting food. Didn't have a single bite till evening today.

Revision session failed.. We did not find a suitable location and the school's library was closed. Everywhere which has tables were already taken up. We hanged around TRCC and attempted studying, but ended up getting distracted by the net.

Stayed in school till 4.30pm and we headed back to CWP. Initial plan was to go JP and "kiap" soft toys.. I just wanted to pamper myself a lil. Eric was hungry so we settled down to eat @ CWP Swensens. Ordered fries for myself.. But I went to the toilet and puked everything out. My stomach was just so uncomfortable.. I can't stand the feeling of food in it.

Left for JP and met my bbgirls to buy ingredients for our V'day dinner tomorrow. Bought Sushi.. And I'm glad this time round I didn't puke. Finally, a source of energy.. I feel really weak but I don't have the guts to eat more :( I just don't wanna risk throwing up again.

So we bumped into Zl & Ch @ Jp. We spent around half an hour or so at Prize stage "kiaping" soft toys. Spent a bomb today, but didn't succeed at all. I just felt like getting something for myself to lighten up my mood. Hope for better luck next time..

UT starts at 11am tomorrow. Spending my V'day noon in Wii room and the library to study.

Hey sayang, I've been missing you since you left me. Stay close... Don't go. I'm looking forward to your return, please give me a big teddy hug when you're back. It's really starry tonight. And the moon's looking gorgeous too. Shall we try flying a kite at night some day? Love you, xo

I looked at the stars and immediately, I thought of you

2011-02-13T02:26:00.005+08:00

Dear diary

I hope he has landed safely in Australia already, and that he'll have a good rest before he starts having fun.

I spent my day with my bbg today. I try my best not to be alone for this period of time cos I don't wanna let my thoughts run wild. I'm thankful for her suggestion to bring me to Henderson Waves and relax. .

Night drives.. Makes me feel so much better. And the scenery there is really nice, the stars, the wind and all.. I wanna go there together with him some time :')

Had a can of booze each while enjoying the calmness there. For that period of time.. I just let the wind take my silly thoughts away, take every negative thing in me away.. And start telling myself. Here, I need to start looking on the positive side again.

Went to Bt Timah for supper.. And yeah, the first person that came to my mind was none other than my darling boy. We've been there together countless times for good food, and most definitely we love the satay. I had my usual all-time-fav tonight-- Maggie goreng. I don't wanna make complicated orders for maggie goreng on my own. For this, I wanna be dependent on him. He, who always helps me to make long-and-troublesome order for maggie goreng.

And we left the place around 12midnight.. Driving along that road.. Reminds me of him. Every single lil thing. It's making me wanna see him right now. My first time trying the food there.. It was also him who brought me there. That was after Tchoukball training, I remember really clearly. And then.. I fell in love with the food there :')

We are such gluttons who would travel all the way from Jurong West to Bt Timah just for good food. Gawd, I really miss resting on his shoulder during long bus rides :(

So we dropped by Jp to do some stuff before sending me home. Thank you all, who have been there for me tonight to lighten up my mood. I love you all!

Just to sidetrack for a while.. My stomach has been getting really weak. My body is sort of rejecting food. Every time I attempt to grab a bite, I always end up feeling like I wanna puke. That's good, I lost more weight. On the other hand I wish my health would get better.

It's getting late.. And I promised my classmates that I'll study with them tomorrow. I better get a good rest. Goodnight sayang, love you! *hugs*

My beloved honey boy, I don't wanna see you making a verdict on our relationship just like that. It's just the start, and I have confidence in us; that we'll be able to make things fine. Please trust me and let's work for it together.

To a faraway land

2011-02-12T13:23:00.004+08:00

Dear diary

It's 1.24pm now and I'm sure he has already checked in at the airport. I woke up staring at the ceiling and started to think through over and over again. What went wrong, and what can be done. I always believe in this-- When there's a will, there'd definitely be a way.

I hope he holds the same will as I do to pull it through. I know he's stressed up and all, I wasn't understanding enough for that.. But I hope he'll see that people do change for the better, for someone who means a whole lot to him/her.

And yes, I'm one of those who'd give anything to make us better :')

I remember speaking to one important person last night. And I know everything said was meant nothing but good. But you know there's one thing about me.. I can go to countless people for advice, but at the end of the day, more or less I'd end up sticking to what I believe in.

As afraid as I can be feeling right now, I'm taking out all the courage that I have left to do what I believe in.

Today kind of marks the beginning for me to work on being a better partner (for him). I know many of you out there are wondering about what has been going on.. It's been a really chaotic week of ups and downs. And now all I wanna do is just to sit down and reflect. Cos I'm determined to do something about it, not just walking out of us.

I'm sincerely thankful for all the concern, but I have to clarify that my darling boy isn't bad at all. He's really special, so special that maybe I don't know how to handle him well, that's why things ended up this way.

I learnt this from my Primary school CO instructor, when I was once late for practice.

He told me, "Better late than never."

Things may have went wrong, tough times may be here, but doing something to improve/change the situation would always be better late than never.

I think my precious knows me best, that I don't fancy any superficial stuff. What I'm looking for lies deep within the heart. Genuinity and sincerity; which he has both of it! I was too greedy to think that he's not sincere enough to me.

I'm writing here every now and then, whenever I have a sudden thought about something. I really wonder if he'll still be reading anything here.. Whether he does or doesn't, I still wanna say..

I know I've been really really bad, but I need your trust (so badly) that I'm ready to change for the better :')

It's been an hour of writing here. I guess I should wash up and get out of the house for some fresh air.

I miss you darling.

When the muscle gets tired, the mind takes over

2011-02-12T03:13:00.006+08:00

Dear diary

I'm so glad at least I finally got to see where the problem is coming from, and what is his point of view. And I am pretty much very sure, I ain't giving up so easily.

He didn't just make me stay in love. He never fails to make me fall in love over and over again with him..

I feel so loved that he trusts me so dearly. And as I reflected on our relationship, I feel sincerely apologetic that I've been taking this trust for granted. I never ever wanted to learn cherish through losing. It's the process of growing up that he has been guiding me through, that made me wanna be a better person not just for myself, but also for him. I'm hanging to to hope and faith for what I believe in.

To have made it thus far, and even gave my friends a shock when I mentioned to them I wanna settle down with him, I know things are gonna somehow work again. Yes, there's a couple of them who'd say "Why? You still young leh!!"

I'm sorry, I don't see things that way.

I have never felt this way before.. Never felt so attached to anyone before, to the extent I think of long-term plans like settling down. And one extra factor we're facing is.. Inter-race. (Most definitely that has never stopped me from falling in love with him at all) I spoke to people that I come across on the net, asking them for advice etc, hoping to make things go more smoothly.

Certain things like this, I've never ever mentioned to him before.

For I think that.. What's best is to just keep these thoughts within me, put them aside till the time comes to talk about it. Oh and what's more, I don't see the point in looking for someone better when I'm already feeling so blissful (Having bumps is normal) in my current relationship. If my mindset is just to keep looking for someone better than him, I'll never be able to find the right one.

Some time back I remember him telling me he'd be going for SIM degree. And yes, despite hating my brother to the core, I did sit down and think about how he and his girlfy maintained their relationship while he's studying and she already graduated. I admit I looked up to him for this. The one and only thing I see him as an example to follow..

So that contributes to the list of things which I've thought about but never told A about it before. I did sit down and think..

"Hmm, I guess he'll be more busy when he enters SIM, cos studying for a degree is gonna be tougher. Maybe we can change our meeting days to purely weekends instead, or once in a while have dinner together on a weekday. Whatever it is, I'll only talk to him on the phone if he's not studying, since that's what my bro & his girlfy does during the examinations period. For now, I'll just put my plans aside till his uni starts."

I know I talk a lot, a WHOLE lot to him. But I don't talk about every single thing though..

Stuff like that were never ever told, maybe that's why he thinks I'll be really upset when he can't spend time with me once uni starts. I doubt he'll read my blog anymore, but I really have so much left untold. I'm utterly sorry that I've been such a bitch.. I know he's always working hard to earn more $ not only to contribute to his uni fees, but also to bring me out for better food/dates etc..

Now as I sit down in the middle of the night, I think about so damn much. But I'm just telling myself.. Hey Jiahui, you're gonna be one strong Telur goreng who's gonna continue loving him and working things out, because everything that is worthy ain't easy. And with the start of his holiday trip, marks the start of my "training" to become a more understanding partner.

I didn't promise to change overnight, weeks, or months. But what I will always be consistently doing is to improve on what I myself know it's a flaw.

A part of me will always be with him.

And I'm here waiting with open arms,

cos I have faith in us :')

For the past 2 nights, I'm thankful that MHK has told me so much. I know I'm stubborn and not gonna listen to any advice related to "giving up". I'm just glad he's so supportive of whatever I plan to do.

Dearest boy, I know you're worth my efforts and I'll always be trying hard for you. Let us work a way out, for there's so much we've not yet done together.

Wishing him a safe flight and awesome holiday trip in Australia! I hope he'll miss me like how I'd miss him too :/

Everyone who has been holding me close, telling me to study hard for UT3.. I won't give up alright? I'll see you guys this weekend to study, before we head out for some relaxation..

It's already 4.15am. I better turn in soon.

I need you now

2011-02-11T16:03:00.007+08:00

Hiding myself at Jun's place.

I don't wanna step out.

I feel ugly.

I'm unwanted.

I'm abandoned.

Sheepy is abandoned too.

Have been crying the moment I woke up till now.

I feel glad to have my classmates holding me close.

I'm sorry but I am stubborn/determined to work everything out.

Looking through everything brings back so much memories.

This song I'm sharing here..

Brings back the most memories, and yes I've been listening to it over and over again.

We watched this movie twice together.

It was our first official date.

Now I'm left here all on my own..

Thinking hard about what else could be done to work things out.

I wonder why do you not love me anymore, all of a sudden, just like that..

Don't you see that even though you make me upset at times,

you're also the reason behind my smile and happiness?

I love how perfectly you complete me.

We've been through so much,

and made it thus far.

Do you even know how special you make me feel?

A woman, yet a lil girl at the same time.

I'd give it all,

I'd give for us,

Give anything but I won't give up.

2011-02-09T23:02:00.002+08:00

Thank you honey boy for the pretty pretty orange roses! ;)

Sorry for being such a badddddddd girlfriend :( Love you!

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School was fine today, relief faci again. Stayed back after class ended for Math revision with the usual people.. Was rather productive =) Managed to cover complex numbers, differentiation and integration. Tomorrow's plan will be studying for Physics! Meeting them in RP again this coming Sunday to continue studying too.. So much mugging :(

As Saturday draws closer, I feel more.. :( Gonna be bored TTM without honey boy with me. Nevertheless, I hope this holiday trip would make him more relaxed!

Okay I'm gonna wait for his call nowwwww, bye :B

Vday? :(

2011-02-07T19:10:00.002+08:00

Gawddddd I'm feeling so..... I don't know what's the right description but.. Feeling sweet as I listen to people telling me about their V'day plans, and also green in envy looking at pictures of advance V'day surprises.

I also wanna celebrate V'day with A leh :( x 1000000000000000

Too bad he's gonna be having fun in Auzzie while I'm stuck here.. Gonna prepare candlelight dinner with my darlings on V'day itself :/ If only it wasn't UT week.. We could go out for a couple of drinks :/

Keong was showing me the picture of the necklace he bought for VKG as a V'day gift.. I thought it's really sweet for him to try so hard ;) On the other hand, J should just stop all his rubbish lah. It's been a year already, then now he's telling us stuff like that.. Seriously I don't feel like entertaining him at all -.-

Okay, end of ranting. Bye :(

Rabbit yearrrrrr!

2011-02-07T10:42:00.006+08:00

Haven't been updating for the past few days!

Well well..

I spent two nights of CNY drinking and surprisingly I didn't get drunk. On the second day of CNY, I went out at night to chill at Wheelock's Starbucks with my girls and ended up meeting Anita @ Arena or 2+ 3am for a couple of drinks. Sent my drunk sweetheart home and I walked home form her place. Whoa, only managed to get some sleep at close to 6am.

The following day I woke up in the noon to meet my girls.. Movie + reunion dinner gathering at Vivo. Bought Chivas for our drinking session @ night @ Jg's place.. Accompanied Felicia home to put her stuff and get her clothes together with Hua.. Zl picked up us by cab and headed to Jg's place together. My plan was to head home at perhaps 2+ 3am cos I'm really tired and I wanna meet my honey boy the following day. . But I ended staying till 4am+, helping out to take care of the drunkards. I'm glad I didn't get drunkkkkkk =D Well, so many things happened that night.. Let's just hope things would get better ehhhhh :)

Went to Bee's place to bai nian with the Tchoukball girls yesterday, had fun at her place! :D Went off to meet A at Jp for dinner before I headed to Jun's and Hua's place to bai nian.. Hmmm, Cny has been fine for me up till now~

A's flying off this coming weekend, :'( No one to talk me to sleep for 10 days, omg. . I hope the 10 days would just quickly fly past -_-"

(Heyyyyyyy there honey boy, thanks for making me feel so special ;) Love you maxxxxx!)

2011-02-03T14:52:00.002+08:00

It's the rabbit year~

Well, I don't feel excited for CNY at all this year -.-

Last night's reunion dinner wasn't even reunoin, lol. It's okay, pretty used to it anyway. I will feel awkward if we sit down together and eat. So I went over to Hua's place after dinner and we painted our nails. Supposed to go for a walk at the park nearby, but it was drizzling so we stayed indoors.. Had fun playing with the webcam taking weird pictures, hahaha :) Should've brought Ducky & Sheepy over!

Helped to put up some CNY decorations and I hanged around there till 11pm+ .. Went home to bath & sleep. Woke up at close to 2pm today and I'm rotting at home for the whole of today.. Not going Jb. Waiting for Kailing's family to come over later on. Can't wait for tomorrow, finally heading out! :D Ooooh and sayang's family is arriving in Sg tomorrow too.. I miss his Mum's cooking real, real badly. And of cos I miss her prettaye sister who goes.. "Kaching! Krrr krr krr" HAHAHAHA! That one, I guess only the 3 of us would understand the meaning of it :P

Alright I'm gonna snack on some delicious yet fattening pineapple tarts now, byeeee!

Not in the CNY mood

2011-02-01T23:57:00.002+08:00

Heyyyyy~ :D

Didn't blog yesterday cos I got home late.. Had a reunion dinner with TGT at Somerset 313.. Basically it was just a few hours of gathering and catch up session.. I had never knew that Charlene and I would end up having so much to talk about, hehehe~

Went to Cineleisure's arcade and behaved like lil kids, :P I left @ 9.30pm to meet sayang and take Mrt home together.

Today...........

I partial-ed cos I really wasn't in the mood to study. Oh and Hua came over to RP for lunch.. So we left togetherrrrr.. I headed to SMV to collect my cash cheque, back to Jurong to thread my eyebrows with Hua, and headed to Jp to meet sayang in the evening for dinner. Back to his place for some spring cleaning and cuddled till night.

That's all, I'm tired, bye.

Eric's 18th @ MBS

2011-01-30T11:31:00.014+08:00

More pics will be uploaded on fb once I've sorted them out~

Whoa, last night was awesome~ :D

So I went out in the noon to meet Cow, Hy & John to get Eric's birthday present before heading over to his party. We bought him Sean John unforgivable perfume~ So while waiting for Keong to arrive, we hanged around Marina Square and attempted to "kiap" soft toys. LOL! Cow managed to get a xiaobai for me, xiexieni ohhhhh :D I tried on my own but failed all 3 attempts -.- zzz

Went to Topman & Levi's after Keong arrived.. He didn't manage to buy his stuff anyway~ We were planning to walk to MBS but due to the rain, we decided to split into 2 different cabs and just meet at the hotel lobby there.. Eric came to fetch us upstairs~ Whoa, the lift powerrrrr! Zoooooooooooooom! My ears were suffering due to the pressure, -.-

Put our stuff at his room, then we went to the skypark and take a walk.. It was raining so I didn't manage to take pictures of the scenery, omg T_T So we went back to the 1st floor and walked around the mall cos Eric was busy fetching his other friends~ Erm but still, we went back to his room in a short while cos there's nothing much at the mall to entertain us..

By the time we went back there, it was packed with humans, lol.

Was pretty shy initially, but felt comfortable with the crowd after a few drinks. There were 2 "bartenders" last night, hahahahaha~ It's been a while since I last played the drinking game.. And I really can't stand Bacardi, my mouth was burningggggggg after drinking the shots. Stopped playing halfway through cos I went to puke.. And erm, I know I got a lil sugar rush after that and was pretty high, but I wasn't exactly drunk I guess. I was told that I.......... Lol, I felt it's really funny though :X

Had around 7 shots if I'm not wrong? Keong took 3 for me, bwahaha :D And yeah my emotions always fluctuate when I'm tipsy.. The way Keong stroked my head to sleep felt exactly like how A does that to me.. If only, IF only, it was really him.. John made me tea and I took a short rest.. Woke up feeling hungry so.. John peeled the chicken into smaller pieces and fed me, HAHAHAHAHAHAHA poor him, ownself wanna eat also cannot, ended up letting me eat instead :X

Oh and btw, Eric was already wasted and asleep by then. We left his room around 1am+.. Walked out of MBS to get a cab cos the queue was really loooooong~ Talked about love matters with Keong while walking.. So he claims that I told him my secrets when I was wasted.. Oh well but he already told me what I said, so.. Hmmm..

Shared a cab home with 3 of Eric's friends.. Royce even went to dig my IC and check my address, LOL! All of us stay in the west.. Dropped so many people a text when I reached home -___-

Did I mention that one of Eric's friends was so wasted, he slept on the bathroom floor? Gawd.. Well the bathroom's huge though~ Heh..

Well to sum last night up.. I thought it was really, really fun. Got to know sooooooo many people there, and they're all really fun to be around with.. Can't wait for more of such parties~ :D

There's so much to say, but I think I've already let it all out last night, so over here, I'll just keep to it the happy stuff.. :)

Bye!

Irresponsible

2011-01-28T17:43:00.002+08:00

School was so boring today.. And the weather made me really sleepy! During lunch break, I went to CWP with 3 other classmates.. Took a cab there as it was raining.. So we bought some fattening snacks and went back to school~ I did something really dumb on the way back and they laughed at me :/ Ok fine, I feel silly to do that. LOL!

I slept after presentation today.. Was too tired to stay awake throughout the whole 3rd meeting, plus all the lights were switched off, it totally added on to my sleepiness. Furthermore MHK partialed today cos he's feeling unwell, one less person to entertain me on twitter :( Oh and I forgot to pack my jacket into my bag before going out today.. Keong's jacket kept me warm throughout the dayyyyy :D I bet he must be freezing in that singlet, HAHAHA!

MHK asked me to stay over at the hotel tomorrow if I get tipsy.. Hmmm.. Will see how it goes lah, heehee~ Need to change and head out now, byeeee!

Insincere

2011-01-28T09:21:00.004+08:00

Heyyyyy :)

I finally had a mini gathering session with my girls yesterday.. Met up for dinner with Hua & Jun, and went over to Hua's place to gossip.. Ok to put it nicely, it's a catch up session. Soooooo many things happened over such a short period of time.. WTF! I just hope things get better and that.. It's really time for _ to tidy up her life.

Btw, I failed my math UT2. Tsk. :( My UT1 was a conditional pass, and now it's a fail.. If I don't pass UT3, I'm so gonna fail my UT component.

A, thanks for offering your help but everything I inform you about, your response don't make any sense. Eg. "I don't understand the method at all.." And you tell me, "Practice everyday." Anyway it's alright, I'll seek help from other people since you're always busy.

And everytime when we're on the phone, whenever I move on to a topic which you're less interested in, you tend to keep saying "I think it's getting late. Let's go sleep." DON'T expect me to do all the talking and story-telling, a conversation is two-way. Zzzzzzz.

Thanks MHK and Cow for offering their help.. And saying things like, "Can la UT3 I help you, confirm A!!!!" Even though I know it depends on my own effort, I still felt better with his joking tone.. Speaking of MHK, tomorrow is his birthday celebration~ :D Can't wait to go.. I'd love to drinkkkkkk like mad but the next day.. Still need to head out..

Alright it's break time now! Byeee!

I hate mood swings

2011-01-26T22:16:00.002+08:00

Today's weather is perfect! :D

I started off my day well cos I met A in the morning, hehehe~ Morning hugs & kisses = best! I felt kinda stressed today when I kept getting the wrong answer despite following the method taught by MHK.. Eventually Zaw Htet realized that the method is wrong =.= Thank goodness he saved my life.

Class ended at 2.25pm today, and I headed to Jp.. Met jun for a quick catch up session and left to meet A for dinner after that. I'll blog more tomorrow k? I'm eating ham now :P BYE!

I want Tchouk trainings :(

2011-01-25T17:53:00.004+08:00

These are some of the pics taken yesterday! More on fb~ :D

Hey guys! :)

Today's a pretty good day for me cos I worked hard to solve the problem statement for Math, LOL. It's the first time I'm presenting about "solving the problem statement" for Math in this semester. *Wide smile* Heehee :P

Anyway I was in a group chat this morning with my classmates, gossiping about K -_- His feet seriously stink TTM! Can't he be more automatic and put on his shoes.. Ohhhh man -.- MHK & I escaped to do our work at Cow's table, HAHAHA! Stayed put there throughout the third meeting :P

I had chicken rice for brunch.. Was planning to look around at the career fair held in RP today but we ended up doing Math ppt in class during the 2nd break..

I told LOTS and LOTS of lame jokes to my usual clique today to the extent they don't know to laugh or cry. HAHAHA! :D Thanks to twitter~ We headed to CWP after class ended.. Had durian pancakes and bread cos we were starvingggg :( Supposed to help Hua check out the water bottles, but apparently the shop is closed due to renovation works going on..We hanged around there for quite a while due to the strooooong winds that were blowing out there. There was a sudden downpour you see, hmmm..

Took Mrt back with MHK and we talked about our families.. Lol, I can see that it's not just my mum who's so naggy. His mum behaves this way as well -.- I think we really talked A LOT today.. LOL! The benefits of being the youngest child, and of cos there's a negative side to it as well..

Think I got home at 5pm+.. Shall head out to meet A now, bye~ =)

Can I pleaseeeeee go back.....

2011-01-24T17:04:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday MHK! :D ~

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School was real fun today! :D There was nothing much to work on for the powerpoint slides.. Had our formal presentation today =) I'm glad I didn't even look at the screen today and could present by completely facing the audience~ ^^

Subway for brunch; it's been so long since I last had that.. Had a crazy photo-taking session during lunch break today, and I'm waiting for everyone to upload the pics on fb so I can grab them~ (:

Most probably going out to get MHK's birthday gift on Friday, after school ends.. Still not very sure about what to get, but most probably perfume (?)

Anyway CNY's approaching, and I was suggesting to Hua why not we go for a midnight movie @ Jp on NY's eve again like how we did last year.. Hopefully we'll get it planned soon~

I guess that's all for today.. Gonna play angry birds before I grab a bite.. Bye~

Fuck you bitch. YES Y-O-U

2011-01-23T22:54:00.006+08:00

I went shopping for CNY stuff yesterday and it's finally a successful trip.
Sent Echo off at the airport this morning.
Nice afternoon at his place.
Horrible evening because of her.
And everything's very much fucked up now.

Don't attempt to threaten me with things like "I'll cancel the hotel reservation & Hilton brunch date." If you don't wanna celebrate Valentines' day with me then so be it.

Fucking self-centered bastard. When will you start treating me with RESPECT huh?

_l_

Facts about Gemini

2011-01-21T09:16:00.007+08:00

Gemini is very sensitive and open to hurt. They have double standards.

Being the sign of the communicator, Geminis pick up on new dialects easier than other people.

Geminis often want to control their desires but simply cannot miss a chance to try something exciting and new.

Gemini is the sign of duality, of playful joking and an underlying seriousness.

Geminis seldom refuse to preach: if something is fine with them, it cannot be wrong.

A free and easy Gemini will try all ways of making love, at least once. Nothing is too shocking for them.

Gemini don't run late because they forget but because they find distractions along the way

& Many many more~

Credits to : @ZodiacFact via twitter

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Anyway for yesterday evening.. I hanged around with Cgx at CWP for half an hour or so before heading back home.. Helped Hua to paint her room last night.. It's my first time painting and I thought it was rather fun.. We were gossiping and listening to music.. Gonna continue painting her room soon! =)

Byeeeee :D

I need a successful shopping trip -.-

2011-01-20T11:10:00.002+08:00

Seems that I've been neglecting my blog for quite some time.. Hmmm :/ Well, I wasn't extremely busy though..

Anyway.. School has been fine for this week and I've been late every single day -.- It's already Thursday! The thought of Echo flying off this Sunday just makes me sad. Haizzzzz :(

I went to town with my bunch of classmates on Tuesday, hoping that I'd be able to find a pair of shoes and a bag which I like~ Still, I ended up buying nothing :/ We headed to FEP for late lunch/early dinner and had frozen yogurt after that.. Walked around FEP for like the fourth time in these 2 weeks! OMG.. Getting so sick cos I really can't find what I want.. Headed to ION, Wisma and Taka.. Left at around 9pm.. Was sooooo damn tired..

And I was supposed to help Hua paint her room yesterday night but my nap lasted me 3hrs+ ~ She was so nice to let me sleep and didn't call me till I woke up.. Rang A the moment I woke up from my nap cos I had a nightmare related to him.. Whoa.. He laughed when I told him the full details cos it was really silly, hahaha :P

Engineering Design UT today! I completely forgot about it.. Cgx will be delivering dinner for me later~ Meeting him at Rp after UT ends.. Yay! ^^

Ok it's break time now~ Shall nap.. Byeeee~!

Team Genesis.... Champions!

2011-01-17T10:36:00.002+08:00

Haven't updated in a couple of days.. Busy and tired I guess.

Well well well.. So last Friday night I met my Dell lovelies at town for dinner, it's sort of like a gathering before Echo returns to China.. Sending her off this Sunday.. :( I wanna buy a gift for her, maybe some cute lil plush :D

I didn't get to rest at all for the weekend.. Went to Yio Chu Kang sports hall for Tchoukball.. I'm so glad Team Genesis came in as champions! ^^ Had a mini celebration dinner at AMK hub.. Took Bee's car back after that.. As usual, lots of fun and laughter on her car.. =)

I'm late for school today, but the relief faci marked me as presentttt :D (I was late for around 30mins btw) Had chicken rice for brunch and we were laughing non-stop throughout the whole break.. Eric ah.. He and his "wu ma??? who is wu ma???" LOL!

There's Physics UT later on.. Hmmm.. Finished downloading all the 6Ps! I hope I'll pass this test..

Will be heading to town for CNY shopping with classmates tomorrow! ^^Y More like I accompany them look for their clothes.. I'm done with clothes, just left with bag and shoes! :D Wednesday.. Might be helping out pang with painting her room.. Will see if I've got the time to do so..

Played charades with faci earlier on and now I'm stuck on angry birds.. Got some resources from taogay :P Will use them wisely for today's presentation..

Anyway.. I've been thinking A LOT recently. Ok, that's so Gemini. But well.. Sometimes I get really affected by small lil things and when I put them aside, they don't really fade off but instead they accumulate.. I hope that everyone of you around me would understand that.. And not have the mind set "If it doesn't affect yourself, it means you're not gonna give a damn about it, even if it affects me." Bye, off to tumblr.

I have many wishes, but they're more or less the same.

2011-01-13T23:33:00.002+08:00

Hiiii guys!

One thing I really hate about shopping is when I come home empty handed. Like, nothing caught my eye. Sigh -_-

Anyway I'm here just for a quick update..

School was ummm boring. It ended pretty early so I headed back to Jun's place and hanged around there till evening before heading to town. My initial decision was that I shall not go cos I'm really tired.. Ended up going -.-

Will be meeting Dell team tomorrow for Echo's farewell dinner @ town.. It's been quite a while since we last had a Dell gathering! ^^

K that's all, tired tired tired.

Alright bye :D

Dear grades, please get well soon!

2011-01-12T20:51:00.003+08:00

Hello guys! It's been a while since I last gave a decent update.

Life has been pretty lovely with A around, and in this new year I'm learning to be a better person :)

So these few weeks are the UT weeks.. Sigh, I think it's time I do something about my grades. I seem to be.. Really unfocused this semester. Next year, it's gonna be the core modules. I will strive harder.. Reading faci's comments for me really makes me reflect..

So this is the Rj question: What are some possible explanations or theories you have about how you have been performing academically in your first year? What would be the best explanation?

Response: My grades in semester one was way better than what I am getting in semester. The possible explanation would be that I am not as motivated to work hard in the second semester compared to the first semester. The best explanation would be because I am lazy and not willing to work hard to earn good grades.

And her response.. (removed the parts which were commenting about the presentation slides)

Dear Jia Hui, thank you for this reflection. Ok so you have been brutally honest in thinking about the reason for your performance. The question now is what do you want to do about it? I guess it will depend on the plans you have for your future. I had a look at your grades for all the modules and you seem to be doing average, which is fine I guess if you just want to pass. But if you knew that you had the potential to do very well, and to excel now so that you can open up more opportunities later, would that make you more motivated?

Jiahui I hope that you can give your best so that you can see good grades that you're capable of. Jiayou.

I will work hard next semester k! *Slaps self*

Anyway.. Felt's birthday is coming soon, and I've yet to buy her birthday gift.. Better get it bought asap hmmmm.

Supposed to go town and shop with the usual clique I hang around with in class.. But it seems that I'm unable to make it AGAIN. Damn, I feel so bad. It's like the 2nd or 3rd time which I NEED to give it a miss due to important stuffs going on.. Thankfully they're nice enough to say, they'll just accompany and watch me shop another day. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA :P

Did I mention that A's flying off to Aussie in Feb? Brisbane's having a flood now, I hope the situation there gets better before he flies there. And I'm looking forward to 5th March.. Omg mad excited :P

Alright I'm gonna go tumblr now, bye! ^^

Tumblr

2011-01-10T10:48:00.003+08:00

Hiiiiii, a really short update with pictures from Tumblr!

Let's make it work alright? ;)

You make me fall in love with you over & over again ;)

Credits: Tumblr

Lil things..

2011-01-08T14:29:00.003+08:00

Uh, I just remembered pig got her new phone some time back and she's active on twitter once again. Urghhhh by now she should have read everything.. How fucking much I've been going through..

"SAYANG MY SISTER! I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU!"

Thanks pig :')

Now I don't feel so alone as I talk to myself on twitter.

On a side note.. Good job TGT for winning today's match, sorry that I can't be there.. I hope by tomorrow I'll be fine so I can join u girls on court!

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On a cold Saturday noon, I feel warmth.

For the first time I think I found friends whom I can speak to in this new class.. At least TYK is an adult compared to Mcthane. Perseverance and determination are definitely found in him I guess, thanks for the motivating text and I'll do my best to start shining again..

Xiao hong ah xiao hong, WML

2011-01-07T23:34:00.003+08:00

Finally back home after a looooong day.. Walked around town till 10pm+ and finally headed home!

Failed to buy my top cos the color I want (White) is out of stock. Damn lah, -.- Shall head to FEP again soon to see if they'll take in anymore stock for that.. :'( I really really like that top A LOT.

Didn't buy anything at all except for a hairband. Awwww, shopping trip failed.

STL is going on tomorrow and TGT has a match.. I confirmed my attendance with Irene this morning but later on at night I informed her that I won't be able to make it.. This is sudden but yah.. I don't wanna risk fainting.

Anyway, school was really boring cos one whole team was absent.. Farhan tried to make the class more lively during the 2nd break by blasting some Electro music with Vincent.. And the guys started dancing and all, finally there was some noise in the class.. It was really pin-drop silence throughout the whole morning. I didn't felt like talking cos I suffered from insomnia last night and hence feeling really tired.. :(

Brunch with Eric (thank God he came school), feels weird to only have 2 of us. Usually there'd be a whole group of us but the rest are just busy with the open house event.. So I became his "secretary" of the day, supposed to accompany him submit LOA @ OSC during lunch break but we were both too lazy to walk all the way there.. And I just recalled, so I gave him a reminder.. Luckily he's going school tomorrow for open house stuff, there's still time for him to submit.. Else his ED UT2 grade die.

While walking around town I was chatting with my "ears", felt much better after that.. In conclusion, they said the same thing to me. It's the first time I spoke to them about stuff like that and thankfully it didn't turn out to be awkward.

Oh and I was supposed to meet Cgx today but suddenly his book-out time was pushed back.. Shall meet him some other day then.

In this sickly condition I still need to drag myself outta the house tomorrow to Jp and hunt for Kayle's birthday present.. Don't wanna disappoint her..

Okay.. Gonna get my rj done before turning in.. Dear hair, please dry soon -_-"

Bye, shall turmblr now.

Goodnight, xoxo

I'm struggling through

2011-01-07T15:44:00.002+08:00

After going through so much ups and downs with you, we still couldn't make things fine. I have to say it worsened instead.

Girls posting on your wall as though I'm transparent, everyone that surrounds you are girls. Whoa, I hate your colleagues AGAIN. Fucking whores. _l_

Since you said they KNOW you're attached from the first day you worked there, why on Earth are they eyeing on you? I can't take such stress. I'm breaking down, and I bet you don't even bother about how I feel. Instead of fighting and struggling so hard..

I decided to back off. I'll let you be theirs, since I know it's hard for me to make you mine.

You don't understand how insecure I've been feeling ever since that incident which involved your ex colleague. If one day you were to chance upon my tumblr, you'd find out how much I left untold. It's the only space where I can express how I feel freely.. Other than this blog.

I don't wanna try on anymore. I'm tired. I had enough of caring for you, yet all I get is shit in return. Fuck relationships, I wanna find a guy who'll give me his all and not selfish like you.

You were never mine to begin with I guess.

Bye.

RP open house 2011 !

2011-01-06T17:56:00.002+08:00

So today was a really boring day for me in school.. And time passed really slowly -.-

Thank goodness Farhan came to school, he's like the "star" in our team. Helped us to build on our car prototype till it looked like a Tamiya car, LOL!

Oh btw I was late for 1 minute but faci closed one eye, HEHEHEHHH! :P

Attempted to take a short nap during lunch break since there wasn't anything that we need to present.. Wasn't exactly tired enough to fall asleep, so I just stayed online and looked around.. Till I got so bored I attempted sleeping again.. But ended up staying awake lah -.- Went down to get a drink with Fri before 3rd meeting began..

Class ended on time, and there's no presentation/6P for today! Just testing out our solar cars~ ^^ Hmm.. I left by the route without shelter even though it was drizzling cos I didn't wanna walk through the crowd of sec school students.. It's open house today~

Met my darlings @ Jp for a short while before heading home..

Thank goodness, tomorrow is Friday! BUT it's cognitive :( Why must my week end with cognitive module.. -.- Sat and Sun I'll be coming back to school (yes again -.-) for Tchoukball.. And as for Sat, I'll most likely be heading to Kayle's birthday party in the evening. What present should I get for her hmmmm?

Anyway, I shall take a short nap before waking up to do my Rj. Seems like a tough one, urgh :/

Alright bye! xoxo

If you don't, someone else will

2011-01-05T17:55:00.002+08:00

I'm so fucking happy cos it's the first time I got an 'A' for math daily grade!!!! Thanks to Cow who engaged me in active learning for problem 10~

Put that aside, heh. Today is Physics and I'm late again, :/

Well anyway it's the same relief faci again, and I thought the problem for the day was pretty manageable.. Thank goodness Fri and Zt were patient enough to explain to me over and over again, hehehe :P It's been a looong while since I last worked so hard on a Physics problem..

Anyway I had brunch with the usuals today, but poor Eric needed us to buy food for him cos his "mother" insists that they finish the worksheet first, hahahahaha wtf!

Spent the whole afternoon break working on the 3 questions faci assigned us with.. There was no presentation, only going through individually of the questions.. Ended around 3.30pm and I headed back home immediately.. I'm thankful to have Cgx accompanying me to Sms throughout the day else I'd have died of boredom -_- Look forward to his reply, whether he'll come Rp to meet me on Friday! ^^ Else I'll just meet him @ Jp instead, hehehe~

There was a sudden downpour when I alighted the train @ Boon Lay.. The wind blew really hard and the rain water was all over my face -_-" Lucky me, the rain stopped when I alighted at my bus stop, :P

So here I am sitting on my bed, rotting away.. I'm allowed to rot cos I finished my evaluation and Rj already k! :P Oh I was planning to go for a jog today but since it rained.. The ground is wet.. I shall just stay indoors AGAIN, :/

I wish my girls all the best for their collection of results on Monday! =)

Alright.. Gonna get going now.. Bye! :)

School :(

2011-01-04T21:57:00.002+08:00

It's the second day of school! Trying to adapt once again, awww :(

Anyway I had cognitive UT today and I thought I was really distracted due to my sleepiness.. Before UT started I was still watching prank call videos with MHK and totally laughed so hard I couldn't control myself at all -.-

Ummm lunch was bad, I didn't really enjoy my food. I think the yong tau foo in Rp kinds sucks, well..

Took bus to Woodlands interchange with Cow and Keong after UT ended, crapping session.. Unable to join them for dinner today! :/ Planning a Sakae trip already! Woooohooo ^^

I know I have been really lazy to give a long proper update, but just make do with this quick update k? I'm sooooo drained out from school, urghhh.

Goodnight, bye :)

Hello 2011!

2011-01-02T22:42:00.002+08:00

Countdown at Jun's place was pretty fun, lots of food :P Stayed over at her place together with Hua.. Had a chit chat session before sleeping.. And ummm as usual I fell asleep first -_-" The following day we had brunch together at Jp, then Hua and I headed home.. The original plan was to head out to Clarke Quay in the noon, but it suddenly poured heavily.. So our wet weather plan was to have a massage at Jp, and just shop around there for the day.. So the aim of the day was to help Hua's mum find her Cny clothing~ And we shopped at Fairprice Xtra before heading home! I love spending time with Hua's family cos I really feel the family bond there..

As for today, I met A and went to Somerset 313 Tarafuku for lunch~ Shopped around for my Cny clothing at town and only managed to buy a dress.. Shall continue shopping again next week! Caught Guliver's travel, omg awesome movie! Long while since I last watched such a nice movie! Had a great day and we headed back in the evening.. I need to pack my bag and turn in early today cos school is starting tomorrow -_- Can't wait for the next holiday!

On a side note I need to go on a strict diet for the month of January cos I predict I'll be eating like a pig in February as it's Cny! Heh, angbaos here I come! :P

Goodnight, bye! ^^

Last day of 2010

2010-12-31T00:26:00.002+08:00

I'd always say this at the end of every year. I wish that the following year would be better than this year!

This year, I met more people who changed my life; rather drastically I have to say.. But I'm still me! =) Changing is an inevitable process. And I'm glad I changed positively. I am certain that I've learnt to be stronger and that stay strong is not just for my loved ones, but most importantly for myself.

This year, I had a new relationship and it's definitely better than what I had previously. I'm learning to be a more understanding and patient partner..

This year, I was given the privilege to keep a set of A's house keys but I have to admit more or less I didn't cherish it well, and that I don't deserve to keep the keys to his comfort zone -_-" I'm still glad he had so much trust in me though! (:

This year, I baked A a cake for his birthday! Never ever baked a cake for anyone in my whole life.. I still remember I gave him a mini birthday surprise by hiding in his house, hehehe!

This year, I learnt a very important thing from my Tchoukball girls. Mental strength. Always practice "mind over body".

This year, I learnt to NOT let my stupid illogical nonsensical thoughts control my emotions, cos they'll eventually lead to "disasters" (which obviously I don't like!!!)

This year, is the first time I think that I've really grown to be more tolerant, it's all about give and take.. No one will ever have the best of everything, so I'll just make the best out of what I have =) !

More and more and more and more.. But I can't really think of it now.. Hmmm.. Anyway..

I want no more heartbreaks,

no more silly thoughts,

better health,

fat bank account and a slim body (hahaha wtf),

play better in Tchoukball,

stop being late for school so frequently,

get better grades,

and everyone around me to live life happily!

Actually there's a lot more, I just listed out some..

I'm thankful for all the happy times I had this year! =)

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So it's my last day of work on Thursday, will be back to work in February.. Meeting my girls for countdown tonight! Shall turn in now or else I'll be dead tired tomorrow.. Goodnight, bye~

xoxo

Dishonest bitch

2010-12-28T23:01:00.002+08:00

Hey guys! Work was pretty relaxing today, just that I really hate people who give me GL attitude for nothing. Yes that bitch. Thank goodness Papa gave me back the email lead which was RIGHTFULLY mine. Anyway enough of that..

I went to get KOI for HweeYi and myself after work, then headed to Hua's place for dinner. Jun was there too! Love her lil gifts :P

Went home @ 10pm.

Okay lazy to blog already. Bye^^

Moody Monday

2010-12-27T23:02:00.002+08:00

Hi.

Work was boring today :( No sales!

Somerset after work.

And I'm too moody to continue blogging now.

FML, I wanna be independent and stay on my own :(

Bye.

Wonderful long weekend

2010-12-27T00:15:00.002+08:00

I was too lazy to blog yesterday. Okay to be exact, I was so darn tired.

I went out to botanical gardens & shopped around town, literally walked the whole day. My legs felt so sore -.- I thought my x'mas was spent rather differently this year, with the nature and all.. Still I wish it was spent with my loved one instead, :/

Oh btw.. Happy birthday Edwinnie & Bunny!

So erm yeah.. I went to Becky's place for x'mas lunch together with the other Tchoukball girls, we had fun eating and playing games there! ^^ It's my first time attending a x'mas gathering at someone's place eating and spending time together like this.. Awww, =) The atmosphere was really lively!

Now that x'mas is over, I'm looking forward to countdown~ ^^ Feel like spending it at town but it's too troublesome.. Most probably I'll spend it together with my girls. We'll all drink and get wasted for one night, :P I hope everything in 2011 would be better for me, and for everyone around me as well~

Alright I'll continue drying my hair now and turn in soon! Byeeee~ xoxo

I'll upload pictures soon.. Too lazy to search for my card reader right now..

Merry Christmas!

2010-12-25T02:02:00.003+08:00

Merry christmas to all~ ^^

Just came back from Hua's place, gonna turn in after a short update! I left her place quite early cos she was drunk and needed to rest already.. Hmmm.. Er yeah and I brought sheepy & ducky over to her place, hehehe :P

Lol what a confession from xxxxxx right on x'mas. Make the night awkward only :/

Anyway yeah... Umm it's really sweet to receive Merry x'mas messages from my dear friends.. Especially those who took the time and effort to write a really looooong and customized one.. I hope I will leave all my troubles behind!

Okay I'm gonna turn in now before it gets anymore awkward. Lol. & It's gonna be a loooong but fun day tomorrow! Kthxbye.

Lonely Christmas eve

2010-12-24T16:55:00.003+08:00

It's X'mas eve! Yeah but so? I spent half of the day sleeping at home.. Woke up an hour ago and just had my brunch. . No plans for today, only that later on at night I'll head out to countdown for X'mas~ I wanna have dinner outside leh! But pang is at some bbq :( I'm too lazy to meet my lovelies along the red line.. So farrrrr. Shall just wait for pang to finish her bbq, =)

Seems that quite a number of people are having a bbq today, based on what I saw in fb and twitter.. All I want for X'mas is to have a partner doing really sweet stuff with me :( K I know, stupid and random. Whateverrrrrr~

I'm putting Sheepy and Ducky next to each other now, :D Mad cute or what?! :P

Should I get someone to go out for dinner with me? Hmmm.. Ohhhhh Yc just told her mum to cook more! So I'll go over there probably @ 9pm? Heehee!

Okay I'm actually blogging only because I'm so bored I've got no bloody idea what to do. Shall surf the net and search for nice movies to watch~

you'll fail to appreciate the true worth of someone when you start comparing them to others.

2010-12-24T01:23:00.003+08:00

Weeee! Xmas prezz makes me a happy girl :P

These are pictures taken at work a few days back and also the dinner we had today.. More pictures will be uploaded on Fb tomorrow~ :D

I'm so gladddddd Elephy bought me ducky, hahaha! We met in the late evening for dinner @ Plaza Sing.. Had lots of fun chatting after we finished eating.. Omg, so long since I last laughed so hard for no reason. Thanks to Zp who started off with his food fly thingy -.- LOL!

Boughr Elephy a lip concealer, hope she likes it hmmmm.. Oh and we're holding a couple keychain now, hehe. Almost all of us purchased from this guy.. Listening to his story and seeing the pictures just makes me feel so upset :/ Well oh well..

Hanged around Starbucks for a bitching session and finally went to take train back at around 11.30pm.. Tired max. Chat with Echo all the way while heading back, whoa, time passes really quickly when you're having fun.

I'm so gonna miss her after she goes back to China.. Sending her off next month, arghhhhh :( Oh and we used Eos & Pinky's phone to chat online with Owen earlier on.. He told us it's really cold over there and it would be snowing tomorrow! Awwww~

Thanks to whoever that had offered to buy me ducky for Christmas! But still, I did a gift exchange with Elephy instead :P So for now.. Sheepy and ducky will be trying to get along well. Ok ignore me, I know this is getting ridiculous lol. But I really love these 2 soft toys TTM! Ducky needs a Dad, :(

Anyway it's past 12, so let's consider it as xmas eve already! No work, bwahaha :D Gonna spend my day at home though, :( No date!!!! Will be heading out at night~ Heehee!

Alright I'm really tired after a looooooong day.. Shall turn in now. Good night all~ xoxo

Busy busy busy

2010-12-23T17:26:00.003+08:00

I am so darn tired but still, I need to drag myself outta the house soon :/

Got home around 4pm and I quickly bathed.. I thought I'd have enough time to take a short nap before going out, but aiya.. I'm taking my own sweet time so there's no more time for me to nap. All ready to head out! I hope tonight would be fun~ ^^ Last year's today.. Memorable or what. HAHAHA! Remembered how crazy everything was.. And I wish to have more of such wonderful moments~

Ok.. So today..

I headed to Tiong Bahru early in the morning.. Got my stuff done, then hanged around Tiong Bahru plaza for 3 hours. Omg, I can seriously die of boredom. Had big breakfast for brunch, and I haven't eaten anything else till now! Nvm, later gonna have an awesome dinner. Heeheehee~

If I don't head out now, they're so gonna kill me. So... Kthxbye :D

Shopping trip failed

2010-12-22T23:29:00.002+08:00

My legs are so darn tired from all the walking. :(

Let's talk about work first.. Was quite early today.. Gave Zp his xmas gift already! Cos I won't be going work tomoirow.. But still, I'd be meeting them at night! ^^ Glad that papa allowed me to move next to Sheila till Echo's back~ I don't wanna sit alone next to that weird guy, :/ Had sales today! Yippee~ Dan asked me out for lunch again but I already decided to eat with my colleagues instead.. Hmmm, next time then~ Talked about __ over lunch cos St's puzzled about who is __ . . Blah blah blah blah blah :P

After work, Elephy accompanied me to get my photo taken at a nearby.. Erm.. Ok Fujifilm shop. And while walking towards the mrt station.. We saw... Lol. Stupid Elephy came up with a suggestion which frightened me -.-! BUT!! I won't mind going to that boutique someday and take a look, hehehe :P

Hanged around Bugis Junction while waiting for qin ai de to arrive. . Bumped into xx, bee & dan! So they sort of kept me company while I'm waiting.. Had a quick catch up session.. And apparently xx said the while they were in Malacca, they kinda "stalked" my twitter whenever possible to check on my status :O I'm glad to have these girls there for me even when they're overseas, :') Told her not to worry cos I'm doing good~

Left to meet my qin ai de around 7pm? We walked around Bugis Village, and I only managed to buy a piece of clothing. Well.. Too tired after a long day's work already. Didn't really have the mood to shop like mad.. Left Bugis at 9pm+! Omg, was really damn tired by then. Thank goodness we managed to get a seat on the train while heading home.

I'm still drying my hair now! :( Gonna sleep as soon as it dries.. Can't wait for tomorrow evening! Heeheehee~ Goodnight, xoxo!

Let it gooooooooo~

2010-12-21T22:02:00.003+08:00

Today's a good good day! Saw that picture of the sandwich and polar puff? It's breakfast treat from Raymond~ Love papa max :D Second picture, is the duck which I mentioned a couple of times.. I'm so gonna get him! And the last picture.. I think it was taken on the 2nd last day of school? Can't really recall.. RUNNING MAN TOP RUNNERS. ACTION ONLY, HAHAHA!

Alright~ I reached office on time! The first half of the day was really dry for me.. No sales.. Thankfully I had 2 towards late noon. Heehee~ Oh and I managed to meet dan for lunch today.. Miss her max! She was so tired that she looked as though she would fall asleep any moment while eating, :P

Chatting with my baobei on msn now! Can she come back like real soon? I miss nua-ing at her place..

Btw, that weird guy is really scaring the shit outta me cos he has been behaving more and more weirdly. I hope I don't get driven crazy -.-

Had dinner at Jp after work, bought stuffs and then headed home :D

Life has been pretty fun recently, but yeah I know I'm lacking something even though I know all my friends love me and are always there for me. I hope I'll find a provider for this vitamin which I lack real soon.. (Ok getting emotional, time to move to tumblr instead)

Alright, I'm so sleepy I'm gonna put a mask and then turn in soon. It's already 11pm!!!!! Argh :/

Goodnight, xoxo ~

Thoughts

2010-12-20T23:35:00.003+08:00

I know I just blogged not long ago but yeah, I don't feel like updating my other blog today so I'm gonna do a double post here. Over this period of time, I realized maybe some people are not worth my time and effort, so.. Yeah. Be nice to whoever appreciates me, and just.. Stay neutral with those who don't. So an example would be like.. I'm gonna stop texting/msning to whoever that doesn't bother about putting in effort to keep a conversation going, lol. Fuck these people, seriously. Don't wanna talk then just say, don't down there like half fucked -.- Reply a bit here, a bit there.

(Not pointing fingers to anyone in specific, but there are a couple of them who's like that..)

Seriously.. This is some shit man -.-

Anyway.......

2011 is coming soon.. I wonder, who should I include in this new year? Should I leave some people behind, and let them just fade off as memories? Sighhhh, thoughts.. Heart-to-heart session with my baby on the Mrt while heading back home, hmmm.. I think what most people can't figure out about me is that one same point, lol. And all I can say is SMV trained me well, wtf :/ Actually sometimes I wonder about that too.

I always wonder if it's better for me to revert back to my old self. And I go, "Omg no. That's just so bitchy and fucked up." It all depends on the situation I'm facing I guess. You can't possibly be nice to every single one around you cos there'll be a couple of them who doesn't bother. Ouch, but yeah that's reality.

Just gonna stay the way I am. I loveeee laughing so darn much but I've been laughing A LOT LESSER recently. Damn, gonna find back that crazy but sunny side of me!

Back to work, Day 1

2010-12-20T21:35:00.003+08:00

Woooo~ Finally back home after a looooong day :D I'm pretty excited for work and I reached Tanjong Pagar rather early hmmm, :P Bought breakfast and the first person I saw was Zp! Gave free hugs this morning to all of 'em! Anyway.. Settled down and I could get used to the environment really quickly, hehehe..

Lunch was obviously Maggie goreng, ^^ Happy kid now~ There's this weird guy named Talib who sits next to me and he's always mumbling + giggling to himself, omg -.- He even scolds some vulgarities, lololol. I shall just ignore him for my own safety, HAHAHA! I thought I'm gonna have zero sales today.. Thankfully I've got one :P And Raymond promised to buy us breakfast tomorrow; those who gave him the last few sales~

Lol looking at Jovin reminds me of myself.. When I was 16 and working @ SMV. Hmmmm, well well.. One noisy fella, but full of life~

Btw I had fun arm-wrestling with ang bear bear, HAHAHAHAHA :D Love his iPhone k, saved me from all the boredom.

Headed to town after work with my babies to get Zp's xmas gift, and we walked around as well.. Elephy baby was reminding me not to get anything with heart prints or whatever shit related to love.. Yeah, to prevent any ummm misinterpretation of the gift. LOL! Love the lights all around town! And well ummmm I did something really embarrassing which made us all laugh like mad in the middle of the pathway -.- oh btw.. I didn't buy my ginger baby cos it's not for sale just like that! You need to collect stamps from spending @ Cold Storage.. Forget it man, :/

I need to bath like now. Before I get too lazy to do anything.. Heeheehee. Looking forward to tomorrow! OH and most probably I'd be meeting dan for lunch! *filled with excitement*

Waiting for tengteng to upload the pictures we took today, bwahaha :D Gonna "loot" more pictures from Zp tomorrow!

Bye! xoxo

Prezzie hunting failed

2010-12-19T21:57:00.002+08:00

Finally home! Went to comb the whole Jp today for xmas gifts.. Didn't manage to buy anything. I went into Cards & such again, was tempted to buy the duck as usual. LOL! But I insist that I finish buying presents before I buy myself anything.. Hmmm.. I've been spending alot lately without even realizing it, :( Especially on food.. Awww man, :/ No training + so much fattening food = Fat die me.

Anyway I already decided on what to get for Zp, so I'll go Jp again on Wednesday after work to get it! Heeeee~ I bough a salmon hand roll and had some trouble eating it, lol. Went back to Hua's place in the evening~ We watched Frozen together, and had dinner after that.. Her mum cooked~ ^^ Left her place at 9pm+ cos I needed to head home and bath, get myself ready for tomorrow.. I'm working :( Don't work, wait for people to give me $$$ everyday meh?! K my mum does give me allowance but still.. I can't possibly keep asking her for $$ right!

Today is such a boring day.. Grrrr. Can't wait for x'mas to come! And of cos countdown too.. Activities are all lined up already! Wooooohooo~ Alright, gonna give tumblr some attention now. Bye~

Don't learn cherish through losing

2010-12-19T11:35:00.005+08:00

Let me just share a lil something which I have in my other blog..

Title: What happened?

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

(If you still remember the shorts VS dress incident)

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

(You don't drink and smoke, but yes I do ring & text you all the while)

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

(Remember how upset I felt, yet all you did was to hang up on me?)

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

(You should know which girl did I get jealous over..)

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

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Think about it, when she’s too much for you.. She just wants the best for you. Because to her YOU’RE the best. If you don’t like something, talk to her about it. You mean so much to her.

Don’t just give up. Don’t just leave because you want the easy way out.

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I broke down after reading this post over and over again on my other blog.

This post is dedicated to you..

xoxo

Hello stranger

2010-12-18T22:10:00.002+08:00

Me is back homeeeee :D I had brunch with my baobei earlier on.. Chit chat and all, talked about the usual issues.. Hmmm.. Went to thread my eyebrows before heading home to bath.. Went out @ around 3pm+ ? Watched Hello stranger, I think the male lead really annoyed the hell out of me in the beginning.. Anyway the show was average I guess. . I like how it feels this way. A weekend spent having brunch outside, watch a movie, lazying around resting.. Sounds relaxing doesn't it? :)

Didn't manage to buy Zp's present today, shall look for it tomorrow instead~ Anyway pang needs to buy a x'mas gift for her colleague too, so we shall hunt for presents together tomorrow!

(Went out for dinner)

I'm back from dinner! Yummy food, so full nowwww~ Done editing my other blog.. Love the layout I have now! Looking forward to x'mas! Might be going to botanic gardens.. To be confirmed though.. Alright.. Gonna get busy now.. Have a good night in this cooling weather~ Blog again tomorrow, bye!

xoxo

Morning rants

2010-12-18T11:35:00.002+08:00

I love tumblr so darn much coz it's the only place which expresses how I feel so clearly..

Anyway! Good morning people~ It's a Saturday, what are you guys planning to do? I was checking out Fb and saw Ly being tagged in some pictures.. Went to his profile and looked around.. OMG, I realized Tim's face is in the pictures!!!!! Can't believe the world is SO DARN TINY, -.- Ok, Sg is tiny. LOL. I'm sure they met each other in Cg.. Hmmm, interesting. Just that it's a bit too much of shock to handle early in the morning :P

Plans for today! Gawd, I need to get Zp's xmas gift settled by this weekend! It's either I look around Jp later, or Vivo tomorrow~

(OMG ARIP JUST TOLD ME A PIECE OF GOOD NEWS!)

Somerset 313's cold storage is selling gingerbread man plush! Omg....... So gonna check it out ASAP! And we're planning to go Vivo's build-a-bear shop in this holiday like um, next weekend? ^^ Feeling so happy now, hahahaha! Buying endless soft toys.. Well oh well, :P

Btw people have been asking me the same question over and over again..

"Why gingerbread man plush?"

Hahaha! My standard answer would be..

"Cos I had one when I was young, but lost it :( So that's why I wanna get one~"

I wonder if my girls have woken up~? Feeling so boreddddd I can just die. -.- Gonna wash up and find something to do now! Bloggggg tonight if I've got the mood to! Have a greaaaaat day people~

xoxo

I need a shopping therapy

2010-12-18T00:02:00.002+08:00

Hello~ Home sweet home~ Not going out already cos my girls have fallen sick/moody.. Hopefully by tomorrow night they'll be fine, then we'll have plans again! Anyway I think that NEX seriously has nothing much, but lots of food. Somewhat similar to Jp, it also has a Fairprice Xtra.. Prata Wala.. Aiyah whatever lah. Just smaller than Jp.. Didn't buy anything cos nothing caught my eye :(

Had dinner @ some HongKong cafe.. The seafood horfun = awesome! So full from eating that.. Still went for dessert @ Haato & co ice cream.. Reasonably priced =) ! Was asking the lady whether the gingerbread man plush they had on display is just a decoration or for sale.. Apparently she bought it from a shop in NEX and they're using it for decoration, and she said that it's out of stock already! Omg *depressed* I can't seem to find the right place to buy a gingerbread man plush.. Awwww :( I hope I'll be able to find it somewhere else!

We left NEX at close to 11pm.. Most of the shops were closed by then.. Reached home @ 11.30pm~ Didn't bath again cos I already bathed before heading out, and I didn't sweat a single bit :P And I just puked a while ago cos I'm way toooooooo full, couldn't take it anymore.. I'm feeling so much better now that I've puked some of it out.. Really really hungry, but my stomach can't handle a full proper meal now :( Need to get my health back!

I'm gonna check out if Jc uploaded new videos on youtube now~ Hehehe.. Shall turn in soon cos I'm feeling a lil unwell.. Goodnight all!

xoxo

NEX

2010-12-17T16:28:00.005+08:00

Sup! :)

Last day of school and here comes the 2weeks break, but I'm gonna be working though :/ Anyway today was a great day! Had fun and all, =) Took a really hilarious video of Keong and Frianto slapping each other, omg.. I'm raping the replay button man :P Smile helped me to dl videos and songs today~ I'm a happy kid now, hehehe~

Supposed to meet cgx later but I think I'm gonna change my plans.. Shall go Serangoon instead~ Maybe I'll meet him some other day, which would be soon..

Waiting for A to knock off and pick me up @ around 7pm+.. Going to NEX :) After that, still need to rush back home to bath, change etc at night before I head out.. I don't wanna stink lor, :P Hope Lame kia's Dad is alright! Wondering what happened to him, hmmm.. No matches for this weekend! (yay :P)

K, I needa go bath and get ready now! NEX NEX NEX NEX here I comeeeeee~

Cos it goes on; doesn't just stops here..

2010-12-16T17:57:00.003+08:00

Good evening! I'm eating snacks every now and then cos I realized my stomach's way too weak to handle a proper meal now.. Anyway Sheepy (my sheep plush, also known as my son) is sitting on my lap while I'm blogging =) I really wanna buy the duck plush badly lor! Wait till I'm done buying x'mas presents, and see if I have enough $ left to get it.. If not I'll only be buying it in Jan :( It's the season of giving, so I wanna make sure I get my loved ones each a prezzie before I get my own ^^

My baobei has landed in HK and she's flying to Japan tomorrow! *envy* I wanna spend x'mas in some country that snows too!

Erm yah.. So I'm gonna cook some chicken sausages later for dinner~ Today I left school immediately once lessons were over cos I didn't wanna get stuck in the rain, and end up having wet disgusting shoes. Spent some time resting once I got home cos the weather = awesome ^^ Tomorrow night is gonna be fun, even though my baobei ain't gonna be around.. Haven't decided on the details yet though.. I will make sure I let Hua know to not let me do anything similar again :/

Sidetrack for a while.. I wanna eat Sakae leh. Tsk. LOL! Still haven't go Swensens after hearing Eric whine and whine for so long -_- I'm gonna go prepare my sausages now! Bye!

(Don't like half-fucked leh -.- )

It's time to..

2010-12-16T12:59:00.002+08:00

Wrote a really long post before this but still made a final decision to keep it all inside my heart =)

Went out to meet W34D classmates cos afterall, they know me way better than my current classmates.. Bb's the best, =) Wo yao kai kai xin xin de guo ri zi~ Yin wei ni bu zhi de rang wo gan dao shang xin! Jian huo, qu chi da bian lah.

Worked on the prototype today! Thanks to Farhan, very quickly we got ours done! =) Gonna test it out later.. It's so cute to see everyone gathering together playing with our car prototype, like during the tamiya car fever season!!! So bored in class now cos there's nothing much to do already~ Need to give a short presentation later on, 6p, then quiz, then go home and sleep! Everyone told me I look so pale.. Hmmm.. I think I've been treating my body so badly, neglecting it and all.. I'm gonna start learning how to love myself =)

First time seeing Ly so chirpy in class :P Ganging up together with me to disturb Keong.. This saggy dude :P Occupying my mind with some other stuff whenever possible, cos I have to learn how to manage this all on my own. Friends are all there for me when I need them, but afterall, it's my life that I gotta learn how to handle..

Ok I wanna poop now :P (I know, disgusting much) Will blog tonight if I have something to talk about! Bye folks~

It's a cold, rainy night..

2010-12-15T22:16:00.002+08:00

Burst out crying when I was on my own and I fell asleep after that this evening.. Bathed after I woke up.. As usual, no appetite.. Received Apyh's call a while ago.. Seeing them have a misunderstanding upsets me real badly. It's like what always happened between A & I.. I know I shouldn't be talking about all these, it's just gonna make this night harder and longer for me.. "break" and "up" are two simple words which are really hurtful when put together. . I hope J don't hurt my precious lil girl with those words anymore, cos I've been through this pain and yes I'm still going through now.

Spent some time reading through e-mails which I stayed up late at night to write for him, so that he'll get a really sweet morning.. Ended up weeping during 3rd meeting in class. Sigh. Memories are killing me inside there.. Baking a cake for him was one of the best memories we shared =) Didn't mind getting all dirty trying out recipes, even falling asleep at Hua's house while the cake was baking etc.. Hah, good old times.. Have been trying hard to make things alright but it seems so pointless; cos everything's still going wrong..

Anyway life still has to go on, getting back up on my feet ain't gonna be easy but at least I'm trying hard now.. I just feel exhausted from all the fake smiles I show in school, but breaking down every now and then..

I miss you so darn badly, I know I'm gna spend tonight crying to sleep. Do you miss me, like how I miss you? :'(

Oh darling cos you'll always be my baby.. Goodnight sayang, xoxo

I'll be there

2010-12-15T09:18:00.006+08:00

Credits: tumblr

Good morning sleepy heads~ :P

The weather's so humid! Don't you all hate that feeling of sweating after bathing -.- Over here in class I'm having a bad Wednesday morning due to gastric pain.. If it continues like this over a period of time, I better go to the doctor.. This is really torturous. My stomach's churning and churning like mad, but I don't feel like eating anything :( Thankful that Frianto came to school today even though he had to fetch his family yesterday~ Then there would be some1 in my team who can teach me.. I think I've been so blur nowadays, did I mention I dropped money AGAIN yesterday? Wtf.

Training's cancelled today, just nice, I can get some rest. My body has been really weak hmmm.. More and more people are falling sick in my class, I think I'm gonna get the virus soon. I'm still wondering what prezzie should I get for Zp! :( I feel like getting a gift for him but I'm not really sure what should I buy.. Should I? Hmmmm.. Anyway the first study break has started.. Shall go grab a warm drink and come back to continue blogging! =)

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Back to class! I think I wasted my money buying food cos I didn't even finish it.. :/ I suddenly miss that warm feeling laying on his lap, being cuddled by him to sleep.. Oh well... Must be because I'm feeling cold now. Hmmm.. Kept reading over and over again what xd wrote.. Makes me think about lots of stuff..

Anyway there's a commotion about the Math grading, because some of us who got lower marks actually managed to get a grade better than those with higher marks.. So we're pretty confused about how they graded us this time round. Hopefully the module chair would give all of us an acceptable and reasonable explanation..

I'm gonna take a nap during lunch break coz I am still feeling weak -_- I wonder if Mc remembered to bring the medicine from Raffles Medical for me~?

Blog tonight kay, bye~

Phototaking

2010-12-14T21:52:00.002+08:00

Back home! Like finally~ Phototaking was done by Alex.. What the fffff, we thought it'd be done by some professional crew. Anyway the girls had some conflicts with the guys but St managed to make peace among us already! This afternoon had a heart to heart session with the girls.. Have been getting so much advice from many different people recently, to the extent that I choose to make my own decision instead of heeding any of their advices. Though more or less, I've to admit Hp's scolding did work a lil.

Really on the verge of crying whenever someone tells me they miss me smiling and laughing. I had never knew people appreciate my sunny side so much :O I'm not gonna work hard to be happy once again for their sake, but most importantly for my own sake.. Confession to make: I left a space for him in my heart, still.. Well.. :/

I think my face completely shows whether something's bothering me. Had a short chat with Loges today when there were only two of us left in the classroom.. Hmmm. I thought I've been staying strong but still, zzz...

Rang Keong after the phototaking session to whine a lil, hahaha. They finished their session really early lor, wtf. Oh.. Kinda disappointed that xx's not in our picture cos she's sick, didn't come school..

K lah, I think I've been eating so irregularly that I kena gastric pain already. Better go drink something warm.. Btw I did quite badly for my math UT :/ Need to buck up buck up!

Goodnight, sweet dreams~

xoxo

I'm trying.

2010-12-14T14:02:00.004+08:00

If there's something I'm still not showing, I just want you to know, I'm trying.

RT@xiaodan12 : 不要为了任何人任何事折磨自己。比如不吃饭、哭泣、自闭、抑郁，这些都是傻瓜才做的事。当然，偶尔傻一下有必要，人生不必时时聪明。学会承受痛苦。有些话，适合烂在心里，有些痛苦，适合无声无息的忘记。当经历过，你成长了，自己知道就好。很多改变，不需要你己说，别人会看得到。

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Had brunch even though I had no appetite cos I needed to take medicine.. Eric didn't attend school today due to last night's soccer match, so I ate with Cow only. Frianto was busy doing work as he's leaving early.. Was feeling so unwell to the extent I feel like fainting. So he cut my food for me, made it much easier for me to eat.. Thanks buddy =)

Had a chocolate bar during lunch break coz I was really feeling so weak I can just die. Omg. Just took medicine again now..Gonna hang around in class with Keong & co. while waiting for our phototaking session!

Okay I've been blogging so slowly that lesson's already over.. Bye~

Finally, voiced it out!

2010-12-13T17:44:00.002+08:00

I'm on time today *hehehe* Keong was so surprised I'm early.. Damn it. If I want to, I also can be punctual k! :P

Was feeling really moody cos it's Monday and it means I'm stuck with the shitty team again.. zzz.. Two of them were late, and they partialed too.. Whatever -.- I'd rather they don't even come in the first place. Spoke to faci and I hope things would be better/teams would change when we come back from our holidays..

Hmmm.. Don't really feel like eating these few days.. Didn't finish up the food I bought for brunch. Got hungry during lunch time and I bought an unhealthy snack :P Always roaming around the school together with Eric & Cow during lunch break.. Buying some nonsense etc.. Lol! Was spamming twitter about how annoying this Jisnu is -.- Grrrrrr. . Why some people don't know how to be more "automatic" -.- Oh well.. Class ended on time~ Eric dropped me @ Woodlands before he headed back home.. Yay, saved me from walking/taking bus back there. Our conversation was pretty much about him and his family.. I think his Mum's real cute. Hahaha! Slept like a pigggggg on the train ride back.. Sometimes I get really tired but once I'm home, I have a sudden burst of energy -.-

Excited for phototaking tomorrow! ;)

I'm sorry, tgt

2010-12-12T22:33:00.002+08:00

I feel so bad, like a burden to TGT today. I'm so distracted, so moody, just.. Not my usual self. Furthermore my fever has been on and off for a week, and I'm still rather weak.. Told xx I don't think I'm stable enough to be in the 1st period.. So she put me in the second period.. Scored only 1 pathetic point.. ~.~ I must put in more effort.. Btw our match was smacked right in mid noon, so the sun was taking up lots of our energy..

Xx gave me permission to leave earlier.. I went back and rest.. Indeed, my fever was back :( Took medicine and felt much better.. I will do better in the next training/game!!!! Not allowing myself to become a burden to TGT!!! Hp was literally shouting at me scolding me.. Xian zai wo qing xing le..

Nothing much to blog about.. Bye..

2010-12-12T09:29:00.003+08:00

没有他的日子，第二天

好伤心，已经痛苦了那么多次，却还是感到十分心痛。。

难道，他真的是错的人。。？？

昨天还好有俊丽陪我一整天。。要不然我早就崩溃了。。竟然有想乱服药的念头。。比赛多一下就要开始了。。看起来他是绝对不会来支持的。。。让他去漫画展吧，好过来这里浪费他宝贵的时间。。。该出门了。。。希望我不会有被球砸。。

回来再update吧。。再见。。！

而且。。。是时候我把部落格的网址换了。。

手放开

2010-12-11T03:36:00.003+08:00

没有他的日子，第一天

June 30 @ 2.22am

1) from monthsaries to anniversaries (:
2) do all th really sweet & romantic stuff that can ever exist w you^^
3) i want unlimited supply of vitamin L :p
4) when i'm lost/upset, u're there to gimme long warm hugs & assure me
5) i loveee surprises :p *hint hint*
6) i'm greedy, i wna spend quality & quantity time w you :(
7) maintain this closeness, and even closer ^.^
8) continue loving me like how u're doing it now :D

R:

Hey there sweetheart.. seems like you need a nice big serving of Vitamin L =) Hehe i really like the first one... hmm and surprises? Hehe some day I just might give u one! =) Love youuuuuuuuuu *muacks*

没有任何一个能够实现了啊。。明天该做什么呢？比赛postponed去星期天了。。。该死的我。。。到三更半夜不睡觉。。竟然想着他。。

梦一场

2010-12-10T16:57:00.003+08:00

这样的日子，同样的方式，还要多久。。。？

Thankful that I've got understanding team mates today, especially Cow, who literally let me rest and do nothing. So I was self-destructing while the rest were busy with worksheet/powerpoint slides.. Reached school at approximately 9.30am.. Met the usual ones at South Food court.. Had a drink coz I really don't have any appetite, sigh. Once we went back to class, I immediately got questioned by Eric & Cow about the S.T tweet. Idk, it just happened to pop up in my mind last night. I can't answer them anything. No, it should be.. I was just too upset to give them an answer.

I hope he had enough of accusing me telling every single person about this incident cos it's them who came to me to show concern. And showing concern DOES NOT EQUALS TO telling them the full details about this. Oh gawd, why on earth am I trying to save face for him at this very moment when he had already treated me like that. I had never, ever cried till my skin tore at the corner of my eyes. It's just way too much for me to handle, :'(

Walked around the school during lunch break, met my girls and hanged around with them till 1pm then I headed back to class.. Basically nothing made me laugh today. I think I'm too chirpy already, that's why when I'm quiet when I enter class.. Everyone knows something's bothering me.. Sighhh.

STL begins tomorrow, I'm gonna feel bad towards TGT if I don't focus.. And I know I will be unfocused. 99.9% sure about that.. Wanted to ask him if he wants to come down and support @ SCAPE, but.. Yeah.. Haiz.

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Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I’d jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya

Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,

Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

"When you're about to give up, think about what is it that has kept you going for so long"

Drown myself in tears tonight/tmrw night/'n' nights.

Mood meter: Pissed off

2010-12-09T18:16:00.003+08:00

Today was actually quite an alright day until some dickhead had to do some annoying stuff.

I was on time today, like ummmm even had time to get a drink from 7-11 and then walk using a normal pace to class. Was feeling really sian cos I got blocked from LEO so I had no access to it at all -.- I'm so extremely blur to the extent that I thought school fees are only due in 2 weeks time, but in actual fact, it's due 3rd Dec.. Meaning I already exceeded by so many days without realizing. Rang mum and told her to come down and pay the fees after she ends work.. Oh and my LEO got unblocked during noon~ (:

Played running man with the class around the whole W3 pod during lunch for 1hr+.. Fun or what!!! ^^ Bought only frozen yogurt after that cos I already had brunch~ Third meeting is ALWAYS boring, -.- I nearly fell asleep again, oh well..

And here comes the pissed part.

Yeah, I know it wasn't out of evil intention that he took a picture of my legs, wanting to disturb me that I didn't wear shoes before UT began. It's absolutely NOT NICE to post a picture of any lady's legs on to FB, and mass tagging so many people. How bout that, I take a picture of how tiny his pathetic dick is and show it to everyone? _l_

I seriously don't give a damn about whether he wanna "accuse" me of not wearing shoes during UT by sending this picture in to OSC, cos truth is that picture was taken BEFORE UT began. And if he claims that it's taken during UT, why the fuck is he holding on to his handphone during UT? If I was wearing jeans/leggings/whatever that's covering my legs, fine, I won't get so hopping mad. But hello? Posting up a picture of a girl's legs when she's in shorts, furthermore this picture was taken without any permission.

I joke with you guys when it's still within acceptable limits. Mind you all, have basic respect for your opposite gender. START LEARNING TO SEE WHERE'S THE BENCHMARK.

Feverrrrrr

2010-12-08T21:32:00.002+08:00

Hohoho I'm on MC today! Coz I'm down with fever.. hmmm, lousy immune system. Anyway.. I woke up, bathed, and then measured my temperature. Seeing that it's still high, I told mum I'll not be going school today.. Intended to go for breakfast cos I didn't feel all weak and jelly-fied, but Felt was busy & Jun replied me late.. So I went back to sleep, and Dad gave me $$ to see the doctor later on. It's a good idea to go in the noon cos there's lesser people.. Heh :P Anyway I didn't take anymore naps in the noon cos I couldn't fall asleep..

Stayed online and played pvz.. Went out in the evening to get Koi bubble tea.. Had ovaltine ice-cream milk tea again, ^^.. Had dinner at a nearby coffee shop there, and I think the food is rather cui. Only the rojak is nice.. Took cab back to Jp, bought my socks and went to pass Felt & Hua their drinks.. I'm a delivery girl today despite being sick. Heh.

Just finished bathing and I'm drying my hair now.. And I'm trying to obtain more Vitamin C by drink this Marigold peel fresh juice.. Wheatgrass and veggies..

Made of wheatgrass, apple, orange, pineapple, celery, mango, lime, beetroot, guava, green pepper, gherkin, apricot, banana, carrot, sauerkraut, passionfruit. WTF SUCH A LONG LIST. And what on earth is gherkin and sauerkraut???? O.O!

Gonna eat medicine before sleeping, and put a piece of mask on as usual ^^ I will go to school tomorrow! Cos I believe my fever will be gone by then.. Hahaha.. Bye & good night~

Backbone check up

2010-12-07T21:09:00.002+08:00

I'm late for school today, and I partial too :( Gonna affect today's grade lor.. Sian.

I quickly caught up with what the team was working on, and managed to complete the worksheet.. Hmmm. Brunch with the usual people.. Lots of fun and laughter again~ I had spaghetti because I really don't know what to eat already, -.-

Informed faci that our team wants to present first because I need to go off after presenting for my check up.. During lunch break . . . Ty caught my heart in just less than 5mins. ^_^ Ty babyyyyyy! Love him max, hehehe!

Went to Food Haven and bought my sparkling Ribena!!! Like finally, hahaha! So we hanged around outside class again.. Took our laptops out and did the powerpoint there =) Thankfully I completed what I need to do pretty early, so basically I was slacking around with them :P SI ERIC SAY I ACT CUTE! He this dick face.. Gonna attack his phone again tomorrow xD ~

Anyway after our team finished presenting I packed up and left.. Slept for like.. Half an hour on the Mrt :B Omg, I think I kena Xiaodan's blur-disease already! I alighted @ Raffles place cos I was supposed to change train.. Idk why I nearly tapped out instead!!! -_-" So I ended up walking one big round at the Mrt station and finally found the right escalator to take.. ~.~ What a blur sotong today :/

Went home straight after my check up cos I was not feeling well.. Kept feeling cold and I knew something must be wrong.. Took 2 panadol and rested.. Hope I'll have a stronger immune system :(

Gonna pack my bag now.. Shall try sleeping early.. (I always end up sleeping late) Bye~

FML -.-

2010-12-06T20:59:00.003+08:00

I'm on time for school today! Won the bet I had with cow~ Bwahaha :P

Was feeling rather disappointed to see only 1 person in my team the moment I reached. Got to know from cow that my team has got all the won't-do-work people. And indeed, they won't do work -.- (most of the time)

Was pretty pissed by Jisnu cos she expected me to complete the 2 worksheet questions assigned by faci to our team, and present it. Omfg, PUNDEH -.- Can't help but to use vulgarities. She really got my blood boiling! I swear I'll never ever sit next to her again. _l_ Ilham & Khai came later on, and I was like "Gawd. I'm gonna have Monday blues every week because of them." Sighhhhh*

Anyway I had brunch with the usual people again. Went TRCC during lunch break as cow & Eric wanted to get cheesecake.. We bought some fruits and ate outside class, spent some CRAZY time before going in to work on our presentation. Was feeling cold initially, but after all that pushing/laughing I was totally sweating :/

Entered the class only @ 1pm---Yes I did this on purpose. Oh and btw, Arif also came later on. Back to topic. I was thinking, "You guys expect me to do everything? Fine, I don't do, you all don't do, die together only. Can't stand it!" So apparently this pundeh was doing a couple of slides of I-don't-know-what. I worked on the poster and principles of elements, and I deliberately passed some work to the pundeh to do cos I was going berserk. Ilham gave some pretty useless slides, Khai did nothing, and I really mean NOTHING. Thankful that Arif was helping to compile..

I hope grades will do me justice :'( And I can't believe I'm gonna be suffering for the next few weeks in this pathetic team. It's already good that all of them are present, usually they would not come school/come back REALLY late during breaks/partial. AND THE PUNDEH ALSO DON'T KNOW HOW TO HELP, ARGHHHHHHH :'(

Training was cancelled due to wet weather.. Wanted to go jogging @ the nearby park but it was drizzling so.. I just stayed at home =(

Gonna partial tomorrow cos of my check-up.. Heading to Serangoon after that~

Alright I'm still feeling rather pissed, -.- Bye.

*Apologies for the extremely vulgar-filled post, hehehe.

Shopping trip (II)

2010-12-05T23:17:00.003+08:00

Went Bugis again today, yayyy ^^ Exchanged my clothes to a dress, and bought a cardigan too. Ummm before starting to shop, I had pontian wanton mee for brunch :D Benncoolen to get Hua's watch.. Walked around Bugis Street and there was nothing else I needed to get, so we went for KOI :D Shared a box of takoyaki, awwww yums!

Went back to Jp in the evening to meet her Mum & sister for dinner @ Crystal Jade~ Had xiao long bao, yumzyumzyumz :D Ohhh and I bought a pair of shoes form Mondo, and a belt too.. And ummm a few more pieces of facial masks from Sasa.. Lol. I'm like on a shopping spree this month! Walked around and decided that I shall save up to buy xue ge next week, HAHAHA! I gotta work during my holidays so that I've got sufficient to spend :(

K I'm gonna pack my bag and sleep by.. 12.30am I hope :/ Goodnight, bye~ :D

Shopping costs way lesser than consulting a psychiatrist.

2010-12-05T01:56:00.002+08:00

Woooooo, I'm feeling great cos I've got awesome loots today from Bugis (: Had Nandos for brunch, awesome max ^^ Gonna get my shoes tomorrow, yayyyy~ Heading to Bugis again to get a set of clothes exchanged to something else cos I didn't quite like it..

Went home to put my stuff first & get changed, then went over to Hua's place and hanged till 11pm and we headed out for dinner/supper. Walked back from Pioneer~ Went up to her place again, and stayed there till 1.30am.. Had fun being "surgeons" together with Hua & Lzl. I think I'm the worst surgeon ever, hahahahahahaha!

Seems like I'm having a super low budget for xmas this year cos I spent quite a lot of my savings on shopping today, bwahaha. It's okay! I'll just eat lesser and save more $$ ~ So many things to buy, yet so broke :( Any kind soul wanna bring me on a shopping trip~!? (money please drop onto my bed now)

Think I need to turn in soon else I'll oversleep tomorrow~ Byeeeee~ OH and I passed my communication UT1! Shiok or what, :P

Even a goodbye is harsh.

2010-12-04T00:11:00.002+08:00

Finally back home.. Wanted to stay out longer but the weather's so attractive to come home and sleep..

Even a goodbye from him was nothing but harshness and sarcasm. FML man, for being together with this kinda fellow in the first place -.- And I believe that a leopard will NEVER change its spots, cos he has proven it to be true. I admit I'm not a good partner and like I told him times and times from the very beginning, I am not as "perfect" as he sees me to be. He should most probably be convinced by now I suppose?

I am proud to say that I'm imperfect and I'm full of flaws-- All these make me human; make me Jiahui.

Over and over again, we got back together, things became fine for some time, but went back to its original state after a while. And this is what had just happened. Never ever looked into this relationship that far in the beginning, in fact my plan was to dump him after a short while cos I was really playful 1year ago. Didn't expect the love to blossom so quickly, and I really fell for him. Can't believe I even looked as far as marriage before. Things like if we're gonna make it till then, he'll be the one standing next to me when I'm in a wedding dress. (Yes I'm nuts, =.=)

Plans are just plans, they usually don't happen accordingly exactly. He walked out of me yet again, pointing fingers and said that all blame should be on me. I doubt he has ever reflected a single time. Still have the cheek to tell me "Just look at yourself, look at what you're doing" .

Now, he can happily flirt with girl(s) online using those sweet flowery words he uses on me all the time. He should be feeling really satisfied/contented.

I'm gonna delete our stuff and turn in.... When I can. Gonna escape early from my place tomorrow cos I don't wanna see ..... in the evening.

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Despite his harshness, I insist on being nice till the end.

Good luck for your upcoming tests (for work) and exams, I hope you'll score well and get your desired results.

I'd rather be quarreling, at least it's a form of communication..

2010-12-03T19:21:00.003+08:00

School was alright today.. It's a bad Friday for me cos I dropped 10bucks :( Already broke, now even more broke. Suay or what, grrrr. Luckily the amount to pay for STL was reduced due to Bee's good bargaining skills.. So I had a lil bit of $ for brunch. Thank goodness Cow was nice to buy me a drink, =) Played certain stages of PVZ with his help during lunch break and continued with our powerpoint slides.. Had another hilarious conversation with my pretty girls during 3rd meeting, was trying my utmost best not to laugh :/

Math UT retest @ 4pm.. I thought it's slightly more difficult than the original one we took which had a glitch, hmmm.. Left a few blanks :/ Met A at Bt Batok and we headed to Jp for dinner.

Some words are just too hurting, sigh. I joined an IG because of his words, he thinks that I'm too free. It wasn't out of my own interest, but thank goodness it developed into what I'm passionate about. Now, once again he's saying that I've got too much free time.

"Are you that lonely??" So does it mean whenever he turns to me, is when he feels lonely?

What a hurting question. I used to spend so much time with my friends that even for him to meet me, he had to "book" a time slot. Now? He thinks that I've got too much free time.

Yes, all the time that I have for him has been taken for granted. I'm gonna lead life like how it used to be from now on then. I hate it when people comment about the lifestyle I'm leading. It's MINE, not YOURS.

We haven't been talking much lately. Somehow this feeling is similar to.. How *** and I broke up. In the past, even when he feels tired he'd still bother to ring me up cos he knows I'm waiting for his call. Now.. Sigh. I feel so broken. I feel so dejected. I feel so unwanted. I feel that I should start getting used to leading life on my own again, just in case.

And..

当你发现我一直都在默默的忍受时，已经太迟了。。我所做的一切都让你批评，我忍。It's all about give and take, isn't it?　但今时不同往日，你已不在是那个温柔体贴细心的你了。。你不在主动地牵起我的手，不再。。。我真的不知道该如何是好。我已经尽力了，但每次都被你说得似乎我连一毛钱也不如。。

我要改变！！！！不会在以你为中心了！！！！！你不珍惜我，我也不会在忍受你所给我的态度了！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

I don't know how long this is gonna last.

2010-12-02T22:58:00.002+08:00

Today's weather is perfect for snuggling in bed :P

I reached class at about 8.45am and to my shock and horror only 1 person in my team was here. Thankfully the rest arrived slightly later.. Today's problem workload was quite light, so the mood in class was equally light as well ^^ Bought brunch back to class from South food court with the usual people again.. Om nom nom nom~ Completed what I'm supposed to do quickly and went Booklink with Cow & Eric to get some stuff.. Ok fine, to be exact.. Unhealthy food :P LOL! Have been craving for Maltesers cos Inez was telling me that she's eating it :(

Presentation went well, and our lesson ended @ 3pm. Intended to leave immediately after class ends but ended up staying for another hour or so.. MSN with xx and Inez about some nonsense. Some of Inez's reaction really cracked me and xx up. Hahahahahahahaha!

Shared a cab back to Lakeside, took train back to Boonlay from there. It was pouring so heavily lah.. Intended to go queue at Starbucks as they were giving out free drinks today! But the queue was damn damn damn looooooong @ Jp.. Headed back home instead~

我真的不晓得这样下去我们的关系会变得怎样。。他似乎一点都不在乎啊？我已尽力了，剩下的就让他扛吧。。超烦的！！！　今天他连一通电话也没发给我。。算了吧，我会去找别人陪我的。

SCAPE

2010-12-02T00:43:00.002+08:00

Friendly matches @ SCAPE was awesome! Glad that it didn't rain, hohoho :P We started playing at around 7pm+, and ended @ 9pm+ . . Did some packing up before leaving the place.. Took Mrt back to the west together with Bee & Xiaodan. Omg, Xiaodan's blurness is really darn adorable. Totally cracked Bee & I up.. HAHAHA! Talked about family problems and stuff.. *sigh* Who wouldn't want a loving, understanding and supportive family? IF ONLY I had a choice.. :(

你不知道的事，多的是。你永远都认为我只想损坏你的名誉，从来都没想过为什么我会那么难过/失望。你就不能尝试站在我的立场吗。。？

Life's back to how it used to be.

2010-12-01T14:15:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I repeatedly ask, "How long and how much effort would it take to just drop some1 a text?" The answer is obvious. If he cares, he'll call. But I don't even get a text saying that he can't ring me cos he's gonna get busy. Sigh.

I hope he won't sweet talk to any lady in this new company.
Things like,

"Hey there good looking"

Girl: "Not sleeping yet?"
Guy: "Staying up just for you." "And of cos my gf." (yeah, she's the priority, you put me after her)

Sometimes, the littlest things in life take up the largest part of me.

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I reached class at around.. 10.45am? I woke up on time but my tummy was cramping so much that I couldn't even stand straight. Decided to continue sleeping, and if I'm feeling better I shall go school. So.. I'm feeling much better now =)

So on my way to school I SMSed Cow that I'm hungry, told him not to eat during the first break and to eat together during lunch break. So.. Lunch was with the usual people again, I always enjoy lunch with them cos they give me so much fun!

Anw I didn't receive Keong's call last midnight, but only a morning text from him today. Like to annoy people only, tsk!

It's bright and sunny now, I'm excited for training later @ SCAPE! ^^ A requested to meet for supper after I'm done with training but I thought it's a bad idea cos I'll be really tired (and smelly + messy) after training..

Update soon! Bye!

When the heart feels weird.

2010-11-30T19:34:00.004+08:00

It's pouring heavily outside now~ Claps of thunder and streaks of lightning..

Anyway about today.. I woke up on time, boarded the bus on time, took the train on time, everything was "perfect" until I reached Woodlands bus interchange. The queue was mad long and the frequency was rather irregular, :/ By the time I alighted @ Rp's main entrance, it was already 8.27am. Which means I'm late, -.-

I'm glad I was pretty focused on solving the problem today, managed to work out solutions to practice questions etc.. Ly's always the one teaching me, bwahaha :P I had brunch with Frianto (we're BEST FRIENDS RIGHT :P *winks*), Cow & Eric @ W4. Omgggggg I loveeeee the Taiwan Cuisine stall! Delicious black pepper beef.. ahhhhh *drools* Gonna try the sotong soon, hehehe.

Cow accompanied me to POSB during lunch break cos I wanted to check what's my account number.. It's my first time taking the slope from lawn to the entrance of Rp. If he didn't mention that the route exists, I'd have continued walking the same old path forever. LOL! We bought some nonsense from Booklink (he bought LOTS of tidbits -.-) and I bought facial masks from SUI. LOL!

Short conversation with A over the phone after I'm done with my presentation.. Was supposed to meet Hua in the evening but I'm too lazy to go out due to the wet weather. I hope it doesn't rain tomorrow evening, cos we're having training at SCAPE! Weeeeeeeee ^^ Gonna sleep slightly earlier today to ensure that I have a HIGHHHH energy level for tomorrow's 4hr long training..

I'm listening to JC's songs now. He's really sooooooo darn talented..

Hmmm I really wonder, whether it's because I had never really came across something like that before, that's why I feel kind weird. I know I should be having a neutral stand but sometimes.. It's just sucky to know that, ____________________________ . But after my request it turned out the other way.. Glad with the outcome. *prays* Don't let this affect me, pleaaaase :'(

Sitex, IKEA

2010-11-28T23:35:00.002+08:00

Whoa~ I woke up at 11am+ despite sleeping really late last night.. Bathed and met pang, then we headed to Expo! Went to take a look at the Sitex IT fair~ Bought thumbdrives and laptop bags.. Met Jg & Lb for a while before we left.. Bumped into Tang on our way back to the Mrt station, he was with his whole family. LOL! We headed to Tampines and had our dinner @ McD there.. Roamed around, window shopped.. Took the shuttle bus to IKEA :D

I didn't buy the table which I wanted badly.. Hope it'd be on sale again soon then I'll get it :P So we walked around, pang was thinking about which study table and wadrobe she should get.. Whoa, my legs were reallllllly so darn tired :( We left the place at about 8.30pm.. Took the shuttle bus back again, then Mrt back to Bl. Played angry birds on her iPod touch on the journey back..

I AM SO TIRED NOW I'M GONNA DRY MY HAIR AND SLEEEEEEEEEP! BYE :P

Dear John

2010-11-28T01:48:00.004+08:00

Now playing: Plain White T's - 1, 2, 3, 4

H e l l o ~!

Was contemplating whether I should blog now.. Yeah and I'm obviously doing so. Lol.

27/11/10

So, how did I spend my Saturday?

I woke up in the late noon upon receiving A's phonecall.. Went back to sleep for a while more and I woke up at around 3pm? Bathed and got myself ready to meet him @ Jp for late lunch/ early dinner! Whoa, today's a grow-fat-day! Ate at Sakura then we bought durian puffs and headed back to his place.. Watched the movie "Dear John" on his laptop. Bwahaha, that was the first movie which he asked me out for.. And apparently I didn't understand the whole movie at all, and found it so boring to the extent that I nearly fell asleep back then. Hmmm, hehehe :P Well~ I think it all depends on who you're watching with! He was just an annoying friend back then! HAHAHA!

So I finally understood the whole movie and it's a really nice show.. Awwwww~

Anyway I had a sudden crave for KOI, (again -.-) so we quickly headed to Clementi at around.. 8.30pm? Went to LJS first as A was really hungry. I find the new beary hot meal rather yummy, :D

Finished up our drinks and headed back to Jp.. Went Fairprice Extra to get some stuff.. Bumped into Apyh while making our way there, omg it's been so long since we last met! Die die must meet her next weekend! ^^ OHHH and I finally found the facial cleanser that I've been looking for! Heeeh. Anyway the queues were really long, and we had to queue for a long long while..

Btw when we were @ Clementi, I was stepped on by a Cheena woman today and she was WEARING HEELS -.- Idk how she lost her balance on the stairs. She would've rolled down if A wasn't standing in front, LOL! And another Cheena woman bumped into my finger with the trolley at Fairprice, grrrrrr.

Anyway I'm glad to have A sending me back home, hehehe feels so blissed to have him by my side! :P I'm gonna get some rest soon cos I'll be meeting pang @ 1pm tomorrow.. Heading to Expo for the IT fair! Gonna go IKEA after that~

Goodnight, bye!

xoxo

Dilemma

2010-11-26T10:55:00.004+08:00

There's a difference between giving up and knowing when you've had enough. I suppose that give and take has its limits as well.. I know that's the way to keep a relationship going, but it's kinda tedious to always be the one tolerating.

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Hello~ I had brunch already! As usual, subway -.- And it took me really long to finish up my food cos..... I was laughing while eating. Laughing so hard that I nearly cried, hahaha. So much for watching laughing videos! End up my hair kena honey mustard, and it stinks now :( Thank goodness Frianto's nice enough, going up to his hostel during break time to wash hair! HAHAHAHAHAHA!

I feel like partial-ing and go home sleep. But there's UT laterrrr :( Wish me luck, Ly's not sitting next to me today. Boohooooooo T_T

/edit @ 12.57pm

Went up to Frianto's place and washed my hair ends~ Washed it twice to get rid of the horrible smell, HAHAHA! Hanged around his place for a while, enjoying the view and breeze & played the guitar before heading back to class.. Someday I have to go there again! It's really comfortable there lor, WEEEEE :D

Completed my powerpoint slides and I'm gonna take a nap now.. Still thinking if I should go out after UT.. Hmmmm. Shall decide later :B

When you cross the line..

2010-11-25T19:22:00.002+08:00

I'm late again, sighhhh :( Today we're in our new teams! Gonna start working on a new prototype.. Solar car! Farhan came up with the design really fast, and I think compared to all the previous Engrg Design lessons, today I feel the most motivated to do work. I did the worksheet!!!! (lol) Had subway for brunch, and I successfully psycho-ed Carl to eat with me :P (he was hesitant cos he might need to meet his friends for lunch) HAHAHA! He's always reminding me to unplug my charger whenever he sees that it is fully charged.. Observant dude.

You know one thing about me, I can take jokes. Just know when you need to stop. I'm fine already and I hope this doesn't happens again.. Like what A told me, "Ya lah they don't know their limits! You're a girl leh!" Hmmmm.. Still, I love my class!

Oh and today I played around with Farhan's headphones & earpiece.. OMG, POWER OR WHAT?!?!?!?! The sound is darn, darn, darn good lah! Blasting music with those headphones would totally make me get high for nothing. HAHAHAHA!

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Left school immediately when class ended.. I took a cab to Woodlands cos it looks like it's gonna rain any moment. Took Mrt back to JE and I slept all the way :P My eyes were so tiny when I woke up.. Hahaha! - -" Supposed to meet ah pang @ Clementi, but since she's at the Mrt platform too, I met her there instead.. So we headed to Clementi and bought KOI bubble tea ^^ Hmm and today's queue was quite fast lah.. Had early dinner @ LJS cos she's craving for it.. .

She's starting work already~ So many people around me starting work.. Gg's starting on Monday, so is pang.. Hmmm. Okay, irrelevant. LOL! So I was having a short catch up session with him on Msn yesterday noon.. So finally after 1 year, he's no longer with the gf (I sound mean here, I know -.-) Just that I no longer like him, oh well.. If not I'll "woo" him. HAHAHAHA JUST KIDDING!

Bought my Solocare solution before heading home~ Tomorrow's Engrg Design UT.. I hope I don't die. HAH. Okay I'm gonna bath soon, do Rj & evaluation before playing NFS :P

So I'm glad to have a catch up session with pang over the evening.. Can't wait to go out with my girls again~

Bye!

I forgive because I'm strong enough to know that human make mistakes.

2010-11-25T14:31:00.002+08:00

Take my niceness for granted, take chances for granted, truth is I am NOT someone for you to shout at as and when you like to. I am doing my part on TALKING NICELY, I hope you know how to control yourself. I won't hand my future over to a guy who raises his voice at me during any squabbles.

Don't demand me for MORE answers when I already told you I'm feeling pissed. And especially when I've told you whatever I want to say. Shout and scream at me whenever you want, soon I'll be gone. I'm not gonna put myself in such a pathetic plight anymore. By then you can start looking for a partner who would WILLINGLY let you scold her.

I'll never be the one ringing you back after you hang up my on me anymore.

I'll stop trying so hard, cos you don't give a fucking damn anyway.

20/10/11 Tchoukball Carnival pictures

2010-11-25T09:26:00.021+08:00

Complete set of pictures are all uploaded in Facebook already~

Will update about my day in another post later on! ^^ Having brunch now..

Bye!

Physics UT

2010-11-23T21:43:00.002+08:00

Hello! School was boring, had physics UT after class ended.

Anyway I didn't mention that the IT helpdesk guy @ RP helped me to recover all the pictures taken @ the Tchoukball Carnival last Saturday! ^^ Apparently he reformatted the SD card then downloaded some software to recover the files for me :D So I was laptop-less for the whole of 2nd meeting and break.. So I've finally finished editing, deleting, and uploading the pictures! Bwahahaha feeling really happy! I'd totally hug the IT guy if I could, love him TTM for doing me such a big favour!

And we watched Harry Potter yesterday~ OMG awesome! Can't wait for part 2! I've to admit I get really fidgety for long movies =.=..

Btw today we ordered Eskimo bubble tea from Dhoby Ghaut, and it took them hours to reach RP -.- Can't believe they took Mrt from DG to Woodlands, then took a cab to Rp. OMG THEIR SERVICE IS CUI DE LOR!!!!!

Hmmm so I've just finished doing my Rj, on the phone with A now. I hope we'll be REALLY stable and not squabble over minor issues. -.- Okay, it's proven that electro really makes my bad mood go away :) I'm too lazy to blog nowadays, -.- And all pictures taken over the weekend are on Fb already.

Bye!

MBT CUP CHAMPIONS!

2010-11-22T00:22:00.002+08:00

Finally home :D

Went to TECC for our final match.. Won the first position! :D This time round, we also had cash reward :P

Went to Changi Airport for dinner @ Popeyes.. Hanged around T2's aviation gallery.. Camwhore, jokes, talked about anything and everything.. Left the place at 10pm+, took bee's car.. If not for her, I think I'd reach home really late lor :( Anyway had a good laugh with the girls today, and another round of laughing with bee & xiaodan in the car.. Hahaha!!

I am still trying to get the pictures uploaded! I hope I can retrieve at least SOME of the files.. Sigh~

I'm really too tired for a looooooooong entry, will give a decent update soon k?

Bye!

WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!

2010-11-20T23:22:00.003+08:00

Whoa, I'm like extremely tired now cos I reached school @ 7.30am and reached home @ 10pm.. I'm glad the U-18 games and POL-ITE games went smoothly! Now I'm facing some problems with retrieving the photos from the bloody SD card which has cocked up. Will be going Jp to see if I can get help tomorrow..

Anyway both the RP guys and girls won the first position! Wooooolala~ Mr. Yew (actually Idk who the hell is he) is giving us a reward for IVP, and we're planning to have a chalet or something.. $500 leh, must use wisely :P

Thank goodness Inez has painkiller with her, else I'd have die of pain :'( Anyway I'm really hungry now cos I only had a bun in the morning, and the lunch provided in the noon.. So much physical activity.. DYING OF HUNGER NOW -.- Shall sleep soon so that I won't feel hungry. T_T

Okay I'm really tired. I PRAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY that all the pictures would be retrieved T_T Bye guys~!

PMS ain't a joke

2010-11-19T21:52:00.003+08:00

Now playing: Afrojack ft. Eva Simons - Take over control (really makes my mood better by blasting some music)

School was extremely boring and one whole team partial-ed today. Was tempted to leave together with them but NO.. LOL. Hanged around in class watching Eric play Plants VS zombies before leaving to meet Belle & Vian to head back together~ Hahaha, I'm so addicted to that game now! :P

Anyway Apyh was caught in some shitty incident today and I'm glad I was able to help her a lil.. Hope they'll be more careful in the future! Now I'm mummy Jia, hee.

POL-ITE TOMORROW!!!!!! Gotta rest enough, in order to be ready for the battle. =) RP Tchoukers jiayou~ ^^ Oh and you guys know, I have a problem with being punctual for school everyday.. Furthermore tomorrow if I'm late, I think xx will slash me. HAHA! Might end up taking a cab I guess.. $$ fly :(

Shit. I forgot to go Fairprice to get my.. Ahhhhhhhh never mind :( Hope I'll remember to get it soon~

Borrowed pang my heels cos she's having grad lunch tomorrow :) She played with my parrot for a while before leaving, hahaha! And fuck, I didn't see the doctor again cos it closes @ 8.30pm but I was one step late. . . .. . .... :'( !

我发现, ph 唯一比 A 好的就是他脾气好。就算我 PMS 对他发脾气，他也不会骂我。要到哪里才能在找到一个好脾气的男人呢。。? *叹气*

Oyeah~ Invited to "Carpe Diem" photo exhibition.. I'm a hardcore John photography fan. Awwww, can't wait for Monday! :D