It's the fight, the effort that counts

A post I came across from tumblr.. And it really means a whole lot to me :)

Within our relationship, we need to understand that it’s not all about fun and games. Sometimes we will go through tough times. Times that will deliberately push us to the limit of our breaking point. It’s not that we don’t want it to happen, it just does. All we can ever do is fight for what we have. Don’t let it slip away this easy because you never know that what you have right now may be the best you’ll ever see. Show them how much worth they have to you, show them you’re not ready to let go, show them you’re not going to let go.

Though you may be going through this downhill stage in your relationship, always remember to fight. It’s the effort that counts. Remind them why you love them, remember the times where you were at your happiest. Bring back those memories to where you made them last. The butterflies, the smiles, the love. All you can ever do is prove to them how much you love them. Don’t let go so easily, bring back that joy into your relationship. I know how much you really do love to see them smile. Don’t you miss the way they smiled at you? If so, please don’t let go. This relationship of yours is worth too much to throw away. Make it last. And always remember that you’ll do anything just for a shot of their love.

I love you sayang :)

I love you blog

Dear diary

Thanks for being there for me all along.. But now, I need to move on to somewhere else.. Do not worry, I'll be back again.. Just not so soon.

xoxo

Day 4. I am honestly.. Upset.

Dear diary

I was still lethargic at work today.. But compared to yesterday, it was slightly better. Only had one pathetic sales today and it was Zp & Colin who helped me with it.

My muscle ache has been really bad.. And thankfully Zp and Colin massaged my neck and shoulders to make me feel better!

Some things happened right before knocking off. And I was that close to crying. Bye, I don't wanna talk about it anymore.

Overload :(

If you must know, why I would always stay up to wait for your call.. :')

(Credits: Tumblr)

Dear diary

Back to work! Thank goodness my telemarketing skills are still there. Just needed half an hour to refresh and get familiarized with everything again.. Kinda bored of the same old cycle I go through everytime I go back there to work, -.- It's only the first day of work and I'm already wondering if this would be the last time I'm working there. Cos I am seriously bored of the work.. And am working there again just because I love the people.

Lunch was definitely my all time favorite maggie goreng.. I know maggie is unhealthy and yeah there isn't much ingredients that can give me the nutrients I need. I'm gonna try cutting down on eating that, even though I love it so darn much :(

Anyway.. I had only 4 HOURS OF SLEEP. Training + kbox + 4hours of sleep = Horrible skin + eyebags + pale lips + everything else that's jialat!

Thankfully Zp made me some tea that kept me awake throughout the noon.. I was seriously about to start dozing off, -.- I find the current seating arrangement quite ok.. Love disturbing the blurrrrrr hipopo :P

Went Jp to get some stuff after work.. And yeah now I'm home. Boring life eh, :/

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Sigh I'm feeling really stressed up. I don't know what to do about it.. Listening to Cow's advice and gonna start practicing that habit and see if it works..

Bye.

The mistakes would never change the feelings :)

Dear diary

Woohoo! I feel good today :) Didn't waste my time doing nothing.. I went for Tchoukball training in the evening and I'm glad my skills are still there.. But my stamina dropped A-LOT. And when I say alot, I mean it. Haven't been training for so long.. I hope I'll be able to make it for the training sessions even when it's a weekday. Need to brush up my skills for teens games!

Well anyway.. I left 45mins earlier from training cos I needed to have dinner before meeting the rest to sing K.. I was so, darn hungry. Like.. I cooked maggie in the noon, and added 3 hotdogs to it. I ended up only eating only a few mouthfuls of the maggie and all 3 hotdogs. I don't know why but I just didn't have appetite, sigh. Bought sushi when I reached Jp.. It's like my first decent meal of the day. But it's already 2am now and I'm feeling hungry again, -.-

Went to Jurong Safra kbox at 10pm to meet the rest! Had a great time singing.. And there were like a total of nine of us in one room Not squeezy though.. I'd call it cozy ;) My sis joined us much later cos she wasn't feeling well earlier on, but decided to come in the end. So... woohoo! As she promised, she's paying for me :P Sometimes I feel that the only thing that I have to cherish in this family is my sister. Like, how she pampers on me once in a while. (I know we bicker at times, lol)

So I left on my own at 12.45am.. Had a hard time flagging a cab, the roads were so empty :/ I need to sleep early! Work starting in less than 7hours' time. Omg. Why am I still awake? Cos I'm still drying my superrrrr long hair, -.-

Didn't get to talk much to sayang today.. But we managed to have a short conversation over the phone. He showers with so much love, more than I can ever ask for. I understand he's busy with work and all, but I really hope we'd spend more time talking/texting each other whenever possible~

I love you darling boy, :) I trust that you would bother to reply me whenever you're free, right?

Goodnight, bye~

An entry for.... You :)

It's 2.30am now but I can't seem to fall asleep. Decided to write an entry for A.. :)

Dear sayang

Ever since the patch up, I am so glad that we are keeping communication open. I understand that at times we may have different opinions towards a certain issue, but nevertheless, it's all about give and take :) I'm learning to be a better partner, and I know I used to be really unreasonable regarding certain issues. Taking a step back to look at things from a different perspective, and also learning from others helped me greatly.

Darling boy, I hope you'll continue guiding me like how you've always been doing. When I reflect about how much I think I've changed.. I realized that most of the time, it's you who has done this "transformation" on me. I'd be able to say with confidence.. I'm definitely much clearer with what I want in life. What are the things I wish to accomplish by the age of 21, and what are the plans I should be making for myself.

Well I should say.. That's just part of it. . I'm just thankful and glad to have such an amazing darling boy, who's able to show me the way when I've got no idea where I should be heading to.

Thanks for being so wonderful, darling. You're the sweetest thing that has ever happened to me :) Love you ttm! xo

A unique date

Sometimes, I take a while to look closely at you darling, and I start to fall in love with you all over again..

Dear diary

I didn't write here last night cos I got home late..

I spent half of the day at home and went out for a date with A in the evening :) Well, we merely wanted to make the date simple cos we've already watched 2 movies within a week. . His idea of going Henderson waves was rejected due to the bad weather.. And I suggested going to Sentosa Boardwalk since the rain has stopped. It ended up pouring heavily again when I just stepped out, -.-

On the train we were discussing whether to go Vivo or elsewhere.. And we ended up heading to Bugis for dinner. Omggggggg I've been craving for that beef rendang for ages. Like ever since I first tried it last year, around the Hari Raya period.. Hehehe I'm so thankful sayang brought me there for dinner again! :D So I had a lil "fear factor challenge" after eating.. And I failed that challenge :/ He said that I shall try it again the next time we dine there! Omg *shivers*

We walked over to to Ritz and had a mango strudel for dessert :D I can't wait to go back there again and get the durian strudel! :)

Hanged around Bugis for a short while and surveyed the pet shop for meow2's new cage.. Hope we'd be able to find a more comfortable one for her real soon! Hehe walking around Bugis really gave me an idea of what to... :P Not telling, heh~

And our last stop was Chinatown. Bought some daily necessities.. It's the first time I brought sayang there and he had the same reaction as I did, when Hua first brought me there. Hahaha! :) I thought it was a really unique date cos we have never spent a day like this before.. Like, really simple, yet it's sweet at the same time.

Well I guess, "It's the people that make the place!" No matter where I'm at, it always feels wonderful with sayang around ;)

So we made our back at around 9.30pm, and I went home to get changed before going over to Hua's place. We were supposed to watch a movie together at her place, but we ended up webcamming with bb and having supper instead :/

Saw 2 uncles getting into a quarrel/fight, and the one at fault had the cheek to ring up the police! Well.. The police don't seem to be interested to entertain their nonsense anyway. Lol. Back to her place at 1.30am, continued the conversation with bb for another hour +.. Decided to go back home cos I need to bath and dry my hair before I can sleep.. :/

And now it's already 5 in the evening, I'm stuck at home doing nothing. Well well, I woke up rather late.. Not meeting sayang today cos he's got some family gathering going on. I'm really looking forward to our 2D1N stay in the upcoming weekend, hehe~

That's all, bye :)