An entry for.... You :)

It's 2.30am now but I can't seem to fall asleep. Decided to write an entry for A.. :)

Dear sayang

Ever since the patch up, I am so glad that we are keeping communication open. I understand that at times we may have different opinions towards a certain issue, but nevertheless, it's all about give and take :) I'm learning to be a better partner, and I know I used to be really unreasonable regarding certain issues. Taking a step back to look at things from a different perspective, and also learning from others helped me greatly.

Darling boy, I hope you'll continue guiding me like how you've always been doing. When I reflect about how much I think I've changed.. I realized that most of the time, it's you who has done this "transformation" on me. I'd be able to say with confidence.. I'm definitely much clearer with what I want in life. What are the things I wish to accomplish by the age of 21, and what are the plans I should be making for myself.

Well I should say.. That's just part of it. . I'm just thankful and glad to have such an amazing darling boy, who's able to show me the way when I've got no idea where I should be heading to.

Thanks for being so wonderful, darling. You're the sweetest thing that has ever happened to me :) Love you ttm! xo

A unique date

Sometimes, I take a while to look closely at you darling, and I start to fall in love with you all over again..

Dear diary

I didn't write here last night cos I got home late..

I spent half of the day at home and went out for a date with A in the evening :) Well, we merely wanted to make the date simple cos we've already watched 2 movies within a week. . His idea of going Henderson waves was rejected due to the bad weather.. And I suggested going to Sentosa Boardwalk since the rain has stopped. It ended up pouring heavily again when I just stepped out, -.-

On the train we were discussing whether to go Vivo or elsewhere.. And we ended up heading to Bugis for dinner. Omggggggg I've been craving for that beef rendang for ages. Like ever since I first tried it last year, around the Hari Raya period.. Hehehe I'm so thankful sayang brought me there for dinner again! :D So I had a lil "fear factor challenge" after eating.. And I failed that challenge :/ He said that I shall try it again the next time we dine there! Omg *shivers*

We walked over to to Ritz and had a mango strudel for dessert :D I can't wait to go back there again and get the durian strudel! :)

Hanged around Bugis for a short while and surveyed the pet shop for meow2's new cage.. Hope we'd be able to find a more comfortable one for her real soon! Hehe walking around Bugis really gave me an idea of what to... :P Not telling, heh~

And our last stop was Chinatown. Bought some daily necessities.. It's the first time I brought sayang there and he had the same reaction as I did, when Hua first brought me there. Hahaha! :) I thought it was a really unique date cos we have never spent a day like this before.. Like, really simple, yet it's sweet at the same time.

Well I guess, "It's the people that make the place!" No matter where I'm at, it always feels wonderful with sayang around ;)

So we made our back at around 9.30pm, and I went home to get changed before going over to Hua's place. We were supposed to watch a movie together at her place, but we ended up webcamming with bb and having supper instead :/

Saw 2 uncles getting into a quarrel/fight, and the one at fault had the cheek to ring up the police! Well.. The police don't seem to be interested to entertain their nonsense anyway. Lol. Back to her place at 1.30am, continued the conversation with bb for another hour +.. Decided to go back home cos I need to bath and dry my hair before I can sleep.. :/

And now it's already 5 in the evening, I'm stuck at home doing nothing. Well well, I woke up rather late.. Not meeting sayang today cos he's got some family gathering going on. I'm really looking forward to our 2D1N stay in the upcoming weekend, hehe~

That's all, bye :)

I am number four

Dear diary

I'm finally home! So tired after a loooooooong day..

It's 1.43am now. I hope I get my hair dried soon so I'll be able to sleep.

Met my classmates at 12pm+ today, had a quick lunch at Mac cos we were running late for the movie. Whoa, the show "I am number four" is seriously awesome. There were some funny incidents in the cinema too.. I think I can't sit together with Eric. We'll make too much noise, LOL.

Well well, we bought Starbucks coffee and headed to the Esplanade. Hanged around there from late noon till evening.. It was really relaxing to just sit by the river and chat while having a cup of cappuccino :) Made a sudden decision to meet my darling boy for dinner! So he came over to Esplanade and met me there cos his lesson was cancelled, and we had Thai Express :) Hanged around the Esplanade area and watched the water performance at MBS.. The lightings were gorgeous, :)

Oh and we watched "I am number four" after that. Like ummmm, I know I already watched it in the noon.. But since he's so interested and I thought the show's really awesome, I don't mind watching it again :)

Before the show started we tried "kiaping" soft toys but kinda failed terribly. Always so close, but still so far :(

I'm too tired to continue thinking if anything else that's interesting which happened today.

I.Want.To.Sleep.

Good night!

Always keep communication open :)

I wanna watch Dear John with you again darling ;)

Dear diary

Ummm.. I actually stoned for quite a while before I started typing anything here. Woohoo! I didn't spend the whole day at home today~ Basically I went out in the late noon.. Shopped for baking ingredients at NTUC before heading over to bb's house to make my first attempt for fruit tarts. sigh, the custard didn't turn out well though. Hope that the next time when I try it again, it'll turn out fine!

So I hanged around her place till 10pm.. Looking through the pictures her Dad took and had a good laugh at the conversation between him and bb. Will never get along that well with my own Dad I guess, sigh. Uhh.. whatever -.-

I think I survived on a rather small amount of food today. Feeling alright though.. I hope my appetite remains like this~ Hopefully I won't get hungry in the middle of the night hmmm :/

Can't afford to sleep late today, meeting my classmates @ 12pm @ City Hall tomorrow. Will be catching a movie at Marina Square.. Hope we'll have a good time tomorrow! It's been a while since I last saw them. Like errrrr ever since the last day of UT3, which was last week? :X

I kinda forgot that tomorrow is Friday until I received a text from John asking me what time and where are we supposed to meet tomorrow. Gosh.. The problem with rotting during holidays. It makes me unaware of how the days are passing by. Glad that I'll be spending my time wisely by working from next Tuesday onwards!

Should I bring Peggy out tomorrow? Heh! I shall see if she'd take up too much space in my bag.. :P

That's all for today! Waiting for sayang to ring me soon.. Bye :)

You make me feel so beautiful when I'm with you.

Peggy on the left, Sheepy on the right. Heh :P

LOL!!!

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Dear diary

I spent my whole day at home surfing the net. I was supposed to attend training in the evening.. BUT. Unfortunately, my sister took my one and only pathetic sports bra and I can't stand doing sports in normal bra so I decided to give training a miss today :/

I woke up pretty early today compared to other days.. Basically I was just looking around Fb and Twitter for the whole day, cos I couldn't find anything interesting to watch.. Had a ham & cheese sandwich for lunch and I lazed in bed the whole day -.-

I totally had no idea what to have for dinner. I thought I could da bao food to Hua's place and eat there, but apparently she wasn't going home straight after work.. Thankfully sayang didn't meet his parents for dinner today, so we met up at Jp for dinner! Hehehe ;) It was really simple but well, I always enjoy his companionship :)

Walked around Jp after dinner.. And I intend to get him something simple but useful. Hehehe..

I need to plan what can I do tomorrow. I don't wanna waste a day again :( Life is really boring to stay at home all day long. Like what sayang said, it is more practical to work in the day time and go out at night. But I'll only be starting work on the 1st of March, which is next Tuesday..

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There are still some things I can't get over about. Felt slightly better after sharing it with sayang yesterday, but seeing certain things really still make me feel upset. Well.. If that's how you see me as.. There's nothing much I can do about it. And before you talk about others, think about yourself. Weren't you once like this? (or even worse?) Sigh :/

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I know, it's a really short post today. Too bad.. I stayed home the whole day -_- I thought the only interesting thing I came across was this video.. A guy was commenting and imitating Singapore clubbers. Omg, he's one annoying fella but I gotta admit it's kinda hilarious :P

That's all for today! I hope I won't spend the whole day at home tomorrow :(

Bye!

Date on a weekday! :)

LOL, I wonder what they saw! :P

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Dear diary

Weeeeeeeee! Sayang is finally back today! I set my alarm at 8.30am in the morning so that I'll be able to get up and text him! :P Was so glad to have gone on a date with him.. It's rare for us to get a chance to go on a day on a weekday cos he's usually busy with work. It felt sooooo wonderful today ;) So he bought me a penguin soft toy and we named her Peggy ;) She's really, really smooth!

Anyway.. What we did today was pretty simple but I really enjoyed myself. We went for lunch before catching the movie "Just go with it" @ Cineleisure. The movie was really awesome, I can't describe how much I love romance comedies :P Had a good laugh.. And most importantly, it's been such a long while since I spent time with my honey boy ;)

We hanged around Starbucks for 2 hours.. And talked about stuff.. Went for dinner @ Thai Express before picking up the 2 cats; Meow meow & Bobo! Bobo is such a good boy.. He was really quiet and didn't make any noise all the way back! But meow2 was so happy to see sayang she kept meowing non-stop, heh. It's been so long since I last heard her meowing massively :P

Oh anyway the taxi uncle who took us drove rather recklessly. He wasn't exactly speeding but driving at quite a high speed and kept changing lanes -_- There was a point in time he nearly crashed into the car ahead.. But thank goodness sayang called out to him and he stepped on the brake. So I kinda flew and hit my left cheek + shoulder against the front seat.. I hope I don't get any bruises :( I'm just glad that we made it back safely! Saw a really really bad accident around Bt Batok area on our way back..

Sent the cats back to his place and we went Ntuc to get some stuff. And we made our way home after that..

I'm so glad to have spent a whole day out with him.. And most definitely I love the gifts which he bought from Aussie, they're really adorable :D Thank you for being so sweet hun, I really appreciate every lil thing you do for me :) Look forward to our next date! Hehehe..

I'll take pictures of Peggy and post it here soon!

Goodnight,

xo

And hun, you're the special one I'm afraid to lose.

I miss your smile hun, can't wait to see you :)

Yes, there's just something special about my honey boy.. That won't allow me to give up on us. Not a single bit.

And I do wanna... Grow old with you, hun :')

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Dear diary

YAYYYY! 12 more hours and sayang would arrive in Sg! Gosh I can't contain my excitement. Sometimes I find it better for me to write out what I'm feeling than to share it with people who would take it negatively. Maybe it's just my nature.. That I can't bottle up my emotions. But all I hope for is just someone who would be there for me, and don't mind me getting all excited when something important to me is about to happen.

10 days.. It isn't an extremely long period of time, but more or less things have changed. And honestly speaking every now and then I am still living in fear. All I want is to have a sweet and peaceful life with my dear boy, that's it. I get really stressed up when I know the near future is gonna be really tough.. Now all I want is to see him badly, get a nice big hug and feel more reassured.

My day was fine. In the noon, I managed to have a short conversation with sayang regarding whether he'd have time to meet me tomorrow. I'm hoping that everything would go smoothly.. And that we can meet. I miss him real badly. I'm really sorry for being so unreasonable at times, but I know.. For this special boy I'm changing for the better :') I know it's just a couple of hours more.. But over here I'm missing him so terribly I'm on the verge of crying.

Went over to drop my last letter for him today.. I wrote him a total of 9 letters. I take a pen and paper with me everywhere I go.. Just in case at any point of time I've got something in mind that I wanna write to him. And everytime after I pen it down, I feel so much better. All that stress that I've been going through.. I'm trying hard to hold myself close so I won't break down, sigh.

Anyway I was supposed to spend the day at Sentosa with my classmates. I'm sorry.. But I'm really not in the mood to have fun under the sun. I just wanna spend my day in a simple way today. Ended up playing pool with Jun and we met Hua @ Clementi for KOI in the evening.. And now I'm back home.

I've been writing here everyday lately because there's so much I'm going through which I don't exactly know what's the best way to let it out. Like.. I write a whole lot here, but still inside there I'm struggling. I wished there was a better way for me to ease the pain, sigh :'(

Honey I know we've spoken about that issue before.. Please hold me close. I don't wanna struggle on my own :'( I look forward to seeing you really, really soon. It's been way too long since I last saw you and I'm feeling really terrible now. Miss you tons.