Voices around me.. They've all been telling me the same thing. When I'm about to give up, I think of the reason why I've been holding on for so long and I choose to go against their decision for me. Cos it's still up to me to decide what I want.
And I hope by giving both of us time before we reconcile is a correct move.
Tell me straight in the face if you think we would be unable to communicate forever/no matter how much effort is put in, and that we should just cut it clean.
While I'm in the midst of changing myself for the better, I hope you are doing so too. (Though the MSN conversation has already shown it all) Things like "I won't be harsh anymore", put words into actions please.
LOOK, I've already taken ONE BIG STEP forward to be nice. It's not just about me. What about yourself?
Things that I already know, I don't need you to tell me anymore. I know what's right and wrong.
I'm trying, and still trying, and still trying, and still trying... I hope you see that and don't see my effort as nothingness. It's a two-way thing. If I try to be better, but you don't, then don't tell me things like you wanna patch.
Things like tolerating and giving in has its limits. We're not even together now. Why would I even bother to entertain that bloody waste-of-time conversation with you being harsh to me, if I wanna give up on us?
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