YOU, yes you, I kinda miss you :')

It's gna be a long long walk, I'm all ready to go through the obstacles.

Taking a step back, may be good as well?

My heart only has capacity for bestfr :P

Whether our L is strong & true enough, it will all be proven in this period of time.

3 and 1/3 more years to go! Heeheehee!

Happy birthday Gong gong!

Happy 23rd birthday to Mr. Chin aka gong gong!

Heyyyyy :)

School was quite relaxing today! Met meepok & Vian in the morning, went for breakfast @ Mac before heading to school..Lunch time, taogay's friend came over to explain about the problem =) Faci ended @ 3pm today, lol! Finished my rj, quiz & evaluation and left. Walked back to Woodlands today! Had ice-cream on the way back.. Heh :) Took train back w Vian as usual, and laughed uncontrollaby when I was on the phone with sayang. I didn't do any dubbing okay! Minions are cute :D

Anyway.. Went up to Jun's place to look @ her new bed! Hua & co. left in the evening, while I stayed on as I'm waiting for sayang to reach Jp.. Around 7pm+, Jun's new wadrobe was delivered to her place.. After they set up and left, I left too.. Went to sayang's place and meet him! Thank youuuuu for buying dinner for me ^^

Thanks sayang for introducing me these 2 songs, now I'm addicted to them :/

98 degrees - My everything

98 degrees - I do (cherish you)

"hold my hand and we'll walk through this ok?"

Yes, I definitely will! ^^

Good luck pinky!

All the best to my beloved pinkpink, school will definitely be fine! Eggy loves you lah, hehe.

Have been travelling to school together with sayang for the past few days, it's like a motivation for me to get up on time in the morning and not lie on my bed and refuse to get up.. Hehehe. Oh and I went over to his place ytd, waited for him to reach home =D Spent quality time together, I feel so loved now :P

Every bad thing happens for a reason, like what Marcus's status says.. Anyway, I've learnt more about cherishing. It did do me good, didn't it? =)

So ummm anyway.. Today the whole class did quite badly for the Math problem. :/ No conclusion for every team, hahaha. Faci had a terrible shock from all of us :O

On MSN webcamming with sayang now =D (I know, we just met this morning and we're meeting in about 7hrs time) Heh! Like a happy girl only, =) . So glad to hear so much positive advice and support from people around us.. The more I feel that I have to stay strong! Tears would make me stronger, instead of weaker!

I can't wait for Friday, movie date with my lovelies & sayang! Need to turn in now, it's getting late.. Good night! :)

It's not different, just not the same.

Met sayang early in the morning and took train together. Train rides always seem to pass so quickly with him around.

I love W34D, for all the care and concern.

Lunch, spoke to pinkpink over the phone. I'm so glad you guys are always behind to support me.. Thanks so much, love you all!

Now I'm holding on to sayang's sub line, hohoho. We're using this for calling purposes =) Weeee!


Love is not a matter of counting the years... But making the years count.
-Michelle St. Amand

And I need you to know that...

The courses of true love never did run smooth.
-William Shakespeare

You are..

You are wonderful/amazing/awesome.

You brighten up my day, always =)

I don't wna miss any moment which I can spend it with you.

This.Is.Love. OUR, love =)

Tell me that, you'll stay w me

I really wna thank all of the people who walked through this crap with me, and even though I know this path I chose is gna be full of rough patches, I believe I've grown up to be strong enough and pull through it.

You said to never walk out of my life again, thanks so much for this assurance..

From now onwards, every problem faced has to be a "WE". Not "I", "YOU" etc.

Cos we can fight this, y'know. I only got to realize how much I needed you, when you sent me that text. I broke down, I turned to whoever I had, they all told me they need me to stay strong. I took up the courage to let you know what's going through my mind etc, and what we can do about this situation. Ok, whatever it is, I'm glad that things are fine, just that, sigh..

I really find this unfair for you in one way or another.

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Just finished my chat with gg! Ok, his advice is always somehow true, no matter how gong he may be. Talked about life & relationship, apparently everyone has their own problems.. Got a little detail from his part, kinda interesting.. Shared mine too, and yah.. Can't help but to agree with some things he said lahhhhh.

So anyway. Good luck for the soccer match tmrw sayang :) I gotta turn in now, meeting hua & co. tmrw again. Thanks, my precious girls.. Love ya all ttm!

Broken.

Don't
leave
me.

I
Need
You.

Don't go,
Stay close.



Bahagia ku denganmu, I mean it.
What are small quarrels, when my happiness > sadness when I'm with you..?




I'm terribly broken now. And I need you right now.

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"If we love somebody could we be this strong
I will fight to win
Our love will conquer all"

All good things, can they don't come to an end?

Chose to be honest, truthful, your good daughter to not hide/lie anymore. You chose to insult both of us, chose to shout and yell unreasonably at me, fine. I tolerated cos I know Dad scolded you. You know, I really hate you at times? You can be a good mum @ times, but you just fucking piss me off by doing these bitchy stuff. I'm 17 now. Even though, a child is expected to have filial piety towards parents, I'm so certain that since you dote on my brother so much, and always use such words to describe me, I shall not even bother to do my part as a daughter to you. Be a racist for all you want, for one day you might just realize that you are the one, WHO FORCED YOUR DAUGHTER, ME, INTO BECOMING A LESBIAN. WOULDN'T THAT OUTCOME SATISFY YOU?

It's already expected that I'll be going through what I've been through before. I chose to face reality. I know bro's meeting him tmrw, not sure if I'm following. Whatever the outcome, sayang, I need you to know. I'll always be here if you need me, even if we're forced apart. (Note: yes i'm crying now, since 12am) Sorry if I brought trouble for you. I know nothing is approved, even though SHE don't fucking get the point I'm emphasizing on. Thanks for sympathizing me sayang, I yearn to break free one day.

No such thing as:

Father

And

Mother

I

Love

You

I really, hate you all. Thanks for giving birth to me just to ruin whatever I'm pursuing after. Please disown me if you want to, I might just feel better.

You ruined my life when I was 14, now when I'm 17, it's like a Dejavu. I wished I could pull through this on my own, now I think I can't. And,I know tmrw's gna be tough. Extremely, I just hope, when things get really bad, I still can remain on good terms with you.

Jiahui is upset, to the extent that I can't say a word but only cry.

Thanks bro & sis for being there for me. I appreciate all you guys have done, I understand where you guys are coming from. I am just, upset. I'm so upset I can't speak a word. Your sister, me, grew up already, matured a lil more, but everything I chose to do turned out wrong and not even an opportunity is given. Bro, I don't think I'm wasting my time.. Really.. I just, sigh..

Enough is enough

I had enough, dude.

I don't give a damn if this is your last time meeting them or what. It was agreed for your Thursday to be spent with them, even if I wanted to meet you, I had no say. Now, SATURDAY. What was agreed? What makes you even think you can take away my right for spending this day with you without even asking me? Hey, I became patient but it doesn't mean I give in to and tolerate every kind of bullshit you create.

I used to put friends before you, but honestly, I changed this sequence by a lil some time back. They already planned to meet me, I cancelled it with some fucking crap cos you said you're free that day. I cherish every bit of time I have to spend with you. Now, after going through some thinking, I decided. You're never gonna make it to my number 1 place anymore. I'm putting friends before you, cos you proved me wrong by putting you as my priority. It wasn't even the least bit appreciated.

Listen, it doesn't matter if they're leaving soon. I can't tolerate it anymore, I am tired, and I am the one who feels like leaving now. I hate how much they're taking you away from me.

My lovelies, please take me away from this crap. Raise me up, and make me shine, make me be so bubbly again..

Happy birthday James!

Happy birthday James THY :D !

Heyyyyyyy all ~ :)

School was really boring & didn't really understand today's topic :( .. So after school, took train w Vivan as usual :D Talked so much, and some were issues which I really could not tahan/felt so bothered about D: Guys, seriously, why do we think so differently? Hmmm.. Spent quite some time talking about these few issues.. And some were nice, but mostly were just bad. At least I got to pour out what's kinda bothering me recently :')

Thanks CGX for being there for me whenever I need a listening ear. You know, seeing all this happen again just reminds me of those days when I cried to you.. Sigh. I don't like things to turn out this way, and this time round I believe situations are different already right? I'll fight for it. Even if it's gna make me feel so fucked up/stressed/upset, I wna pull through it.

I really hate talking to ___ now. Less than 5 sentences and we start quarelling. What is this..?

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Don't really feel like sharing what's going on with ______. Don't wna hear his response. And the best thing is, he calls me, he keeps quiet, I keep quiet, that's all. I miss life back then. Endless topics to talk about, random stuff, you making the effort to keep talking no matter how quiet I become.. Come to think of what Vian & I talked about today, I ask myself, shouldn't I have drawn the line between Bf & Bff at that point of time? Maybe I'll be a happier kid now.. Well, idk.

Told pok about what happened the other day.. Like, this whole highway has so much memories. Cried on the cab that day, lol. Luckily I was sitting @ the front. Thanks pok, I know I cannot cry! :) Maybe it's like what she said, I hope it really is! No matter what, I still think that.. I don't feel sad for whatever that happened back then. I'm just glad it happened, no matter how upsetting it was. .

Jiahui is: Stressed,upset,not a happy kid :( FML!

IHATEYOUALL, TOTHECORE.

Interview!

Hey guys!

School was great fun yesterday! Formal dress code, and no powerpoint presentation. Purely interviewing. Was an interesting experience! ^^ Took up both roles of interviewer, and interviewee. Harris kept disturbing me by making snort noises :X ! Wna make me laugh ahhhh..

After class, met Yc @ W1 and went back together. Met Hua & Yc around 6pm+, went to Pioneer for dinner, then to Jp to catch Despicable Me! :D Rating 5/5 stars, hohoho. It's been a while since I laughed so hard at a movie. Went to get food & went home after that!

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Today,

Class as usual.. Math was rather alright today, faci managed to end class by 3pm ^^ . Well, couldn't leave early anyway. Stayed in class till almost 5pm as I'm meeting Kl @ CWP for dinner. Roamed around and she bought a piece of clothing as we didn't feet hungry yet.. Anyway, we had Pastamania! Yum yum :) Talked about Sayang over dinner, errrrh, kinda awkward -.- Well so anyway.. If there's no bad weather or sudden change in plans, Saturday evening would be spent together with Kl & family + Sayang @ Universal Studios to take a walk. *Nervous

Oh! Spoke to Kayle over the phone earlier on, this sweet lil pie never fails to make my day by telling me how much she misses me, and wants me to stay over to play with her :) Would be heading to Kl's place in the early noon on Saturday to play with her first, I promised :)

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I hate this feeling, looking forward and have high hopes when all I get in the end is nothing but a whole lot of disappointment. Sigh, this is life. Face it. This is stupidity. Yes Jiahui, you're idiotic. Why do I ignore people who show me care and concern, and go for someone who doesn't bother as much? Hmmm..

Okay, I'm going off now..

D:

叫我如何生你的气那么久呢..? >=(

今晚应该会去俊丽家吧.. 喝..? 可能吧 :/ 迟一点才继续 update.. Bye!

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Took train back together with Vian as usual :) Everytime, we'll have so much to talk about. & Again, talking about the past, the guys, the relationships.. Doing certain things really need courage. Lots of things flashed through my mind. (sigh) Anyway, after updating here, I'm gna go over to my old blog(which i locked cos i stopped updating) and read the entries. Perhaps just browsing through those ________.

Anyway, chat with pok on the phone last night and I already told her to start scolding me whenever I ____________. K, so went to sleep after chatting with her.

It's hard to make myself believe, to tell myself that THEY are wonderful people and THEY ARE NOT taking you away from me, k? So what I'm doing is to find alternatives, other people to entertain me, since you're so goddamn busy when with them and cant even fucking bother about me. In layman's terms like you mentioned before. "It means if you can't give me a dick, I'll find some other guy who can?" YES, I search for alternatives. In this case I think this example is a lil extreme, but well oh well, you were the one who put it this way. So the best way is still to maintain a distance, not to stay too close. I'd rather a gap in between, than to feel upset.

I AM SO NOT UNDERSTANDING, OK? And YOU, don't come to me saying you wanna meet me or what just only when you're bored or have nothing better to do. If colleagues > me, by all means go along with them for all you want. Tired of all this shit, and I can't believe this is just the beginning. & Like I said, fret not if you are unable to locate/contact me when I'm out with my own friends. I need you to have a taste of how it feels like to be ignored all the way, when I'm happy-ing out there with some other people. Yes, I sound mean & harsh & whatever other words you wna use to describe me.

I need to stop ________ ___ :) .

Again, and again..

School ended early yesterday, went home by train together with Haeks & Vian.. Halfway back, Jun rang me up and asked me to go meet them @ JP. Since my plan was to head home & sleep, I might as well go meet my dear girls. Went to find them @ Kopitiam, then we went to roam around till it's time for Ah pang to leave for her tuition. Puff puff and off we went to Jun's house. *piak jun & felt buttocks*

Fell asleep instantly after I found myself a comfortable position. Jun tried so hard to get my spects off, and make me lie down properly. Slept for 1hr+ , woke up & hua reached already =) Went off around 8+, accompanied hua to get her dinner from central then we went home. Bathed, did my rj, didn't really have the mood to eat dinner. Well oh well, I waited for a reply for hours and eventually I'm the one who had to take the initiative. What can I do?

Anyway.. Was on time for school today. Addicted to the nasi padang stall at W4 already. Went to have lunch there again.. HAHAHAHA. Hmmm.. Presentation just over. Trying to concentrate on other teams' presentations. Gonna have 6P soon.

x: "Did anyone tell you before? That you have a sweet smile? =)"

Sweeeeet talk TTM, but so? It makes my day so much better.

I dislike/hate/abhor/detest empty words. Say one thing, but do another instead. Jiahui oh Jiahui, times & times already, what's making you still believe those words and wait in vain? zzzzz!

平时什么都不说,只代表我不想为了小事吵架... 但你仍然继续这样.. 等你? 别提了.

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K, I think I screwed Programming UT2 -.- So anyway.. Took train back with Vian as she's heading back to her Jurong house. Talked about the past.. Well, brought up lots of memories.. Sigh. Sometimes I wish everything had a second chance. Ah, forget it. Talking nonsense already. Drinking tomorrow with my girls? Maybe, hmmmm. Anyway, gna have dinner now. Bye!

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Chatting w pok on msn now, she never fails to make me feel better :) I luv you pok! Thanks G for the concern, I know the weather's such a bitch, I'll drink more water :B Okkkk gotta go ring pok now, bye!

Outing w Dell lovelies

Hey guys :D

Was out with Dell lovelies yesterday, awesome time spent with them! Flyer --> Helix --> Marina. Next in the list is a movie session this coming weekend! ^^ Can't wait for Zoo & JBP trips too.. Pictures are all uploaded in fb :D

So anyway, bought sayang supper after reaching Jp. Went home to watch WC after that! Omg... Extra time zzzzzzzzzzzz. And seriously, the match was nothing interesting and full of yellow cards .___. Anyway, good job Spain :) .. Soooo.. I slept around 5.30am, woke up around 6.40am, bathed & changed, then went over to sayang's place & continue sleeping while he went to work =) Woke up in the noon, & met Jun @ Jp for lunch :D Currently @ her place alone! She went Amore.. Think I'm gna continue sleeping till she's home, & may be accompanying her to SP to watch KH's squash match. We'll see how it goes later on =)

Alright.. My new msn dp pic is inviting lots of questions, & even a phonecall from Haeks. LOL! You people ah... hahahahaha!

Bye!

APTC

雨过天晴。

Hey guys :)

Was busy with helping out in the APTC games yesterday and today. Yesterday was more of slacking I have to admit.. Nothing much for us to help out with. Today, met new people :D ! They're a really fun group of people to work with. Helped to sort out t-shirts and name tags for the respective countries. Anyway, lunch was AWFUL. Didn't finish up my food cos it really tasted so..... -.-" So after lunch, helped to set up tables and chairs @ Agora hall 1, to prepare for the upcoming buffet dinner for all the participants.

Sayang reached Rp & I brought him to take a look @ the set up in Agora, then brought him up to the sport halls to watch the ongoing matches. His first time watching a tchoukball match. FINALLY, he understands what tchoukball is about :D Wandered off for a while, and then went back to the spectators seats to look for him. Left around 5.30pm.. Headed to CWP for dinner. Seriously, I was hungry T T M .

Walked around CWP for a while & we left.. Sayang wanted to catch a movie but I was really tired after a long day, told him I will fall asleep halfway through the show.. Sooooo we headed back to Jurong (: Otw back, slept like a pigggggg again :/

Flyer tomorrow! Yipeeeeeeeeeeee! Bed time now, bye! :D

Best things about having a good boyf.

1. Good morning text messages
2. Late night phone calls.
3. Falling asleep on the phone.
4. “Babe, guess what?”. “What?”. “I love you”. (everyone does it)
5. I miss you/I love you random phone calls.
6. Being grabbed by the waist.
7. Kisses, especially on the forehead.
8. 127817392 photos together.
9. You guys fight, you walk away .. he comes back for you.
10. He’s always there for you, through thick & thin.

(Via tumblr)

:')

Guys, don't let a girl fall for you, only if you're ready to catch them.

I (L) W34D , you guys make wonders :') Yeah James.. We're on the same boat. We know how each other feel, sigh. Thanks everyone for the support and concern.. Effort to make me become the laugh-non-stop-girl again :') Waiting for 11.15 now, gna talk to Haeks & GJ over lunch..
Had a long conversation with my beloved pinkpink last night, thanks baby for being there for me..!

Have been trying my utmost best to stay as strong as I can, assured mousey I'm fine earlier on this morning. He's really one 24/7 buddy.. Well, still I broke down. Burst into tears the moment the first break began. Spent the whole break crying out loud. Hugged Sh like how I hugged Jun ytd.. Thanks girls!!!!

I know you lovelies were willing to drink with me last night, can we do this on another day?! There's UT today.. Allow me to get all drunk & pour everything out with you all soon yeah.. None of you are allowed to leave until all are drunk.

Marcus promised me chewing gum, & thanks Deyu for your tang tang!

Looking forward to Sunday, Sg flyer. Gna spend a romantic time up there.. :) My first time there, was with you. The second time, you're not around anymore..

What factors constitutes to giving a 2nd chance?...

You want me back, BADLY? I'm sorry, I don't share a boyf, like I mentioned before in the previous entry. It just shows that you wna be a timer BADLY.

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Back from lunch.. Before going for lunch, heart-to-heart talk with James, Jerome, Marcus, Babyboy. Thanks alot people.. My perception widened by quite abit, though I still need time to think through. Especially babyboy, really useful advice.. !! I'm really glad to have all of you by my side :) Flowery-kums-pollen too, for making me laugh!

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7.20pm

Having dinner and chatting w Babyboy @ the same time now.. I really appreciate W34D's love, care and concern. Especially Jerome & Haeks who didn't let me walk back on my own :') Thanks guys for the company! They miss my smile, they miss my laughter. I'm surprised to hear that I make many of them happy unknowingly just by being myself. They want the sunny side back, no tears no dull-looking-face. I'm gna BE STRONG STRONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! Thanks Haris! "You are not facing this alone! You've got us!" Stop using your Ginseng & towgay to threaten me :B Oh, now what. Bob signed in subsequently and came to make me laugh too :) Refused to let me rub his belly today, only allow me to lick! (?!?!?!) These 3 ah.. Make me go awww only.. Smiling already lah!!!

Note to Dell team:

My lovelies, I know you all have strongly encouraged me to_____________... I appreciate all of your concern and am glad to know that I am not facing this alone. I am glad to have elephy and pinky to listen to me rant for these few days.. I really hope to meet up with you all soon! The love for you guys will never be lesser :B

Heartache

Here for some quick update!

So anyway.. Facebook said it all. Changed relationship status, everything happens for a reason.

I love you, but she's better for you. I don't want such a relationship. No doubt, you must definitely still feel smth for her. Feeling sad cos you are requested to delete her stuff permanently? I voluntarily leave this rs. I'm not that generous to share a boyf. You claim that you love me? Show me then, that's the challenge.

Thanks to all who let me cry on your shoulders, in your embrace, over the phone and more. I'm not gna get cheated by anymore sweet talking :)

As my msn nick says it all --- it goes on. Life as it goes on..

Tgif !

Happy birthday Jerome matchstick egghead :D !

Tgif tgif tgif tgif ~

Mum woke me up today :O Too tired to get myself out of the bed, :/ Anyway.. Reached woodlands around 8.15a.m. and met the rest.. Went to Mac for breakfast :D Was a really nice breakfast, :) Much fun & laughter.. & obviously gossips, hehehe. Sat around & was deciding whether we should go and watch Eclipse.. In the end we didn't.

Walked to school @ 9+.. So all of us were like, NIFM... BUT. A few of them left during lunch time = Partial. Come to woodlands early in the morning for breakfast, & leave after that. Heh! Really had the urge to leave but forced myself to stay :( Played baking life & hotel626 throughout lunch time. Haeks was the first to scream, LOL. And we spent quite a long time before we could crack the elevator code!

Was really sleepy & fidgety throughout meeting 3. Had quiz as usual.

The fortune telling bird: Holland will beat Brazil. And it really came true, omg omg omg. I should train my pet bird to tell fortune too :X HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Gna dry my hair now~ Byeeee :)

Wcp

"I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken, and the one who could always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighten up her own."

-Thank u tumblr, for being there to express how I feel :)

School was normal today. New team, wonderful people who make me laugh all the while. Waffle after class with Apribelle. As usual, Fridays are days which I have proper breakfast before heading to school. It's programming anyway,can't be bothered.

Just got home from a walk @ WCP. Feeling much better after spilling it all out.. :')