今晚应该会去俊丽家吧.. 喝..? 可能吧 :/ 迟一点才继续 update.. Bye!
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Took train back together with Vian as usual :) Everytime, we'll have so much to talk about. & Again, talking about the past, the guys, the relationships.. Doing certain things really need courage. Lots of things flashed through my mind. (sigh) Anyway, after updating here, I'm gna go over to my old blog(which i locked cos i stopped updating) and read the entries. Perhaps just browsing through those ________.
Anyway, chat with pok on the phone last night and I already told her to start scolding me whenever I ____________. K, so went to sleep after chatting with her.
It's hard to make myself believe, to tell myself that THEY are wonderful people and THEY ARE NOT taking you away from me, k? So what I'm doing is to find alternatives, other people to entertain me, since you're so goddamn busy when with them and cant even fucking bother about me. In layman's terms like you mentioned before. "It means if you can't give me a dick, I'll find some other guy who can?" YES, I search for alternatives. In this case I think this example is a lil extreme, but well oh well, you were the one who put it this way. So the best way is still to maintain a distance, not to stay too close. I'd rather a gap in between, than to feel upset.
I AM SO NOT UNDERSTANDING, OK? And YOU, don't come to me saying you wanna meet me or what just only when you're bored or have nothing better to do. If colleagues > me, by all means go along with them for all you want. Tired of all this shit, and I can't believe this is just the beginning. & Like I said, fret not if you are unable to locate/contact me when I'm out with my own friends. I need you to have a taste of how it feels like to be ignored all the way, when I'm happy-ing out there with some other people. Yes, I sound mean & harsh & whatever other words you wna use to describe me.
I need to stop ________ ___ :) .
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