All good things, can they don't come to an end?

Chose to be honest, truthful, your good daughter to not hide/lie anymore. You chose to insult both of us, chose to shout and yell unreasonably at me, fine. I tolerated cos I know Dad scolded you. You know, I really hate you at times? You can be a good mum @ times, but you just fucking piss me off by doing these bitchy stuff. I'm 17 now. Even though, a child is expected to have filial piety towards parents, I'm so certain that since you dote on my brother so much, and always use such words to describe me, I shall not even bother to do my part as a daughter to you. Be a racist for all you want, for one day you might just realize that you are the one, WHO FORCED YOUR DAUGHTER, ME, INTO BECOMING A LESBIAN. WOULDN'T THAT OUTCOME SATISFY YOU?

It's already expected that I'll be going through what I've been through before. I chose to face reality. I know bro's meeting him tmrw, not sure if I'm following. Whatever the outcome, sayang, I need you to know. I'll always be here if you need me, even if we're forced apart. (Note: yes i'm crying now, since 12am) Sorry if I brought trouble for you. I know nothing is approved, even though SHE don't fucking get the point I'm emphasizing on. Thanks for sympathizing me sayang, I yearn to break free one day.

No such thing as:

Father

And

Mother

I

Love

You

I really, hate you all. Thanks for giving birth to me just to ruin whatever I'm pursuing after. Please disown me if you want to, I might just feel better.

You ruined my life when I was 14, now when I'm 17, it's like a Dejavu. I wished I could pull through this on my own, now I think I can't. And,I know tmrw's gna be tough. Extremely, I just hope, when things get really bad, I still can remain on good terms with you.

Jiahui is upset, to the extent that I can't say a word but only cry.

Thanks bro & sis for being there for me. I appreciate all you guys have done, I understand where you guys are coming from. I am just, upset. I'm so upset I can't speak a word. Your sister, me, grew up already, matured a lil more, but everything I chose to do turned out wrong and not even an opportunity is given. Bro, I don't think I'm wasting my time.. Really.. I just, sigh..