The same kind

You're just like them.

1) What are you doing now?

2) At where?

3) *no more replies*

Nice one.

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Credits: Tumblr

"I just want to be your perfect lil girl"

m.o.v.i.e.d.a.t.e.l.a.t.e.r.=)

Just the way you are

Bruno Mars - Just the way you are

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y5lO4hEAJHU

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And it's so, it's so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think it's so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
I'd never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

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How I wish you would sing me this song sincerely.. Like you really mean it, from the bottom of your heart. I wish things are really like how the lyrics goes..

Sigh. Bye.

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/edit @ 2.24am

I can't sleep. Thanks pig for calling McDelivery. Fucking hungry.

I'm still in doubt. I don't expect people to tell me I am pretty/beautiful etc.. But I hope at least I look ok? You know what I mean.. Just, as long as I don't look horrible :(

Do I wear weird clothing? Hmmm.. Do I look weird in shorts??? I just can't help but keep having the same few questions going through my mind, and not letting me rest..

Argh. I need my confidence to be back. I can't stand going through all these crap. I can't face all these shit alone. I need someone to be giving me a real tight and warm hug, assuring me, and most importantly, to be there to build back my confidence with me.. Sigh*

*Munching on my food*

Or maybe.. I'll just have to learn to face it on my own. I keep wondering, what did sayang really see in me in the beginning, which made him willing to go through the hardcore pestering + thick skin TTM courtship..???

I just hope it's like what people tell me, he's simple and he just wants a simple life. Work hard. Earn $. Give his partner a good life. Happy. That's all. I wish the description = true. . .

It sucks to think of how J used to criticize me. Like, ouch. That really hurt me badly.

I feel like a piece of junk now.

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/edit @ 4.05am

I.Can't.Sleep.At.All.

Where do I start building back my confidence from :'( I know crying is not gonna help. I gotta learn to manage things I'm going through emotionally without turning to alcohol. It's just temporary relief. (I'm like clenching my teeth real hard to prevent myself from wetting my pillow) The song has been on repeat for the past hour.. The lyrics are just so beautiful.

I hope I'm your last romance (in fact I RLY WANT TO BE) :') K that was random, but it's from the bottom of my heart.

Have you changed? I hope not. I want you to be the one that I have always knOwn, not knEw.

It's 4 in the morning & thank goodness, 24/7 buddy is always by my side. He's using himself as the joke topic to make me feel better. And, it's kinda working. Yeh so.. He successfully made me laugh after sulking for soooo long. I'll try to sleep soon..

4.45am

Good morning, & bye I'm hitting the sack.

Kim Hyung Jun Showcase (Continued)

Hey guys, gna continue talking about baby jun in this post again.. :P

So I stopped @ the meet & greet event part.. Anyway. The red, pink & green categories went on to the stage and got either a handshake or a signed-on-the-spot-poster from him. Oh well, I'm in the blue category so it's pretty much none of my business. Just went there to look @ him again.. (OMG I can't help but emphasize again. THOSE ARMS ARE SOOOOO FUCKING HOT!)

Anyway I left the sky garden around 9pm as sayang came to meet me for dinner :)

For extremely specific details, please visit sgtriples.com/forum ya? I'm unable to give a precise description of the whole event, cos I thought the best way to describe it would be.. AWESOME LAH!!!!!!

Btw, baby was like.. "Pepper crab, Chili crab"

AND WE ALL WENT SCREAMING AGAIN, LOLOLOLOL! HE'S SO DARN CUTE LAH!

So.. He was standing in RP TRCC Theatre saying, "Study hard" to us.. He knows lots of his fans are still studying. So I'm like.. (OMG HE IS HERE IN RP TELLING ME TO STUDY HARD!!! IN MY OWN SCHOOL SOME MORE!!!! OF COS I WILL BE MOTIVATED TO STUDY HARD!!!)

Pardon me for the madness -.- And I'm missing him already! He's flying off tonight! I hope he'll tell the other 4 members about how wonderful we are, and that they should come together next time!

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Anyway.. Will be buying food for sayang during his break time as usual :) Last night, he's really sweet to sing me a song before turning in.. Awwww :D

Gonna bath at 3pm, and meet Jun & her friend @ Orchard later. Yeah I've got no idea at all who her friend is -.- But it just sucks to stay at home all day long doing nothing, :/ (But this weather is perfect for me to sleep lor..) Hmmm..

"Every little thing that you do, baby I'm amazed by you ;)" That's sooooo sweet lah sayang =) ♥!

Gotta get going now! Will update soon, with the sizzling hot pictures of baby ;) Byeeee!

Kim Hyung Jun Showcase

I will tidy up the pictures, and upload better quality ones ASAP okay? Let's talk about how the day went :)

I woke up darn early. Thanks sayang for getting up & help me find out Somerset HMV contact number! So I rang them up, and one of the staff told me that tickets cannot be reserved, however, I can come down personally to purchase it. And when I checked with her which categories are available, she told me ALL are still available. So I got really excited, bathed & chiong my way to Somerset. To my shock & horror, the bloooooody fella told me.. "Warner took back all tickets ytd. It was the last day of sales for tickets in HMV outlets ytd." I panicked. Called sayang and got him to find out for me Warner's contact no. and Bras Besah (spelling) Popular's contact no. Thank goodness Linlin told me @RP the tickets are still being sold! Phewww!

Chiong my way to Woodlands. Sayang met me there, and accompanied me to RP. He kept me company for a short while before leaving for his soccer match. Thanks darling, you're the best! =)

IT'S SHOW TIME.

Screamed like mad the moment baby appeared! HE IS OMG-LY HOT, SUPER NICE ARMS LAH!!!! AND THAT COLLARBONE + STRAIGHT WHITE TEETH!!!!! Oh ok let's not forget the Emcee. YES 93,3FM Dj, Peifen! Alright back to main topic =) 20 lucky girls were chosen in the lucky dip, to go on stage and play games with baby! Our dear Marissa Mae was the first lucky one to be chosen! Like OMG, she loves baby the most & she's so darn lucky lah!!!!!

Baby had 3 performances in total.. He's really cute & hot. HOT! The last performance made me go OMG, WHY THE HELL DID THUNDEROUS THIGHS COME WITH HIM TO SG????? SO ANNOYING LAH!!!!! GET SO NEAR TO BABY!!!! K fine that's her job. SHE'S PAID TO DO SO, -.-

Anyway.. SGTS gave baby a mini belated birthday surprise, the video, the song, the cake.. Heard that he nearly cried! (K I did cry while watching the video) After the showcase ended, took Mary's car together with a few others to queue up @ IMM for the meet & greet session in the late evening. Baby invited lots of screams from us as usual, hehehe. Now my throat hurts :/

Ok I know this is abrupt, but I'm falling asleep halfway through blogging.. I'll continue with more details tmrw okay? Good night! :)

I LOVE MAKNAE :D

YAY, JIAHUI IS AN EXTREEEMELY HAPPY GIRL. Feeling so blessed. AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Ok before I go crazy again, I shall talk about my day first :)

And this post is for Saturday btw!

Sayang woke me up in the morning & I quickly got myself ready, and set off to Somerset together with him to meet Pinky! Met her @ Kaplan cafe.. Read newspapers while sayang helped her with some Accounts qn. After that, we went to pat tor :P Sooo.. It's been a long time since both of us played in the arcade.. & hehehe, we went in to have some fun before going for our movie! (He lost to me in Daytona, heh)

We watched "Salt" , & we both think it's a pretty awesome movie! ^^ Sooo.. We left Somerset in the evening & headed to Suntec as sayang wanted to look for a laptop bag. He kept me company for dinner as he didn't want me to eat alone @ the airport, awwwww~ I love you darling, =) & We went separate ways after that.. He headed to Newton & met his family for dinner. OH & BTW!!! We saw a rly biggggggg/huggggge sheep soft toy @ Suntec. That's how Sheepy's gonna look like when he grows up? :P

Anyway.. Spent some time with the Triple S @ T2 as I saw that they were already there when I reached. Saw fans from other countries as well, =) Joined Wendy & her friend after they reached T2! ^^ & I was sooooooooooo darn excited while waiting for Baby to arrive!!!!!!! When he finally appeared.. I SCREAAAAAAAMED LIKE MAD LOLOLOLOL. BEST PART? HE LOOKED IN MY DIRECTION (must be the triple S green tee effect :P) Anyway.. BABY LOOKS SO DARN AWESOME LAH!!!!!

He's:

• Cute
• Hot
• Sexaye
• Awesome build
• Lovable
• Huggable
• Kissable

AND ALL OTHER GOOD STUFF LAH HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!! K so I had an awesome time, cos it's my first time seeing him. IN FLESH, LOL.

Sayang! This is for you, specially for you!

Hey ♥, thanks for making your way down to Changi Airport just to send me home! (I know you were tired) After the loooong day, you still had to go shopping with your family before coming over to find me.. I really appreciate that effort y'know! Winkasaurus :P (I just discovered sayang's winks melt me instantly) Mad cute, seriously lah! K anyway.. You tired lil penguin, fell asleep while waiting for me to be done bathing eh! Called you but no response, hmmm. I'm glad you managed to spend quality time with your family, and it's wonderful to see how much your Dad dotes on you =) ♥♥♥ !

Gna wake up early tmrw and try my luck to purchase AT LEAST the cheapest ticket so I can see Baby!!! Else, I'll just stalk him around Rp. Good night! ^^

Pleasant surprise

O.o I'm glad they sound neutral from the way they responded, according to sayang's information.. Everything's gonna be fine right? Hmmm..

He just turned in, and I will soon too. Look forward to meeting Pinky tmrw, but I'm even more looking forward to seeing baby @ night. Omg this is like once in a lifetime man.. Srsly.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. MAD LOVE! Maknae, :D

Terrible

我病倒了！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！今天，在前往他的家的路上，我淋了好多雨。。过后又流了好多汗。。接着又吹冷气。。忽冷忽热，不病倒才怪。。

一下子发冷，一下子发热。。我的身体到底怎么了？想吃药但我还没吃晚餐。。想睡觉但睡不着。。等他接机，到家后才会打给我。。在我最不舒服，希望他通过电话陪我时，他却不能。。 ='( 这也没办法。。说到这点。。我需要做一些调整来适应，因为他家人回来了。。好让他有足够的时间陪他们。。希望他不会因此过度的忽略我吧！(现在又发冷了!)

不知道要怎么度过这个周末。。找个人来陪陪我吧。。做点无聊的事来打发时间也不错。。总比在家烂好。。

下一次见到他，会是几时呢？=')

我没有像他那么温暖的一个家庭，但这不代表我会阻止他与家人在一起。。。

Foodless

Finally back home, gonna rest. Tired from cleaning sayang's place again -.-...

To make it worse, there's nobody home and there's no freaking food for my dinner. Hello Maggie Mee, here I come -__-" Gna nua on my bed for a while more before I go boil water.. FML I'm having a headache now ='(

Feeling rather upset cos it's kinda coincidental. Everytime when he's with his colleagues, he doesn't reply my messages :/ (Yeh he said he didn't feel the vibration, I'll take his word for it) Eh eh, Eh eh~ There's nothing else I can say.

(K this weather srsly sucks ttm & how on earth can I be feeling cold now) (Measured my temp and I'm having a fever now ahhhhhhhh!!!!! KNS)

I'm gonna leave the lappy now, not gonna cook my dinner anymore. I'm gna take a nap till sayang rings me :(

I want a person who comes into my life by accident, & stays on purpose. Will you be that person? ;)

Wonderful evening :)

Yes, tmrw is the day :/ Sayang's family is gonna be back!

Anyway I met sayang for dinner & we had a wonderful evening together. He slept in his seal position again. Mad funny :X

Ah pang: Permission granted!

Jun ah jun.. I hope this is the last time you're gna do something for him, and whatever happens, you gotta make sure you can take it all on your own.

Chatting with pok on msn now. Besides being sayang's full time gf, I'm a part time ban mian partner -.- Pok wants to eat ban mian with me @ the coffee shop nearby my place & @ far east too. Belle wants me to go allllll the way to the east to eat ban mian =.= K I'm totally going off topic by telling her about baby coming to RP this Sunday. Hahaha.

Darn tired. Update tmrw k? (gna help sayang tidy up his place one last time tmrw noon!)

Fml

You love those bitches so much? Go fuck them and get STD then.

I ♥ Thursday nights

Good afternoon =)

Just had my lunch and I think this product is yummy ttm. KOKA Tom Yum Rice Noodles. & The best part is? It has very lil fat, :D

Anyway, I always love waking up to sayang's voice =) I woke up @ around 12.05pm, and right after I checked the time, he rang me :D Can't wait to meet him later, hohoho. Thursday nights are always lovely, full of hugs & cuddles :D

Tmrw's the 27th already. His family's landing tmrw night.. Hmmm, I wonder will his mum go O____O looking at how messy his kitchen is, heh. Tmrw noon is gonna be the last time I'm happily stepping into his place and making myself comfortable there, until 2months later.

Think on the positive side:

• Sayang's place is gna be so darn clean for 2 whole months
• He doesn't need to iron/wash his clothes on his own for 2 whole months (LOL)
• He can get to eat home-cooked food
• Meowmeow's gna get so much more ♥ and attention!
• Most importantly, he'll be able to spend time & catch up with them.

(K, feeling much better thinking of all the '+')

Hehehe. Gonna nua on my bed as usual, watch a movie or 2 from Funshion, go bath in the evening & head over to sayang's place to wait for him get home! (Gna install his batman game on my lappy, lol)

Yummylicious :D

Wed, 1.05am

Finally home & bathed, soooo tired ._.

Went for training and hmmm.. Ended at 6pm+, so there was more than enough time for me to bath & go meet sayang. Hanged around with the girls @ CWP till 8pm+.. Oh and after hearing what Huiping said, I'm sooooo gonna avoid bbt pearls -.-' Anyway.. On the Mrt with Eunice, we talked about lots of nonsense. Like, how we rot our holidays away (kinda similar!!!). We lay in bed all day long, HAHAHA :X

Sooo.. I reached Somerset around 9pm and waited for sayang nearby his school. We headed to Newton for our dinner/supper. Sinful, but extremely yummy =) Totally worth the time and effort made to travel there.. On the journey back home, sayang and I talked about those annoying days again.. How he used to annoy me TTM -.- Back then it was annoying, but come to think of it.. It's kinda interesting & funny! :B

Gonna sleep early tonight cos I'm darn tired :/ Gna do what I always do for sayang before going to bed, hehehe :D E-mail time! ^^

Extreme laziness

First spot chosen was here, reason being.. THERE'S SHADE :D

Eh, album cover ah?? LOL!

xoxo!

HE'S MAD CUTE *SCREAMS*

Yummmeh :D

Waiting for Haeks to upload the rest of the pictures! ^^

K, I'm supposed to be in school by 3.30pm for training but I'm reaching late..

Anyway, good afternoon! Just had my lunch, pathetic -.- Tom Yum maggie mee + egg. Oh well, I'm too lazy to go out and get food :/ Hmm, think I'll be meeting sayang for dinner later @ town, after his class ends. Wonder what's wrong yesterday.. We had yucky food for dinner, and to make it worse, we had some misunderstandings + complications after that. I hope all the unpleasant stuff would stop ahhhhhhhh, =(

Time to shower! Pack my stuff & off I go~ Byeeeee!

"I will re-read our conversation(s) a million times because it makes me smile"

(yes, those nonsensical ones, hehehe)

=')

If you guys noticed, the previous published post is gone. Kept it as a draft, don't think it's a good idea to publish. Thanks darling, for everything said. I definitely wna throw our past away & only cherish the present, look forward to the future =)

It's 2.50am now.. Time for bed! Good night!

:(

I feel like such a bad girl now, :(

I'm sorry darling! Didn't know you were extremely concerned about that issue, so hmm.. My bad, my bad.

How can I make it up to you for this, :/ I hope she doesn't tell them anything okay! *sigh*

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Waiting for moma to get home cos I need to take $ from her for my Ez Link.. Only then I can go out. Hmm, gonna be late I guess.

(K fine my mood is rly kinda bad now, totally distracted by that issue)

I hope kums & haeks will brighten up my day! (They never fail to do so!)

Anyway Kums was having fever, but seems that he's fine alr cos he just text me saying he'll be joining us! ^^ And then, this taogay, unable to make it due to his younger brother (damn it).

K, I'm gna stop thinking about all the "what if-s" that might happen. Get my ass off the bed and go shower. Have fun today Jiahui! Spam pictures = (L)

昨天，我问候了他。感到好奇，他现在过得好不好。想问他家人是否过得好，但没问。太敏感了！他还是跟以往没两样。。当初，选择放弃那段爱情是对的！不曾后悔，我现在过得比以前快乐多了！！！！ （不敢告诉我的“他”，怕会引起误会。。）

Coffee delivery!

So comfortable to cuddle in bed after a nice shower :)

Monday

Went out @ 5pm and headed to meet Jun @ Jp as she needed to help her bro get lots of stuff from Fairprice.. Following on we went up to her place and I stayed there till 7pm, left & took Mrt to Somerset cos I wna get sayang some food & his most important coffee. He looked really worn-out and hmm.. Sensed something wrong in his expression. Sayang, ignore that fella okay?

Anyway.. Hanged around Kaplan area and thank goodness pok was chatting with me on the phone to keep me company :D Had an awesome time laughing with her, hehehe ^^

And thank you sayang, for sending me back even though you were dead tired =) !

K I'm lazy to blog already, bye! Looking forward to tmrw's outing @ Barrage! :D

Glutton seal

Good afternoon :)

Woke up to sayang's phonecall (mad sweetness :p) as it was his lunch break.. Hmmm anyway I slept only @ 4am+ , was physically tired but I just couldn't get myself into the "sleep-mode". So I finished watching 2 movies on Funshion, & finally went to bed.

So I mentioned about his phonecall..

And the glutton seal was like..
"Since the house is clean already.. My mum won't need to do much.. So I'll get her to cook nasi goreng once she gets home."

So I was umm yeh pretty shocked,
"Huh? You also need to get the ingredients right.."

& He went on..
"I'll prepare the ingredients in advance so she can cook straight away!"

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA! Darling, your family's flight is @ night, and after such a looooong flight you expect to taste her cooking immediately! (I wna try her pineapple tarts ^^)

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Sidetrack. Talking about jobs, hopefully I won't be such a bum and laze the whole holidays away. Checked my E-mail after Belle informed me about the Nokia job. The pay seems reasonable, but I'm not exactly sure if I should try applying for it.. I think many people may have already applied for it :/

Name of Company: Axis Plus Pte Ltd (Nokia Care Centres)

Axis Plus Pte Ltd have part time vacancies available as Customer Service Officers at their

Nokia Care Centres and they are interested to open these positions to all students studying in Republic Polytechnic.

Job Description(s):

Provide excellent service to all walk in customers, including registering job and close transaction.

LOL! "Close transaction" reminds me of those days back @ SMV. Heh.. Will ring sayang during his break time and ask him if he thinks this is worth applying for, 8-D (Working hours quite fierce leh)

K I just finished my lunch and I'm gna wash my plate, and get back to Funshion :D Bye ^^Y

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Sayang called to tell me he passed his papers! Omg, mad happy for him. He's sooooo darn excited lah! ^^ It's a good start, keep working hard okay? Love you, =)

Cleaning round 2

Sunday, 12.45am

Back home from cleaning sayang's place :D This time round, we cleaned it together. & I have to say, it is much more productive! Now his parents' room and sister's room are sooooooo much more cleaner than before. All that mess = gone! Washed the toilet again, (Oh-so-Maria) heh! I don't even help out with the housework @ home, hmmmm :/ ... Well, I just hope sayang's family would be comfortable when they are back.. No need for his moma to tidy up before turning in.. =)

Had a quick shower after all that cleaning & left @ 11.30pm.. A long, proper shower when I got home :D *sense of satisfaction* Hopefully we'll get almost everything cleaned up, so there's minimum work left for his moma to do :D I'm soooooooooo looking forward to tasting his moma's Nasi Lemak, *yum yum*

On a side note, at least I don't feel like I'm wasting my holidays away by rotting @ home doing nothing :)

Gonna have ban mian with Apyh tomorrow @ the coffee shop nearby my place. Following on, might be heading over to Jun's place, it depends..

I think that's all for today! =) I'll have a good, long rest tonight to recharge my body. Goodnight! ^^

Swiss gathering

Hey guys! :)

Was feeling unwell last night, hence did not update..

So yesterday was all about soccer & the gathering. Met sayang @ Pioneer and we headed to Marsiling Sec together for his game. Don't give up okay? You guys can always do better, even better, extremely extremely extremeeeeeely better!!!! :P A short while before the game ended, he quickly went to clean up & get changed so we could leave & go for the dinner.. =)

The buffet dinner was somewhere around Jln Pinang & Victoria St. Zac's cafe. K, the food = cui TTM. Zac's cafe = Pricey & not yummy, (N)(N)(N) ! Hmmm sayang's school mates are all very friendly & nice =) & It's kinda weird to see pig's colleagues. LOL! Anyway.. Need to get my baju someday(Jun, stop laughing -.-)

Left after the meal as sayang had to return Bobo to Craig. I'll miss Bobo, this furry, adorable, quiet, good meow =)

Thanks for sending me home sayang :D (The taxi uncle's kinda weird, lol!!!!)

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Gonna continue the spring cleaning @ sayang's place later in the evening, when he's back from Muay Thai training.. Today's target: To clean up his sis & parents' room! They're arriving this Friday, and I wonder when is baby arriving?????? (SCREAMS IN EXCITEMENT)

Gna continue watching movies on Funshion for now, byeeeeeee ^^

Tired ttm :(

I'm darn tired from all the cleaning and my muscles are aching even more now. Glad that sayang's house condition improved already! We're gna focus on cleaning the rooms this Sunday =)

I'm gna sleep early today!!!! Feeling nervous for tmrw's dinner, kinda weird.. Well.. Relax Jh!!!! -.-!

Give a proper update tmrw ya? Good night! ^^

It's raining! :)

Good morning! =)

Woke up @ 8am+ as I gotta meet Pinky later on. Ahhhhh!!!!!!! The weather is PERFECT, TOTALLY PERFECT FOR SLEEPING NOW Y'KNOW!!!! Oh well.. I'm gonna go get my bath in a while.

Sms-ed seal (:P) for a while & I'm surprised how his Dad can link from a word "fren" all the way to a "photo", hahahahahahaha!

Okay I gotta go pack my stuff now! Going over to sayang's place and help with the cleaning! At least I'm doing something productive today, -__________- (Omg it's gna be rly tiring, hahahaha!!!)

Bye! ^^

Spring cleaning

Had dinner with sayang @ Jp :) Went to get his cleaning equipment after that and headed back to his place. Bobo's extremely adorable, awwww! *melt*

Anyway.. Will be going over to his place and help with the cleaning after I'm done meeting Pinky. He has no more time to waste, better get the house cleaned up ASAP -____-" Left his place @ 10.30pm (he fell asleep). Are you reading this post sayang? Hello Mr. Seal, HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! :P

I'm gonna turn in once my hair dries cos I gotta get up real early tomorrow! Good night people :)

All about you

It's a nice day to rot @ home.. =)

Didn't go ECP with Jun due to the wet weather. Slept till noon and woke up to sayang's phonecall.. Washed up after that and had my lunch, watched "She's out of my league" halfway through and Jun called. Chat with her all the way till sayang's 2nd phonecall;during his break. We were planning to catch The Expendables.. But seems that it's M18 -____-" Well never mind, will meet him for dinner anyway. =)

Oh and I'm webcam-ing with Jun now, hehehe. And I webcammed with sayang last night cos I didn't meet him yesterday! *Smiles widely* I'm gonna continue watching "She's out of my league" later on. Hmm.. Glad that sayang's gonna go over to his Grandma's place to have dinner together with her tomorrow! And I'm excited too cos I'm gonna see Pinky & Marcus tmrw! :D

Currently I'm still waiting for everyone to get back to me regarding the class event, hmmm.. Anyway.. I'm gna continue rotting for now, heehee :D Bye guys!

Training!

Hello people I'm back! :D

After I got home I didn't take a nap as I was on MSN chatting with Haeks regarding some personal life issues, & also the mini outing next week. Hmm, kinda tired now. Anyway...

Training was not so much of PT today, focused more on the transition between attack and defence. Overall I'm glad my passing is improving, and I think I can jump higher + tuck my leg in more when sky-ing. Waited for the girls to finish bathing and we headed to CWP for dinner together with coach. Discussed some proposal over dinner.. I had fun with the girls today! ^^

So ummm took train together with Christine and gossiped a lil on the way, heh.

Anyway I'm done planning with the mini outing on next Tuesday, and now I'm in the midst of planning the class outing! Sayang rang me already, gna chat with him now, I'll update soon! Bye!

Maggie Ramen + Bacon & Egg

I'm @ Hua's place having lunch now :)

Supposed to meet Pinky, but due to unforeseen circumstances, it's postponed to Friday instead. Since I'm all ready to go out.. Might as well find someone to have lunch with me, hee. Rang up Yc & asked her to mum mum with me, but she told me that she cooked bacon & egg already. Sooo.. I came over for lunch! :D

Might be singing k tomorrow, depends on if anyone wants to go.. Anyway, the weather's really nice now :) Gna go home and have a short nap before going for training I guess.

Hmmm, as usual chatted with sayang during his lunch time. I'm relieved that he didn't rent out his room to G. Honestly, I didn't even trust that fella in the first place :/ Somehow I just felt that he's weird. Glad that things are over now! Thanks to him, now everyone's phone has to be kept in the locker and sayang can't sms me :(

Sidetrack for a while. I'm considering to do voluntary work with Yc.. Will find out if I'm free on those days.

Ok, I'm gna pack my stuff and leave in a while cos Yc's going for her YOG duty already. Bye!

Koi :)

Chocolate milk tea, :D

Helloooo :)

17th Aug,

I spent the day rotting at home till evening then I went to bath. Met sayang @ Bugis around 7pm and went for dinner! Saw this kitten lying flat in the pathway while walking.. Well, I thought it was dead/injured. Turned out to be that he was just lazying around there, awwww~ Gave me a bad scared halfway through talking to Hua on the phone :/

Went to buy Koi bubble tea after dinner. This silly boy has been craving for it since Monday, because I mms-ed him a picture of it (I drank it w pok & chow on Monday). Finally got it and he's like a happy kid :D

Oh, sidetrack for a while. Saw this fb page and I find it rather true. "A real man doesn't love a million girls. He loves one girl in a million ways. ♥"

So anyway, we had takoyaki as he got tempted by looking @ the shop, hahaha! Took Mrt back to Boon Lay after that =) Was a pleasant surprise to bump into GJ babyboy @ Jp! From a distance, I thought that guy looks kinda like GJ. On second thought, hmmm, it can't be and his hair looks different too. Eh, it turned out to be him and he had a nice, decent hair-cut! More handsome already ah~

Went up to sayang's place and left at 11pm+ It's his first time seeing Meow meow getting close to me and going round and round around my legs, hahaha =) I'm glad she's friendly towards me already! I love her, she's always such a clever & good girl ♥ !

Alright, I need to get some sleep now. Waking up @ 4am to get sayang up for breakfast, and have to meet Pinky @ 1pm to go SIM and meet Marcus Kuku Seow. Have got training @ 5-8pm after that. Good night, bye! ^^

"I love the way your smell lingers on my shirt ♥"

Peektures.

Bye JJ!

Day out with Pok & Chow was awesome :D More pics lazy to upload..

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Chatting with __ made me realize how bad my old r/s was. Fuckinggggggg horrible. Like, total madness -.-" Oh whatever, it's all in the past. Can't believe it, argh.

It's okay. I found sayang & he's wonderful =) Ya lah we do quarrel/have misunderstandings at times, but I'm glad things would always turn out alright..

Hmmmm anyway.. I slept late last night, woke up @ 4am to wake sayang up but he was sleeping like a dead log -.-" Well it's alright, I went back to sleep anyway :B Was woken up by his call around 12pm in the noon. Chatted for a while and he got back to work. Couldn't get back to sleep so I decided to use the com.. Think I'll find something to do to keep myself busy.

Feel like meeting sayang for dinner if he doesn't have OT, :D Will see how it goes later on! Hohoho, gonna continue watching Back up plan now! Watched it halfway through yesterday. Ohhhh and I was thinking of going over to sayang's place to help him tidy up a bit.. But he haven't bought the mop yet =.=" I miss hearing daughter meow @ me, aww. Gna go over and see her one of these days!

Bye :)

Fuck it.

I know you mean well.

It doesn't mean that I mean bad right?

Status acknowledgement, which woman doesn't want it?

I can't force you into doing something that's against your will. We'll just stick to how it's like now then.

Not gonna argue anymore with you. I always end up being the bad guy, even if I started with a good intention. Hah, getting used to it.

Thank goodness I have Apyh & H with me when I'm facing all this crap. I'm glad you guys understand my intention. I hate it when facts are being twisted the other way round. What else can I do? Looks like it's gna be a wet-pillow night for me today, :'(

Peace.

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Now to think back, like what apyh said. I was harsher when it comes to shooting remarks @ people in the past. I've became a lot more gentle.

Wow.

BABY HJ!

OH MY GOD I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS. BABY'S COMING TO SINGAPORE, END OF AUGUST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS TOTAL, COMPLETE, EXTREME MADNESS. I SCREAMED FOR ALMOST AN HOUR, LOL!!!!!!

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Supposed to accompany Felt to Vivo & get her slippers, but she was still feeling unwell hence it was cancelled last minute.. So I thought, since I'm alrdy changed, why not I go and meet pok & chow :D Soooo I rang up pok & headed to Bugis to meet them for Koi, then we headed to town. Told them to accompany me stay till around 8pm cos I wna buy food for sayang ^_^ Glad it was yummy for him, :) Went straight back to Mrt station and went home..

Something embarrassing happened to me in the Mrt and it made both of them laugh like mad. PAISEH ONLYYYY :X It's been quite a while since I last saw Chow. She's still the old her, hehehe :D Love pok & chow TTM. APYH I KNOW YOU READ MY BLOG, BETTER TAG HOR!!!!! My tagboard no life =( Sayang tag me too alright? ^^

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I. NEED. TO. SCREAM. AGAIN.

OH MY GOD, BABY HJ IS COMING TO SG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAKNAE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHH!!!!!!!! I wna see him in person, OMGGGGGGG !!!!!!!

TELL ME I'M NOT DREAMING. OH MY GOODNESS *gna cry soon

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K I've got no mood to continue blogging, feeling extremely excited now. Gna find a way to get $$$ and attend his fm! :(

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11.26pm

I'm sad now, :'(

Was so excited after hearing pok tell me about the privacy settings. Went to try it out, and it works! But aiyah, nvm..

Paya lebar, Changi Airport

Helloooooo :D

Was too tired to update yesterday, got home quite late hmmm..

Anyway! Went to Paya Lebar with sayang on Saturday. We ate ALOT. And I really mean, A LOT. Hahahahahahaha! Soooo much finger food after a super filling dinner. I LOVE RENDANG TTM! It's been so long since I last had it, :D We walked around the Bazaars and it was an eye opener for me. Hmmm, I've never been to that area before.. And yay, sayang found his clothes!

Well.. It was kinda interesting for me.. First, we passed by this car roadshow and the saLesman actually asked me if I wna get a car ._." Next, when I was waiting for sayang to try his clothes, the lady actually asked me if I bought my baju already. So I just played along and said, "Haha, haven't.." -______- HAHAHAHA!

Sunday, which is yesterday..

Woke up in the noon.. Washed up, had lunch, and bathed.. Left house around 5pm and headed to City hall to meet sayang =) Took train to Changi Airport.. Had our dinner @ Popeyes :D Yummm yummm! Fattening food 2 days in a row.. :/ Anyway.. Roamed around while waiting for his colleague to reach. Sent him off around 10pm+ then we left :) Reached home at 12+ and I quickly bathed so I could rest..

Thanks sayang for the wonderful weekend, I enjoyed myself :D ! Can't wait to have our next trip to Paya Lebar planned, hehehe..

Holidays have begun! I'm gna wake up @ 4am to make sure that sayang wakes up to have his breakfast, then I'll go back to sleep and wake up only around 8am.. Heading to Felt's place and pass her mum the ice box.. I'll come home and continue sleeping after that, :B

Good night, :)

PCK

Hanged around in the library playing Truth or Dare with W34D people. Though it was a short period of time, I had great fun and felt really upset when I had to leave. . Stayed later than I'm supposed to..

Took train to Somerset & met sayang @ Cine. Yes I was late, I'm sorry :( As mentioned in the previous post, went to catch PCK movie. Quite funny, it's like a typical Singapore comedy.. At least I had a good time laughing real loudly :P Went Suki Sushi for dinner with sayang after the show.. We both still think that Sakae is much better.

Thanks sayang for this wonderful evening ! ^^ We shall do some cleaning to your house this weekend ya? :D

I'm superrrrrrrr tired, gonna turn in now. Good night!

(Dear alarm, pls ring loudly @ 4am, tyvm)

Goodbye, W34D..

More pics on fb..

6 months, were really memorable :')

有聚有散。

I wish everyone in W34D all the best! I hope all of us can find an amazing class again, :')

I feel as sad as when I was leaving SMV :(

Hopefully we will successfully hold a class outing/bbq!

Life would become...

No more hijacking of kums fb

No more funny laughter from bob

No more *mouth open* pics from meepok aunty

No more DOOOOTAAA from sun

No more forgetting of ah cai during break time

No more fb gaming tgt with vian & meepok

No more talk-cocks with haeks & taogay

No more of many more things.. I hope we would all stay in contact though, :') !

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Unable to join them for dinner @ CWP Mac @ 7pm as sayang already booked movie tickets for PCK, 7.10pm @ Cine. Feel kinda upset I can't join them.. But well, it's true to say that it's not as though we're gonna leave RP already. There would definitely be times we meet again!

Gonna stay in class till 5pm+, then head to Somerset & meet sayang there! I hope the movie would make me laugh like mad, hehehe ^^Y

Food for sayang! :D

Back to continue updating :D !

Hmmm.. I fell asleep during the 4th presentation (3pm) all the way till 3.30pm -.-" When I opened my eyes, saw faci walking out of the class. AHHHHH.. I tried my utmost best to push my eyelids up!!! But the gravity seems to be kinda strong at that point of time.. Heehee :P

Well, packed up and left with Belle. Took 903 as usual.. As usual, had a chat with sayang during his break. Asked him random qn about food (hehehe).. After reaching Jp, I went to get food and drinks for sayang.. And bought Meow meow food too, ^^. Went back to sayang's place and left the stuff there, fed meow meow then I left for Jun's house. Met him around 7pm+ @ his place for dinner! Yum yum yum yum. Hanged around there till 10pm & left :D

Soooo I just reached home about an hour ago, bathed and I'm drying my hair now. Gonna sleep by 12am, and wake him up early in the morning for sahur. Hahahaha =)

Tomorrow's the final day of sem 1. Best part about it = 2 months holidays are up next! And the worst part is... The last day W34D will learn together as a class :'(

I LOVE W34D! Awesome describes it all!

Thank you John and Haeks for the pictures! More on fb, :)

Glad that sayang is not feeling that sick anymore! ^^Y Heehee. Anyway.. Just had lunch. Seafood hotplate, yum yum! O yeh.. This morning.. Took cab with Belle only, Vian didn't come school. The uncle went the wrong way -.-" One big round to realize that he can't make a left turn, zzz. So we were slightly late, but faci was nice to mark us as present! ^^

Hmmm, I decided to go get sayang some food like.. Bread and cup noodles, so that he has something to eat tomorrow morning :D I set my alarm @ 4am but I failed to wake him up anyway, :/ Shall try my best to wake him up tomorrow! Don't wna see him go hungry throughout the whole day, hmmm..

If I'm too tired, I think I won't meet him in the evening.. Will decide later on, :)

Our team will be doing a short skit later during presentation! *Excited* Taogay's the main character, and we're kinda like extras. HAHAHAHAHA!

Update later, ^^

JYOG

Heeheehee.. Home sweet home :)

The Olympic Fiesta was kinda boring and time-wasting :/ However, I still enjoyed myself with the great company! :D Managed to take pictures with the Mascots! Thanks to Haeks and John ^^ Gonna get the pics from them asap, hehehe.. Went to the roadside and cheered when the torch was arriving.. Ran a short distance following behind them..

Anyway! Left around 8pm+ and headed to Somerset :) Hanged around and waited for sayang's class to end, and we had dinner together. Sayang's falling sick, :( He looked really tired and sort of pale on our way back. I hope he gets more than sufficient rest, drink more water(the weather's such a bitch), and remember to take medicine regularly to recover fast! It hurts to see him sick, hmmmph D:

It feels really good to rest on his shoulder, in his warm warm warmmmm hug. Hehehe. I was really tired lah.. (Sleep-eating btw -.-)

Sooo.. Original plan was to meet him tomorrow, but now that he's sick, I'd rather he get home early to rest!

I'm drying my hair now :) Gonna turn in immediately once it is completely dried! Darn tired , :( I think I'll end up sleeping in class during lunch time again tomorrow. Hmmmm.. shall upload JYOG pics in the next post! ^^

Good night!

"I want your arms around my waist, so they know I'm yours."

=)

I want my bed

Sayang, I thought you'd like this pic.. Hahahaha :D

Hellooooooooo people :D

It's one lazy Wednesday afternoon.. JYOG later on, feeling tired.. Aiyah, had a 40 minutes nap during the break :D Woken up by sayang's sms, and he called me next.. Had a great time chatting with him ^^ He woke up late, didn't have his sahur. Hope he'd wake up on time for the next whole month! ^^ It's kinda dark outside.. Looks like it's gonna rain soon, hmmm.. And faci's back already, will continue updating tonight yeah :)

Batam, Marina Barrage!

More pics on fb ^^

Hey guys! :D I'm back..

Spent my weekend in Batam! Nothing much there, felt much more relaxed though :D Finally took Go-Kart! Mf and I have been wanting to take it since the Desaru trip.. Anyway, I just had great fun lah ^^

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Yesterday, woke up early in the morning to go Giant and get the ingredients to prepare ham cheese sandwich! Met Hua in the noon and we headed to Jp to meet the rest.. Took train, went Tjg Pagar and met Sayang there. Took cab to Barrage! We stayed at the ground floor to eat first.. When the sun began setting, then we moved everything up ^^ Got a great spot, and stayed there all the way :)

Great fighter jet planes! Superb fireworks, everything was just perfect :D Oh and kite flying was a success too! Felt really really happy, words can't express :D Walked for about an hour back from Barrage to Mrt station -.-" Called cab, but no cab was available. Wna take shuttle bus, but the traffic jam was damnnnnn jialat D: Anyway! Reached home before 12am, was feeling kinda scared cos _______ open already..

Chatting with taogay on Msn now, he's still so hyper like how he was the whole day today. LOL! Showing him Kaykay's pics was a big mistake, caused him to be so hyper throughout the whole day.. LOL! A while lego, a while dough. What other new terms would be appearing huh? HAHAHAHA! JYOG stuff tomorrow.. Captain's ball! ^^Y Can't wait for tomorrow, weeee~

Thanks A, :')

Lovelies who received my text, "When life tells you to give up, why not look at things from a different angle, and improve the situation to your own satisfaction and make yourself happier? =)" I got this inspiration from what A told me.. He said the underlined part.

Well.. Anyway, was a long and nice conversation with A. Heheheh. And I thought the part about the indian girl and colgate was really mean, but funny :p Ok back to the main point. So I think he's right in some things he told me, and I thought it's really nice chatting with him! ^^ Mood's getting much much muuuuch better now! I'll get myself indulged in __________, definitely :p Thanks for spending time to keep me company even though you have an engagement event to attend, :D Ty, I know I'm cute *THICK SKINNED TTM* HAHAHAHA

Batam, here I come tomorrow! And I can't wait to watch fireworks on Monday with my lovelies! Anyway I'm at cousin's place now.. Just done with my school work, and I'm gna talk to the other A on the phone in 10mins time. I gotta sleep early today! Leaving real early tomorrow. I hope this short getaway would make me a happier telur goreng :B

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Let everything happen naturally... Time will reveal everything :-)

Unappreciated

I always try my best to be nice and understanding, always tell myself "Hey it's alright, just another normal outing.." But everything I do becomes unappreciated.

Your handphone battery was flat, fine, I told you I'll wait for you to get home then we'll chat. I waited and waited, THINKING that you're gna reach home soon. @ 12am+ , all you could do was to ring me and say "Hey, we're only leaving around 1am+ , go sleep first k?"

So anyway why did I chose to stay up and wait? You're going ubin, and I'm going batam, it's gna be a long weekend that we won't meet. I thought it'd be nice to just have a nice chat on Thursday night, meet you the next day morning, and I'll see you only next week then. Whatever lah, it just goes to show that it was my wishful thinking again.

_l_

Can't you just ring me earlier? AND FYI, YTD WAS YOUR OT-LESS DAY. I did my part by keeping mum and not make any noise. Pissed off, went to bed. Woke up, went out, you rang me at 7.25am, claiming you'll meet me @ Mrt platform. I WAITED FOR FUCKING LONG, TILL ALMOST 8AM, AND YOU WERE NO WHERE TO BE FOUND. HP NO BATT, DIDN'T BOTHER TO CHARGE.

I'M NOT YOUR TOY YOU KNOW THAT?

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Holidays are coming = Partying time.

I'll make you regret for treating me like that.

And stop claiming that I am your priority. IT'S BULLSHIT TO ME OK? NOTHING BUT CRAP. Cos your actions show me a different thing. I think I'll die of sadness/anger sooner or later.

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I hope I'll have a great time with my Dell lovelies on Monday and forget about all these fucked up things in life.

Cold day

Heyy :)

Training was kinda tough yesterday, and I was really not focused :( Well anyway, met sayang @ Commonwealth after training ended.. Thanks sayang for waiting for me :D Went to pick Bobo up and headed back to his place. Settled Bobo down, then he sent me home =) Thanks sayang! (I placed 1 of our photos in a photo frame and put it next to his home telephone :P)

Reached home around 11.30pm, sososososososooooo tired :( Bathed, had a quick dinner, packed my bag.. After texting sayang, we both turned in :)

Soooo as usual, met him to take train together.. Was really tired, but still, enjoyed his company :D Reached school around 5minutes late :/ .. Rotted during 1st meeting, and during the 1st break, I slept throughout the 45mins soundly. I was really tireddddd ._.

Feel like I didn't do much at all today, totally daydreaming.. anyway I brought son to school, and Kums keeps playing with him. HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA. Son's really adorable lah, :D !

Thought of going to sing k today, but later on would be keeping Jun company instead I guess.. I'm feeling lethargic due to menses :( Hope I'd feel better soon! ^^

Shall ring sayang in a while, have a short nap, before 3rd meeting begins! :D

It's about making the years count..

Happy 4th monthsary, hehehe!

We're making every moment spent together count, making it meaningful.. :D

Yeap so anyway.. Went IKEA to get my stuff with Hua & Jun yesterday noon. Ate hotdog! Yum yum ^^ Anyway, we left and reached queenstown around close to 7pm.. Rang bestf as I wanted to find out where he was at already.. His Hp battery died, didn't manage to contact him :/

Well, fate is amazing =) We boarded the train which he was on, and it was the SAME CABIN :D ! Was really pleasantly surprised.. Heehee :) Anyway! He spotted Raymond on the train! So we walked over to chat with him all the way.. He really has a bad memory, thought I left SMV for around 1year already, and studying in Uni now -.-" Went fairprice to buy Wheatables while Jun went home to take $.. Thanks Ah Pang for helping me out yesterday!

Went Thai Express to have our advance monthsary dinner, was really yummy ^^ Went to Hagen Dazs for ice cream as dessert after that! Thanks sayang for the treat! (I cannot stand it alrdy. Not gna acknowledge sayang as bestf on my blog anymore ;p) ILOVEYOUSAYANGGGGGGG :D I was really glad that you didn't have OT, and could have dinner with me! So anyway... After dessert, went LJS to meet Hua & Jun. Took bus home together with Hua, went to her place to get contact lens solution as I forgot to buy.. :(

After reaching home, bathed and prepared the stuff I wna pass to sayang today, finally done and slept around midnight :D

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This morning! As usual, met sayang and took train together :) Passed him the gift, I'm glad he liked it! Heeh :) Always feel so nice and warm to be in his arms :)

Will be attending training today! Gonna be a long and tiring day, shall sleep as early as possible tonight.. :D

Finally an update!

Didn't update for 2 days.. Well, reason being I'm unable to access to internet at home. Sis is unable to as well. Isn't it obvious who did this? Whatever, if that bastard is not going to allow access for both of us again, I will consider getting mobile broadband. And if this time round I come home late, you jolly well shut up. You are the one who don't let us access to it, naturally I'll stay out till late, at somewhere which I can access to the net.

So yesterday was Off Campus Learning, no internet access at home, hence went to bestf's place to do my work. Got to see him for 10-15mins before he went off to work :p Didn't finish all of the work, since no matter what I do, the grade is fixed at 'H' for OCL. Daughter was really nice to me yesterday, meowed and meowed in a friendly manner! ^^ So I packed up and left his place around 12pm.. Walked over to Jp and met Jun for lunch.

Headed home for a quick nap and get ready for training. Overslept, thank goodness bestf called me during his break and I got woken up by the Hp's vibration. Rushed to school, and training was great fun! Ran damn many rounds, and did tuck jumps.

Left school around 9pm, took train to Somerset to meet bestf just to go home together :p On the way there, chat with Apyh on the phone.. Was complaining to her about that jerk and also this china couple sitting opposite me on the train.. WHOA, the PDA is powerrrrrrrrrrr ~~~~ The guy was grabbing the woman's boobs lah, kns -.- "GO GET A ROOM PLEAAASE!"

Alright so anyway.. Like I mentioned, took MRT home with bestf. (fine, we're a lil more than just bestf ;p) Talked about how our day went, and showed him my injuries. LOL! Everytime I go training, I go home with one new injury. Bruises all over my wrist this time round, :/ ..

Going to IKEA with Hua later, and might be meeting him for dinner later. hehehe ^^Y Depends, if he has OT, then we'll have dinner on another day. He's gna have his Ubin trip from Friday till Sat, while I'm having my Batam trip from Sat morning to Sunday.

Well anyway, I have been sleeping really well in sis's room, and recently it's bestf who's the one giving me a morning call, instead of me calling him up :/

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"Let's toss a coin, =)"

"Head, you're mine.."

"Tail, I'm yours.."

=P

Random

I ♥/miss/want/need best.f =)

Lazy Sunday

Once you choose hope, anything's possible.
-Christopher Reeve

When the world says, "Give up,"
Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."
-Author Unknown

The miserable have no other medicine, But only hope.
-William Shakespeare, Measure for Measure

Hope is the physician of each misery.
-Irish Proverb

When I feel lost, all these quotes motivate me to work harder =)

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Had a terrible night -___-
Slept at sis's room floor, then to living room couch, then to sis's bed when she went out.
Will be officially moving to sis's room and sleep ASAP.

Anyway.. Today bestf and I text each other at the same time, lol! I thought he replied me instantly, but actually he just happened to text me too. =) He's at Muaythai training now, will text him later! Webcam tonight after he's done studying, hehehe :p

Might be going Jp later with hua (?) Depends, hmmmm. Will see if I'm not lazy already.. Anyway.. On a mission to fold 1,000 cranes with my lovelies..

My everything - 98 degrees
This song is like, our song :')




Feeling really thankful for A's concern throughout this incident, I will only remain as friends with him. He should be looking for someone better, since he's so educated.. Aiyah not just that lah. It's just, I don't feel anything for him. Zzzzzz. Though I have to say, he's a great friend :)

Broken apart

Things will NEVER, EVER be the same. YOU DON'T DESERVE RESPECT AS A BROTHER.

I fear ---- I chose to come back at a timing which you will be asleep.

You stayed up ---- To scream and yell unreasonably at me, claiming you are TALKING NICELY.

When Zl protected me from your hurtful insults ---- You claim that she is HARMING me.

I know right now I have no right to take complete charge of my own life. Years to come, and I will be free from you. I long to BID GOODBYE to you. Having you as a BROTHER, means NOTHING to me. I can lead life with just one sister. We all hate you. BOTH YOUR SISTERS HATE YOU, YES, WE USE HATE TO DESCRIBE HOW WE FEEL TOWARDS YOU.

I can't imagine what could have happened tonight, if Dad chose to stay over at M'sia today. He was here to stop any tragedy from happening. We all know, the ties between him and aunts are already bad. He doesn't want to see his own children going through the same thing again.

As the saying goes,

能做兄弟姐妹,有今生没来世。

Dad doesn't want to see history repeating itself, and it's on his own children. Sad to say, if he fucking forces me so much, I will definitely develop the most extreme thoughts.

I PITY ADELINE, WHO MOST PROBABLY WOULD BECOME YOUR WIFE.

I PITY YOUR CHILDREN, TO HAVE A FATHER LIKE YOU.

I PITY YOURSELF, FOR GOING THROUGH SO MUCH EDUCATION (UNI-GRAD), AND STILL BEING UNABLE TO HANDLE SUCH THINGS IN A PROPER MANNER.

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On a side note to myself..

“It doesn’t matter how slowly you go-so long as you do not stop.”-Confucius

I need bestie soooooo darn badly, but he's gonna get busy tmrw morning, hence turned in early. . I need his listening ear :(

Thanks Hua for going through all these crap with me..!