Sunday, August 1, 2010

Broken apart

Things will NEVER, EVER be the same. YOU DON'T DESERVE RESPECT AS A BROTHER.

I fear ---- I chose to come back at a timing which you will be asleep.
You stayed up ---- To scream and yell unreasonably at me, claiming you are TALKING NICELY.
When Zl protected me from your hurtful insults ---- You claim that she is HARMING me.

I know right now I have no right to take complete charge of my own life. Years to come, and I will be free from you. I long to BID GOODBYE to you. Having you as a BROTHER, means NOTHING to me. I can lead life with just one sister. We all hate you. BOTH YOUR SISTERS HATE YOU, YES, WE USE HATE TO DESCRIBE HOW WE FEEL TOWARDS YOU.

I can't imagine what could have happened tonight, if Dad chose to stay over at M'sia today. He was here to stop any tragedy from happening. We all know, the ties between him and aunts are already bad. He doesn't want to see his own children going through the same thing again.

As the saying goes,
能做兄弟姐妹,有今生没来世。

Dad doesn't want to see history repeating itself, and it's on his own children. Sad to say, if he fucking forces me so much, I will definitely develop the most extreme thoughts.

I PITY ADELINE, WHO MOST PROBABLY WOULD BECOME YOUR WIFE.
I PITY YOUR CHILDREN, TO HAVE A FATHER LIKE YOU.
I PITY YOURSELF, FOR GOING THROUGH SO MUCH EDUCATION (UNI-GRAD), AND STILL BEING UNABLE TO HANDLE SUCH THINGS IN A PROPER MANNER.

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On a side note to myself..

“It doesn’t matter how slowly you go-so long as you do not stop.”-Confucius

I need bestie soooooo darn badly, but he's gonna get busy tmrw morning, hence turned in early. . I need his listening ear :(

Thanks Hua for going through all these crap with me..!

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