Jogging

I'm thankful to be surrounded by friends who are caring.. Had a short conversation with taogay on MSN and it made me miss W34D so badly, :( We're forever on that *eh hem* topic, hahaha..

Went down to the park for a jog with ah pang earlier on.. As usual, felt much better after sweating it all out. Reminds me of those days which I used to go jogging when I'm stressed over preparation for Os.. Had a good chat with her about life and stuff after the jog.. Love her ttm, she's always there when I need a listening ear =')

I can't wait to play with her iPod touch next week, hehehe. Full of games that I love, :B Totally giving dinner a miss today, no appetite so I'm only munching on a few slices of pear now.. Tmrw's evening gonna be pretty sinful :/ Gonna pamper myself with some yummy yummy food..

Anyway.. That's about it for today. Work was fine, it's pay day, =) Bye!

I'm tired; of this lifestyle

I think I need a new lifestyle. . . Hmmm.

To be exact, I am actually feeling kinda sick of waiting for him to ring me at night; after he's done with his own stuff. This routine.. Makes me feel like a pet waiting for its owner to come home and feed her. Indeed, I do not feel special anymore. Yes I do wanna be sweet and loving again, but somehow after this quarrel I had with him, I feel like I've drifted away from him. The closeness is no longer there.

Let's see. After Saturday, I won't be meeting him at all till the 9th. He gets busier and busier with life, there's nothing I can do about it. Let's hope that there's some alcohol party on this Sunday night @ Pasir Ris so I can escape from reality for just one night. At most I'll take 1/2 day UL for Monday..

Argh I can't help it but repeat this again. I AM SOOOOO SICK AND TIRED OF BEING PLACED AT THE LAST POSITION, WHEREBY HE ONLY GETS BACK TO ME WHEN HE'S DONE WITH HIS BUSY BUSY BUSY DAY.

I don't wanna let go so easily but I'm beginning to feel exhausted, from all the quarrels over similar issues over and over again.. Vitamin L? Don't even mention, I feel nothing at all. -.- Yes I'll still randomly think of him at times, but perhaps it's due to what has happened between us that makes me feel like keeping a distance from him.

Why am I feeling this way? Sigh :'(

We're different, but that doesn't mean we can't be together. But the difference is that...

He has no time left at all, while I have plenty of time.. Obviously I don't waste all my time, though I have to admit I spend some days doing nothing but rotting :/ I guess after the number of times that we get to meet each other would decrease rapidly.

Feeling pessimistic today, well well well.. when it's time to let go, I naturally will be able to..

:(

Zp's comment: hehe!!! so cute little girl!!!

HAHAHAHA THANK YOU I KNOW I CUTE *thick skinned*

Quarreled early in the morning. Fuck, don't wanna talk about it anymore. Makes my blood boil.

No sales today, but I was pretty hardworking to have made 300+ calls *angelic face* Didn't join Pinky & co. for lunch, went to the market with Ahmina & co. instead.. Take away chicken rice back to office & eat. Today was a nice day, and towards the end of the day I was listening to Ahmina talk about some stories.. & I'm feeling kinda lucky to have dreamt about ________, but it would have been better if I didn't say it out. Well.. Never mind.

Headed home straight after work. Gonna have a light dinner after this, take a bath, and sleep. I wonder whether it's worth staying up tonight, -.- Oh & anyway.. Time flies.. I'm leaving SMV again soon.. Damn it. I'm gonna miss these lovelies like how hipopo said she'll miss me *shy*

Bye :)

It's a sleepy day for all..

Sayang & I decided to get up earlier coz he has been late for a couple of times.. Nice of him to give me a morning call, but still I slept till 7am -_-Yeah but anyway we were on time :D !

The leads were pretty horrible today, more horrible than usual. Dear Echo gave me luck the moment she "passed me 1 sales". HAHAHAHAHAHA! Lunch was not yummy at all, :( I thought the briyani chicken didn't really taste good.. Bought fruits and had a short conversation over the phone with sayang with going back to office..

Oh and btw, I'm not sure if I had mentioned before about how much Kuku stinks. (Kuku is some1 at my workplace)

It's supposed to be a kind of perfume smell I suppose? Those really crazy strong indian smell ones. (I AM NOT BEING RACIST HERE LOL) But seriously, she stinks. OK fine, to be exact, I think she over worn the perfume. Even tapi noticed the smell and got Wendy to turn on the air purifier today.. K lah, we were bad okay. We decided to put the purifier on the desk next to Kuku. And thank goodness, we couldn't really smell her anymore. Like finally!

Went home straight after work today.. Sayang wanted to study, so I didn't meet him :) Will get to see him tomorrow morning! ^^ It's nice to just hug him and rest on the train while heading to work. Feels so blissful, awww :') So I had a light dinner as usual, gonna have a pear later on after I bath.. Yeap and soooo, that's all for today.. Bye~ ^^

Have been missing those days which sayang used to sit next to me after lunch and try starting a conversation.. Coz it's like.. After lunch, as usual, I'd sit next to hipopo for a while and talk/rest.. But what's missing is just sayang's presence, :/

/edit 10.45pm

I'm tumblr-ing and again, I wanna share a lil here :)

"THE LAW OF LOVE : Love conquers hatred."

PROTECT her,

FIGHT for her,

LOVE her,

HOLD her,

LAUGH with her.

But don't make her FALL,

if you don't plan to CATCH her.

Kueh tarts for breakfast!

Met sayang in the morning, took Mrt together as usual :) He passed me some kueh tarts & another type of cookie, tadaaaa, that's my breakfast for today :D

Feeling sinful cos it's really fattening -__-" Had a healthy lunch, carrot soup + vege rice. Spoke to sayang over the phone during lunch and got to know that he & his colleagues were discussing about marriage proposals.. LOL, he and his hot air balloon/private plane plan.. Interesting, :D

Glad that I had sales today, hate to "eat egg" . Tapi kept coming in as usual, and before we knocked off, Raymond told us the camera's gonna be installed soon! :( Thank goodness I'll be leaving in about 2 weeks' time. Went to get my wholemeal bread and contact lens solution before heading home.. Going on a diet meal plan for a month to see if it works, and if it does, I'll continue following it and of cos I'll start attending trainings once school starts! But this Sat = diet fail -.- Gonna have Nandos with sayang.. *angelic face*

Having my dinner now. 1 pear + 1 slice of wholemeal bread + a small plate of spinach. LOL, seems really pathethic hmmm. My hard work will be paid off!!!!! ._.

"Optimism means expecting the best, but confidence means knowing how to handle the worst."

On the 9th of October, it's Dell outing to Night Safari for some Halloween party funnnnn! ^^ & on the 15th, it would be a horror movie outing.. Wah, I really miss this kinda lifestyle. Dell outings, outings, outings, and even more outings~! I could still remember when sayang first joined us for our picnic outing, hahahahahahahahhaha.. Oh well. . Now he's sort of ummmm, part of Dell team too? :P

This Friday evening would be spent with Pinky, hehehe! Gonna.... Wahahaha :B Hopefully my mission would be accomplished! It's almost 8pm~ Gonna wait for sayang to ring me during his break, go take a shower, then back to my lappy :)

Good old times..

Spent the WHOLE NOON/EVENING (100%) chatting on the phone with sayang, about good old times, and anything we could think of lah.. And of cos, we were really bitchy and talked bad about some people, :B We're both glad to have found each other.. :')

Told him about my long-term plans.. And afterall, plans are merely plain words if no actions are taken. I'm gonna work hard towards my first goal, and who knows what's my future gonna be like? I might, MIGHT really end up migrating with sayang.. I don't even feel attached to my own family, zzz -.- Okay enough of that. Told him about all these till I got all choked up and had to stop for quite a while before I could continue talking.. And I finally told him what's that one thing which I refused to tell him yesterday.. Ahhh, no more emotional nonsense.

Okay, so we had this coming Saturday all planned. Morning/noon I'll be at his place to makan with his mum, sis, & himself. Then we'll be heading out to celebrate our advanced monthsary! ^^ Too bad it falls on a Monday, so we shall spend some time together on the weekend instead.. Bringing this silly boy to have Nandos for dinner, & KOI bubble tea after that! He's been doting on me so much, always bringing me out for good food.. Awwwww~

I wanna go to the ________ and see if there's anything I can get for him. But got time mehhhh!??!?!?! TSK. Anyway I MMS-ed him a stupid picture before heading for a shower, hehehe. His reaction makes me wanna pinch his cheeks (even if they're oily :P).

Okie, that's about it for today. There's work tomorrow, work hard, earn $$, go shopping and be a happy girl. HEHEHEHEHE :P

BBQ & Stay over

25/9/10

BBQ @ Felt's aunt's new place + stay over @ Felt's place :D More pics on Fb~

Happy girl again. Of cozzzz, thanks to all the fun my girls gave me :) My family will never, ever, organize something like this. Oh well.. We met in the late noon and took bus from JE to somewhere near WCP.. Had some food @ Felt's aunt's place and looked around before helping out with the preparation for the BBQ.. To be exact, we started BBQ-ing around 6+ or 7pm.. Took them quite a while to start the fire..

Anyway sayang joined us later on, and he somehow got his directions wrong.. Ahhhh nvm. At least he made it here, LOL. So it was all about food, talk, laughter, pictures.. All of us (sayang too) had our palms read by Felt's Godfather (pretty acurrate leh!!!). Hmmm, like what he told us, don't believe too much in all these coz after all, we have to work hard for whatever we wanna achieve. I'm just pretty surprised that my palm lines actually told about something like.. Haizzzz, which is so darn true.

Only told Wen about this before.. And I'm sure I've changed somehow, but not sufficient.. It's okay, I'm still young. Still got a long way to go! ^^ Get married @ around 28? Hmmmm.. If my groom's gonna be sayang, by then he'll be so old :B But actually, I feel like getting married around 24-26 lah.. I won't just let everything happen according to my palm lines.

Halfway through while he's talking to us (very motivating hor) , he looked @ me and said.. "Is he your bf?" (referring to sayang) So I was like "Yah".. And he whispered back, "这个男的很不错。他有华人的头脑.." Which means "This guy is not bad, and he thinks like a Chinese.." LOL, how true.. Cos sayang's thinking is really not-so-malay. I'm glad to hear that you're NOT BAD lehhhhh, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

After hearing all that he told us, I have to agree with him.. Don't follow life & fate blindly, work hard for everything. Good or bad, you still have to work hard. If your palm lines show that you can make it big, but you don't give yourself an opportunity to work hard for it, then it's pretty pointless and you'll never make it there right? Hmmmm.. Well well well..

Anyway, shared a cab back with sayang & Hua. Dropped him @ Jp and we continued to head home.. Bathed and we went to Felt's place @ about 12.30am? Hua was so dumb last night, she brought me to take a longer path -.- I slept the earliest.. Bo bian ahhhh, headache k! Jun left @ 3am+ coz her parents came to pick her up.. And as for the rest of us, we slept till this morning about 9 - 10am+ .. If Hua don't need to go out today, definitely I'll sleep even longer.. Went to get brunch with Hua before we went home..

Today is a stay-at-home day! Gonna find something relaxing to do, or perhaps take a nap coz it looks like it's gonna rain soon.. Bye ^_^

(Visiting plans with sayang were cancelled due to unforeseen arguments, lol. Gonna see his Mum next week, maybe?)

All messed up

My family's screwed up.

My relationship is screwed up.

I'm owing my sister $ which she keeps pressing me for it, when I already said MONTH END I will return.

Yay, just fuck my life and die lah.

Pull me down at my lowest, I'll remember it for life. I'm gonna get up and prove you all wrong. Don't depend on me for a cent, since you dote your dearest son so fucking much. Go get $ from him eh? Oops I forgot. He graduated with a degree but is STILL jobless.

中秋节快乐

Wish all of you 中秋节快乐! ^^

Went to work as usual! Thanks Pinkybaby for buying breakfast for me, 8-D Wasn't late, hee. I always love train rides in the morning cos........ Unlimited hugs & kisses from sayang :P

Anyway I was still doing the KITA campaign today, and it should most likely be ending tomorrow.. Lunch was great, finally tasted the Jap food after a looooong time.. Had a good laugh when Colin brought up the incident whereby he & Marcus caught sayang & I kissing on the beach, wtf LOL!!!

Anyway it poured heavily towards the evening, so all of us had to share umbrellas.. And I got half-drenched cos Pinky's umbrella is really small -.- Once again, I got reminded of how sayang use to shelter me with his umbrella on a wet day when we're walking to office/Mrt station together.. Those good old days, I miss them real much :)

Took Mrt together with Nutnut, was on the phone with sayang while on 179 going home! Yayyyy, me love talking to him. HAHAHAHAHA *talkative*

Hey darling, it's the first time I see that you're really agitated and upset like that.. Gave you lots of reassurance and I still will be giving you more, that everything's gonna be fine! "Speak when you're angry and you will make the best speech you regret forever." HAHAHA, it always happens to me btw -.-" Gonna stop talking nonsense when I'm agitated, lol! Like you said, remember how you calmed me down for that fucked up rude fat guy incident? Think about those words, and it really makes sense :)

THE MOON SO NICEZZZZ TODAY OH EM GEEEEEE!!! And I just sent CGX a SMS with my wishes.. ^^ Not meeting my girls today coz we already had fun with candles & sparkles some time back, plus Jun's busy celebrating her bro's birthday with her family.. To make it more jialat, the ground's still wet due to the rain earlier on. I feel so.. Deep in love, gazing at the moon from my room's window.. LOL.. All in my mind = CGX, cos he's soooooooo in love with the moon..

Had my dinner earlier on.. Gonna go bath soon! :) Bye~

/edit 10.10pm

Hello I'm back again, lol. Just a quick one.. While bathing I was daydreaming of...... Being surprised by sayang with a bouquet of flowers on my work desk early in the morning. LOL!! Cos I suddenly thought of that guy who used to hardcore woo Pinky.. Hmmm, sayang bought me a sunflower before when my mood was down. Awwww, love my sweet boyf :') K lah enough of crap, myself can't even believe I was imagining such a scenario.. LOL.

I'm tumblr-ing and here's a lil bit to share..

"Every time she laughs, she hopes he is watching. Not so he sees that she is happy, but so that maybe, just maybe, he'll fall for her smile like how she fell for his."

"Laugh, and the world laughs with you. Weep, and you weep alone."

"We're not the same. But that doesn't mean we can't be together."

Dear sayang

Original intention: Dry hair & sleep.

Seems that sayang's always looking forward to my blog entry.. So here's a short one for you darling :)

Dear sayang

Glad to have finally found my baju.. Time spent with you always seems to pass so quickly.. It's great that you've been able to spend quality time with your family this time round, and I know you're pretty upset that your Dad's flying back to Dubai this Thursday.. Don't worry k? You'll get to see him in December again (as much as I wish you would stay by my side for the 2 weeks -.-)

I am STILL, SUPERRRRRRRRRRRR NERVOUS FOR THE COMING SATURDAY ARGH :( I hope everything goes well, and that my menstrual cramps show me some mercy (ya lah IF my menses really is on that day itself) I am so glad to know that you're really concerned about my comfort darling.. Awwww :')

(Apparently I was on the phone with him halfway through and he told me Meow meow escaped out of her cage and she's hiding in a corner in his Mum's room. Aww this cute girl, I think she wants and needs Vitamin L badly. Don't you think so too darling~?)

Just a lil bit more before I turn in.. I hope you'll enjoy the time spent with them tomorrow, and please have a yummylicious dinner! ^^ Actually I thought it'd be nice if I could say "Hi" to both your parents, but it seems that we have time disadvantage in this case, can't believe he's flying off so soon..

Anyway I hope you'll be able to catch Meow meow ASAP, hahahahaha sounds really funny when you told me "she escaped".. Waiting for you to ring me back before I turn in ! ^^

"To the world you are someone, but to me, you are the world :)"

All about work

It's Monday, again :/ Of cos I'm always looking forward to meeting sayang early in the morning, and travel to work together.. But you know, Monday blues lah :/ Was slightly late but it's alright.. The water dispenser was leaking water and the pantry area was kinda flooded, lol. Orchard road flood until our office -__-"

Raymond trained me for a different campaign earlier on, and I'm gonna be doing it till about Thursday I suppose? Some campaign related to KITA.. K so anyway, was supposed to have lunch with sayang today as he came to Tanjong Pagar area for an interview during his lunch break, but it was too rush for him hence we didn't meet.

(Lol I forgot I was blogging. Got distracted & it's ummm 8pm now!?!?!?)

Well well well, today was pretty alright other than feeling sleepy.. Sayang's Hp battery is flat :( Gonna wait till he gets home after class ends then I'll get to talk to him, grrrr. (O.O sayang rang me during his break time with his friend's phone.. Awwww mad sweet :D)

Sayang: "You're getting prettier & prettier everyday" x 3 times. He said this to me thrice yesterday, lolololol. Ehhh darling your biceps are getting bigger and bigger. AHAHHAHA :P Anyway I'm still scared, feeling damn nervous for Saturday -.- Don't know what to expect, hmmm.. Lol and I was asked again the same old question..

And darling this goes out to you, heeh.

" You don't love me because I'm beautiful.. I'm beautiful because of your love :') "

Pictures

Puss In Boots Mug from sayang! :)

Late pictures.. Camwhore, so darn bored :(

Went out in the late noon to meet sayang @ his place, hanged around his place till evening & I went down to Jp to meet Jun for some chatting.. Sayang joined us later on for dinner cos he could only leave his place @ 7pm due to some reasons. Attacked his bottle of kuih tarts, hehehe! ^^ Yummy ttm. & His place became really beautiful after setting up all the Hari Raya decorations.

I'm feeling fxcking nervous to meet his Momma this coming Saturday. Omg, the thought of it just makes me scared again :( I hope I don't get so nervous that I become tongue tied, awww.

Anyway that's about my weekend, nothing really interesting.. On the phone with sayang now, gonna go offline soon & pack my stuff, listen to him sing me a song before turning in!

I.feel.so.loved. =)

Felt's place

Went over to Felt's place at 10pm+ yesterday.. Was a sudden decision after receiving Jun's phone call. Hmmm so I made my way there with Hua.. Felt's room is really comfortable, haha. Had supper & Hua cooked the noodles as usual, hehehe! So we just lazed around in her bed & chat till it was about 2am+ and left.. Accompanied Hua to buy supper for her sister, and we bumped into Zl & Ch so we stopped to chat with them for a while. Zl can never remember sayang's name, LOL.

Gonna have lunch now & meet sayang laterrrrr! ^_^

Sorry for the really short post but my Saturday was mainly spent on doing nothing but rot, lol.

Xnps

Was way too tired to even switch on my lappy last night..

17/9/10

Well well well, so I went to work as usual and the whole journey there was pretty unpleasant cos I had a tiff with sayang and we weren't talking at all. And we continued quarreling during lunch time. Seriously spoilt my mood, zzz. But we were fine later on in the evening, :/

It was Friday yesterday, hence the mood was also like... Alamak, lazy already lah ._.

After work, I headed back to Jp and met sayang @ Kfc for dinner before we proceeded to Xnps and meet my girls. There was an advance lantern festival celebration :) Had fun and I'm really surprised by how much the school has changed since we left. I miss the food there, awww. Really glad to meet Mrs Ong once again, and she seems to remember my card forever. LOL. It was a teachers' day card written to her when I was 9years old, hahahahahhha how cute :P It's great that we all had so much fun & catching up with the teachers.. And it's sayang's first time seeing such an event take place. Hehehe ;)

Accompanied the rest for dinner before we headed back to the park & chat.. Went back home to change out of my jeans before joining them :) We went back to our usual spot, and talked about everything we could think of. Especially the stupid things we used to do when we were back in Primary school. Gosh.. Those days, hahahahhahaha!

And then there was this weird drunk man who came over to us (we were sitting in a circle talking about N & O levels).

Man: "Guys, you all talking about ghost right?"

*Stunned*

Teo: "We are talking about studies.."

Man: "You all want to talk about ghost right? Pls, go to (points somewhere) sit there and talk. You wanna see ghost? I'll let you see it. You all wait, I will be back"

*man walks away*

Uh huh, so we were pretty shocked but it felt a lil eerie though, hmm. Continued with our stuff and later on there were 2 policemen on patrol that passed by, so they stopped to find out what we're doing. So we shared with them about that werido incident that happened a while ago, and one of them was like.. "Ppl drunk you all want to entertain!!!"

LOL, they're really friendly & told us nicely to clean up after we're done playing with the candles. After they walked off for some time, that weird man came back to us again -.-"

Man: "You know Changi??"

*all looks at him with a question mark face, then turned back and ignore him*

Man: "You all look exhausted...."

*walks away*

WTF? LOL. Seriously it felt kinda eerie cos it was a cold drizzling night, and he's here to tell us all these nonsense. We moved to another place to chat after Teo & Cyrus left, and I headed home around 1am cos I was really tired after a looooong day @ work. Fell asleep immediately once I was done drying my hair.. So I woke up like ummm, at 1pm+ ? Received sayang's text and I'm glad to know that he's spending soooo much fun time with his family @ Universal studios now! Heh.

Can't wait to meet him & spend some quality time together tomorrow, hehe.

Might be meeting my girls later on in the evening? Bbq is postponed to the following week according to Felt, but I doubt I can make it cos I would most probably be going jalan raya with sayang & his friends. .

Am I too nervous to meet his family or what? Lol. I actually dreamt that I was having dinner with him and his family, LOL! K that was pretty lame.

Anyway gonna continue surfing the net for a while more then I'll decide what to do in the later part of the day~

Bye :)

Meh meh yang @ work

Brought my son, Sheepy to work today. Stupid hipopo said that he's smelly :( Love him so much okayyyy! Will upload pictures in tomorrow's post, I'm lazy to bluetooth them to my lappy now :/

So the day passed by as per normal.. Lunch was @ Amara food court, I had the yummy chicken rice :D And all 8 of us squeezed into one small pathetic table to eat. How "cozy", =.= Jun came over for a while and left when we had to go back to office.. I thought the day was much more fun after lunch. Lots of laughter as usual, and this stupid Ang bear bear played a prank on me which everyone knew, but no one told me!!!! In the end the prank also kinda failed, hehehe heng ahhh else I paiseh TTM ! :P

I love sitting next to hipopo, she's forever so blur, but extremely adorable :) K lah I had no sales today, super moody -_-"

Initial plan was to go jogging with Hua in the evening, but I ended up having dinner together with Hua's parents & Jun @ the nearby coffeeshop. Awww, I only have dinner with my own parents like ehhhh... Once in a blue moon. Had dinner with Hua's parents/family couple of times already, and I also feel really comfortable @ her place (and Jun's place too). I think I spend more time @ their homes than my own in the past 1 whole month, lol. Oh well, felt really *warm* to have dinner together like this :') Didn't feel this way for a long long long long while..

Walked around after dinner, and went back to Hua's place and had some fun before heading home :P Hua was literally ignoring Jun & I (COMPLETELY) when we laughed non stop like mad people, :X Talking Tom videos are up on Jun's profile, recorded by both of us.. And we kept singing... Weird songs? Lol. And we sang "Yue liang dai biao wo de xin" !!!!! That was my suggestion, cos mooncake festival is just a week away! Hehehe.. Have been really into these old songs recently..

Oh and I received a text from Dext asking me to go for Mj session tomorrow noon but I've got work, damn it. He should have called me a few days ago!!!!!

I'm gonna turn in early today. Really tired, :'(

Can't for tomorrow evening, woohoo~ Bye!

Sweetheart?

One & Only.

Your girlfriend should be your one and only. Make her feel special, k guys? You’re lucky to have her even if she’s lucky to have you too. We know there are prettier out there but we like feeling as if we’re the only beautiful one in your eyes, and the only one you see.

“Ladies first.”

No. That rule doesn’t apply to communication. Don’t wait for her call, text, IM, why don’t you try talking to her first for a change ? It’s thoughtful and sweet if a guy can actually do that.

Surprise her.

You don’t have to drive an hour to her house at 3 a.m. to set off her name in fireworks in front of her window, but the little things are big things. A simple, good morning text, is more powerful than you think.

What insecurities?

For the love of god, all girls have insecurities. Please don’t point them out. For example, today I was looking at food and my boyfriend said “You eat a lot. You probably could beat me at a buffet.” WHAT. THAT’S NOT WHAT YOU SAY. Also, let her be herself. If she’s having a bad hair day, don’t make fun of her if it’s hurtful. Let her wear sweatpants and still feel pretty damn cute around you, even when she’s not looking her best.

Act the same around your friends.

You’re not a real man if you completely blow off your girl in front of your homeboys. When you’re going to hang out with her & your friends you better not run off and leave her standing there to greet them like WUDDUPPP GUYSSS.. NO, you better at least walk with her and introduce her to them if you haven’t already. If you walk with her hand in hand, she’ll love it.

When she’s mad.

Dude, you better try and get her back. Chase her, whatever it is, don’t let her walk away when she’s mad at you. It shows you don’t care enough to go after her. Don’t let her go.

Maintain.

If you did a bunch of cute things with her before, try and keep it up. You don’t have to go all out everyday for her, but don’t stop completely just because you got her already.

Honesty.

If you lie to her, you’re going to have one hell of a time regaining that trust because she’ll start questioning everything you’ve said or done for her, no matter how small that lie was. Fess up or get lost.

Trust.

If your girl really doesn’t like one of your friends, trust, she has good reason to. Girls’ intuition -shrug- So don’t go hanging with your homegirl all the time if you know your girlfriend doesn’t like that bitch. She usually won’t hate for no reason. Respect her.

Love her.

That’s all.

I wish, :'(

I envy the kind of bond sayang's family has.

I envy the kind of understanding parents he has.

I envy him having such a sweet,warm family..

Yeah, I don't enjoy such a life.. In fact I feel closer to my girlfriends' family than my own. How saddening? Well.. Life's like that. Sudden urge to cry, like WTF do I wanna cry for.. TSK.

Can't wait to get out of this house and form my own family; that's so warm, sweet & loving..

Be contented with what I have? Bullshit lah, humans are greedy by nature -_-

Back to work! ^^

1 of the pics taken w Jun a few days back. Upload more soon kay? :)

Ahhhh, first day back at SMV. As usual, full of laughter and crazy times again :) Had kaya butter toast and barley less ice! Total happiness, hahahaha! As for lunch, definitely maggie goreng with pokka green tea. Awwww, those good old days are back!

Anyway a few days back sayang and I were talking about how he annoyed me (back then when he's still working @ SMV) when he shared an umbrella with me due to wet weather. I was totally like... "Zzzzz stop standing so close to me lol I'd rather get drenched." HAHAHAHA! And it turned out that it poured early this morning when I was walking to the office building.. Damn it. This time round, I was like.. "Haiyooooh if only sayang's here with his umbrella :'("

Oh well, what to do? Hahaha.

So it's a good start for me to have sales today, hopefully I won't get any complain calls coz I feel kinda rusty with regards to transferring the line to sales team.. Met new people, and Zp guessed my age as 16 (OMG THIS IS THE FIRST TIME EVER FOR THE PAST 9MONTHS) . Usually they would range around 20+, and the worst case is that 2 of them thought I'm 25 -__- Thank goodness I look young, hehehe.

He's like, "Yi kan jiu shi xiao mei mei!!" HAHAHAHAHAHA! Thank you lorrrrr :B Tskkkk after saying that, Colin continued telling Zp.. "But she make up really look different liao. That time ah, go clubbing together ah, she dance like... *demonstrates* " WALAOEH :( That time high already can't remember what I doing k! Furthermore, hipopo was doing it with me :P

Hipopo is still blur as usual, hahaha. And she was telling me.. "You no make up also pretty already, you are a natural beauty. Your one is outer beauty, not inner"

EHHHH I GOT INNER BEAUTY OKAY :(

And Colin kept "satay-ing" me plus pulling back my chair, whoa, *sweat* Gave Ouwen a call @ his extension coz I wanna borrow his nail clipper.. And we were like.. "Hello? Hello? Hello? Hello? Hello? OHHH JIAN DAN AH!!!" HAHAHAHAHAA, I'm glad everyone's still the same!

Looking forward to maggie goreng again tomorrow, I just miss the food so darn much :( Can't wait to get my hair dyed, heeheehee.

Oh and Grace & I were talking quite a lot about sayang & I, hahaha. Like, long time didn't catch up with her, most of the time I catch up with Pinky & Elephy..

And it's almost 8pm already, I'm feeling super duper hungry :( Mum called so long ago asking me what I wanna eat, and now she's not even home yet! Ahhhhhhh :/

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Hello sayang, this goes out to you =)

I wanna be the girl who makes your bad days better.

The one that makes you say, “My life has changed since I met her.” ♥

BGL Park

It's my last weekday spent on rotting before I begin working tomorrow.. Woke up in the noon, bathed & went over to Hua's place as Jun kept asking me to go over.. Really nice to just lie down on the bed together and talk about everything and anything :)

(On the phone with sayang now ^^)

K continue blogging! So we headed to Jp as Hua wanna eat Macs..Roamed around till evening and we went separate ways; she went home with her sister while I went up to Jun's place to rest. Left @ 7pm and met sayang @ Jp for dinner ^_^ It's been a few days since I last saw him, miss him TTM lahhhhh! We went to sit @ the Bgl park & spent some quiet time there :) Cuddles & sweet nothings, awwww.

A: "We're dating like we just got together.."

And I hope we'll always be, :)

Walked back to Jp bus interchange @ about 10pm.. Happen to bump into Jun @ the queue for 241. She was heading to meet Felt.. Alamak, hope Jun stops skipping school!

I'm glad to have spent such a nice evening with darling today.. Gonna take the train with him in the morning tomorrow to work!

Bye~ ^^

Sayang : You're dating a Bangala?!

Finally UT3 ended, and I am so not looking forward to getting the results. Yeh, obviously I wasn't well prepared. I managed to attempt most of the questions today, however unsure of my answers :/ Well put that aside..

So sayang, you're so curious where I was when you rang me in the late noon? :P "I hear some construction noises.. You're dating a Bangala?!?!?!" HAHAHAHA, what stupid question is this -_- Hmmm I was actually @ Jun's place, lol. (If you consider her as a BGL :P)

Hmm, don't go okay sayang? Need you here, badly :(

Anyway I fell asleep unknowingly with all that horrible construction noises. Jun was pretty shocked cos I even started snoring, like shiok only!!!! :P Eh, I was tired k. Btw apparently my eyes look bigger today cos I cried last night, lol, what a logic -.-"

Left her place at 7pm+ and roamed around her neighbourhood & Jp before heading home. . Talked about anything we could think of, including marriage. Hahaha. Anyway.. We were @ Harris bookstore and I flipped through a cat encyclopedia. Awww, how adorable are those kitties :P If only I could have a kitten, :(

So my 24/7 buddy got enlisted this morning, now I feel kinda lost :/ It seems that the 2 closest people whom I've always been turning to when I break down are all in the army..

I wonder what did mousey tell K about that incident. FML. "You don't know but I know" -- What the hell ?!!!! Haizzzz, thank goodness we're still friends. . . . .

Gonna enjoy one last weekday of freedom before I start working on Wed, ._. Gonna shop till I drop after getting my pay ^_^ K lah I'm waiting for sayang to ring me. Gonna continue watching what I haven't completed on Funshion first, bye!

=(

I'm having mixed emotions now, grrr.

I want a hug from my thick-skinned-but-extremely-cute boy now :'(

Bye UT, get lost till the next semester begins.

Mischievous kiss

Spent my day home today, finally.. Have been going out every single day, :/ Hmmm, so I woke up in the morning and continued sleeping till noon and got stuck to my laptop till now, -_-

As usual, sayang dropped me a MMS.. There were 5 pictures in total, and I thought they look awesome in the white baju :D That's because for the past few days I've been seeing families in white looking really wonderful ;)

Was too lazy to get myself out of bed to bath & head to Jun's place, so I watched a movie on funshion.. And lazed around in bed while on the phone with Hua. Continued with funshion, and I decided to start watching the drama which Khj is acting in right now, hehehe. Titled Mischievous Kiss. Damn, listening to him play the guitar makes me wna marry him. *Shy* HAHAHA! And here's the conversation between me & sayang. .

Me: "Omg listening to Khj play the guitar makes me wanna marry him!!!"

A: "I must learn also!!"

Me: "What.. You think by playing guitar only I wanna marry you meh?"

A: "Hmm, what else must I do to make you say I do? Hehe :)"

Awww, how cute can he get :P *melts*

On the phone with him now! Glad to hear that his Mum is asking a couple of questions.. The conversation went well. Everything was nice, until he touched on the part about migrating to Dubai.

I know, his family is there..(ppl asked me if he'll migrate there too) Well IDK, but it's too abrupt to hear him telling me about his plans after graduating from uni, which is in a couple of years' time. It just sucks to think that he's gonna be so goddamn far away from me.

A: "I plan to bring you along with me."

How to?

Even if I turned 21, and decided that I can live without my family, what about others around me? There's many things around me which I'm pretty much unable to say "bye" to them just like that. Plans are plans, they may change as people & situations don't stay the same.

As much as I want you to stay, I am not in the position to stop you from pursuing in your career overseas.

I'm PR (Malaysian). I lived in Singapore since I was born, hence I feel nothing at all for M'sia, furthermore it's just next to Sg. Dubai is darn far from here. And to be frank, I don't know and I don't wanna maintain a long-distance relationship. I'd much rather end it than have to go through all these shit. I don't want the feeling that I miss you so badly I cry to sleep every night.

It just sucks to think that if we're unable to settle all the complications before heading there together, we have to be so darn far apart. Y'know how I feel darling? We've been through so much (yes I'm referring to all the bad incidents), and I don't wanna give up just because of this. First it was the 4-years plan. Now it's the Dubai plan. It's way too much for me to take it.

I'm only seventeen; not using age as an excuse. It's just not what is meant for me to be facing at this point of time. It's just... It's just wrong lah :'(

I know, I know.. You gave me so much assurance. But no one controls what's gonna happen right? Like, WHAT IF you really prefer to get a job there than in Sg..

“ ‘What’ and ‘if’ - two words as non threatening as words come. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: ‘What if?” -Letters to Juliet ♥

I feel upset, but there's nothing that can be done. Nothing at all. Swallow my tears and keep mum. :'(

And yes I am, living in fear---From that moment you told me about your plan...

Unproductive

Pics continued from the previous post, and there's more on fb..

Because I'm always blogging after 12am, my blog post date is always wrong -__-

Anyway.. 11/09/10 :

I woke up in the noon and got stuck on my laptop till late noon. Was chatting with Jun and she asked me to go Jp and eat with her.. So I went to take a shower and prepared before heading out to meet her =) Yes, I took really long to bath + dry my hair so I only reached Jp @ 6pm :X

And btw I'm always waking up and laughing to myself after seeing the pictures which sayang MMS-ed me, hehehe :P He and his weird pose, LOL! He's so thick skinned to send me a SMS saying, "you look as young as me ok!" Tsktsktsk! Unlike somebody, I do not have crow's feet when I laugh :P

Day 1 of Hari Raya, he surprised me by telling me about his conversation with his Dad. Day 2 of Hari Raya, I was once again pleasantly surprised when he told me about his Mum's response. (I am still feeling happy now, lololol) Felt a lil nervous & shy (idk why), but I'm really glad things are progressing towards the positive side! ^^ I hope things will maintain (in fact continue to progress) in this wonderful direction!

I ♥ you darling, ;) I'm like the happiest girl on earth now, hehehe :D

Yup back to topic. After having dinner @ Banquet, Jun & I roamed around Jp and then went to her house while waiting for 9pm to come -_- The original plan was to meet Felt & Hua @ 9pm @ Pioneer Mall Mac, but Hua ended up sleeping till 10pm and we changed our plans.. Jun & I went to meet Felt & Darren instead.. And Chooho too. Hanged around till 12.30am then I made my way home. There was seriously nothing much to do, :(

Might be meeting my girls again tomorrow, I don't know :/ I wanna study but I think I'll end up slacking and chatting away if I go with them. Hmmmm, will decide after I've woken up tomorrow. Had an awesome time chatting with sayang on the phone earlier on, and I'm gonna turn in now! Goooooood night people, hehehe =)

It's Hari Raya!

Hello =) Feeling really tired after spending a whole day outside.. So it's Hari Raya and sayang is busy with visiting, so I've got my own activities going on~

10/09/10 :

Yes, I got pretty bored :/

Waiting for our queue numbers to be called! =)

Pang, pls stop opening your eyes so widely. THEY'RE POPPING OUT!!!!

Hua & Felt's milk tea.

Jun's & my honey milk tea.

More pics with Felt.

Was woken up by mum at about 1.30pm cos Jun called my house phone -_-" So I got out of my bed at 1.45pm, bathed and quickly prepared to meet them.. Headed to Jp together with Hua. We went to get some finger food before accompanying Felt to Kopitiam for her lunch. Waited for the guys to reach and it was probably 4pm? So we took train to Bugis and made our way to Haji lane as the plan was to sheesha. (No I didn't~)

Hua & I = Holy-est people today :P

Not giving in to any temptations at all. We only had normal drinks and ate fries while the rest were sheesha-ing away.. Well I don't know what do you guys think of sheesha, but I just wanna keep myself away from getting involved with stuff like that (ie. smoking) We left Haji lane @ 8pm and went Bugis Junction to have dinner.. Decided to have KOI bubble tea after that, hehehe :D The queue was extremely long as usual. Took turns to queue and played with Felt's iPhone cos it got really boring.. I had honey milk tea today, without pearls! Don't dare to eat bubble tea pearls after hearing what Hp said before about it :X

Took train back after that, and it was about 11.30pm by the time we reached Jp.. The girls wanted to go play L4D badly, but we ended up hanging around Zl's house area till 1am+ and made our way home.

So here I am, taking my own sweet time to blog while drying my hair.

From what sayang told me.. It seems that it's a "so-far-so-good" situation, and please please please I hope it becomes a "good-better-wonderful" situation. Hahaha, :P

Sayang, your "hat" picture really cracked me up. LOL! Continue to have a great time going around for visiting, and pls remember to take your medicine too! ^^ Love you & I miss you much, :(