To be exact, I am actually feeling kinda sick of waiting for him to ring me at night; after he's done with his own stuff. This routine.. Makes me feel like a pet waiting for its owner to come home and feed her. Indeed, I do not feel special anymore. Yes I do wanna be sweet and loving again, but somehow after this quarrel I had with him, I feel like I've drifted away from him. The closeness is no longer there.
Let's see. After Saturday, I won't be meeting him at all till the 9th. He gets busier and busier with life, there's nothing I can do about it. Let's hope that there's some alcohol party on this Sunday night @ Pasir Ris so I can escape from reality for just one night. At most I'll take 1/2 day UL for Monday..
Argh I can't help it but repeat this again. I AM SOOOOO SICK AND TIRED OF BEING PLACED AT THE LAST POSITION, WHEREBY HE ONLY GETS BACK TO ME WHEN HE'S DONE WITH HIS BUSY BUSY BUSY DAY.
I don't wanna let go so easily but I'm beginning to feel exhausted, from all the quarrels over similar issues over and over again.. Vitamin L? Don't even mention, I feel nothing at all. -.- Yes I'll still randomly think of him at times, but perhaps it's due to what has happened between us that makes me feel like keeping a distance from him.
Why am I feeling this way? Sigh :'(
We're different, but that doesn't mean we can't be together. But the difference is that...
He has no time left at all, while I have plenty of time.. Obviously I don't waste all my time, though I have to admit I spend some days doing nothing but rotting :/ I guess after the number of times that we get to meet each other would decrease rapidly.
Feeling pessimistic today, well well well.. when it's time to let go, I naturally will be able to..
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