:'(

I just wanna post this again:

I want a guy...

Who can wrestle with me and let me win,
Who I can talk to about anything,
Who puts my cold hands in his warm hoodie pockets,
Who lets me use his sweatshirt for a pillow,
Who says I love you and means it,
Who will kiss me in the rain, sunshine, and in snow,
Who calls unexpectedly,
Who realizes I say things but don't always mean them,
Who I can go swimming with on hot days,
Who can tell me his problems and let me help,
Who will tell me I'm beautiful,
Who is simply mine to hold..

Is A the one?..

Can't sleep coz I'm feeling upset :'( Feels great to make my blog private..

I kept asking myself WHY does A think I'm unappreciative, WHY does he think I am not understanding.. Especially when I am REALLY trying my best, giving it all.

After a break up, many things are bound to become more sensitive when we've got back together. I really wonder, why does he ask me if I love him/love him still as much every now and then. Have I been loving him less? No! Perhaps it's just the way I express it which causes him to feel that way. On my part I feel that he has changed, no longer treating me as sweet, BUT he is STILL sweet. I do remember all the lil things he has done for me, and I am DEFINITELY thankful that all that happened :)

I'm greedy and I definitely want such attention from him once again, :( What a bad girlfriend I am..

I hope things will work out fine between us again, I hate having quarrels/misunderstandings every now and then. Spoils nothing but our closeness.

Love him much, does he know that I'm really trying my best? Or does he see that all I'm doing is just demanding for more than what he can provide me with? :'( I am contented, I just kinda miss how extreeeemely sweet he was back then..

I always love this quote from John's profile : Seek solution instead of blaming..

Whenever something bad happens between us, I don't wanna blame, I wanna raise the issue up so that we can figure out the most suitable solution..

:(