Thankful that I've got understanding team mates today, especially Cow, who literally let me rest and do nothing. So I was self-destructing while the rest were busy with worksheet/powerpoint slides.. Reached school at approximately 9.30am.. Met the usual ones at South Food court.. Had a drink coz I really don't have any appetite, sigh. Once we went back to class, I immediately got questioned by Eric & Cow about the S.T tweet. Idk, it just happened to pop up in my mind last night. I can't answer them anything. No, it should be.. I was just too upset to give them an answer.
I hope he had enough of accusing me telling every single person about this incident cos it's them who came to me to show concern. And showing concern DOES NOT EQUALS TO telling them the full details about this. Oh gawd, why on earth am I trying to save face for him at this very moment when he had already treated me like that. I had never, ever cried till my skin tore at the corner of my eyes. It's just way too much for me to handle, :'(
Walked around the school during lunch break, met my girls and hanged around with them till 1pm then I headed back to class.. Basically nothing made me laugh today. I think I'm too chirpy already, that's why when I'm quiet when I enter class.. Everyone knows something's bothering me.. Sighhh.
STL begins tomorrow, I'm gonna feel bad towards TGT if I don't focus.. And I know I will be unfocused. 99.9% sure about that.. Wanted to ask him if he wants to come down and support @ SCAPE, but.. Yeah.. Haiz.
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And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya
I’d jump in front of a train for ya
You know I'd do anything for ya
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same
"When you're about to give up, think about what is it that has kept you going for so long"
Drown myself in tears tonight/tmrw night/'n' nights.
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