I miss your smile hun, can't wait to see you :)
Yes, there's just something special about my honey boy.. That won't allow me to give up on us. Not a single bit.
And I do wanna... Grow old with you, hun :')
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YAYYYY! 12 more hours and sayang would arrive in Sg! Gosh I can't contain my excitement. Sometimes I find it better for me to write out what I'm feeling than to share it with people who would take it negatively. Maybe it's just my nature.. That I can't bottle up my emotions. But all I hope for is just someone who would be there for me, and don't mind me getting all excited when something important to me is about to happen.
10 days.. It isn't an extremely long period of time, but more or less things have changed. And honestly speaking every now and then I am still living in fear. All I want is to have a sweet and peaceful life with my dear boy, that's it. I get really stressed up when I know the near future is gonna be really tough.. Now all I want is to see him badly, get a nice big hug and feel more reassured.
My day was fine. In the noon, I managed to have a short conversation with sayang regarding whether he'd have time to meet me tomorrow. I'm hoping that everything would go smoothly.. And that we can meet. I miss him real badly. I'm really sorry for being so unreasonable at times, but I know.. For this special boy I'm changing for the better :') I know it's just a couple of hours more.. But over here I'm missing him so terribly I'm on the verge of crying.
Went over to drop my last letter for him today.. I wrote him a total of 9 letters. I take a pen and paper with me everywhere I go.. Just in case at any point of time I've got something in mind that I wanna write to him. And everytime after I pen it down, I feel so much better. All that stress that I've been going through.. I'm trying hard to hold myself close so I won't break down, sigh.
Anyway I was supposed to spend the day at Sentosa with my classmates. I'm sorry.. But I'm really not in the mood to have fun under the sun. I just wanna spend my day in a simple way today. Ended up playing pool with Jun and we met Hua @ Clementi for KOI in the evening.. And now I'm back home.
I've been writing here everyday lately because there's so much I'm going through which I don't exactly know what's the best way to let it out. Like.. I write a whole lot here, but still inside there I'm struggling. I wished there was a better way for me to ease the pain, sigh :'(
Honey I know we've spoken about that issue before.. Please hold me close. I don't wanna struggle on my own :'( I look forward to seeing you really, really soon. It's been way too long since I last saw you and I'm feeling really terrible now. Miss you tons.
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