I looked at the stars and immediately, I thought of you

Dear diary

I hope he has landed safely in Australia already, and that he'll have a good rest before he starts having fun.

I spent my day with my bbg today. I try my best not to be alone for this period of time cos I don't wanna let my thoughts run wild. I'm thankful for her suggestion to bring me to Henderson Waves and relax. .

Night drives.. Makes me feel so much better. And the scenery there is really nice, the stars, the wind and all.. I wanna go there together with him some time :')

Had a can of booze each while enjoying the calmness there. For that period of time.. I just let the wind take my silly thoughts away, take every negative thing in me away.. And start telling myself. Here, I need to start looking on the positive side again.

Went to Bt Timah for supper.. And yeah, the first person that came to my mind was none other than my darling boy. We've been there together countless times for good food, and most definitely we love the satay. I had my usual all-time-fav tonight-- Maggie goreng. I don't wanna make complicated orders for maggie goreng on my own. For this, I wanna be dependent on him. He, who always helps me to make long-and-troublesome order for maggie goreng.

And we left the place around 12midnight.. Driving along that road.. Reminds me of him. Every single lil thing. It's making me wanna see him right now. My first time trying the food there.. It was also him who brought me there. That was after Tchoukball training, I remember really clearly. And then.. I fell in love with the food there :')

We are such gluttons who would travel all the way from Jurong West to Bt Timah just for good food. Gawd, I really miss resting on his shoulder during long bus rides :(

So we dropped by Jp to do some stuff before sending me home. Thank you all, who have been there for me tonight to lighten up my mood. I love you all!

Just to sidetrack for a while.. My stomach has been getting really weak. My body is sort of rejecting food. Every time I attempt to grab a bite, I always end up feeling like I wanna puke. That's good, I lost more weight. On the other hand I wish my health would get better.

It's getting late.. And I promised my classmates that I'll study with them tomorrow. I better get a good rest. Goodnight sayang, love you! *hugs*

My beloved honey boy, I don't wanna see you making a verdict on our relationship just like that. It's just the start, and I have confidence in us; that we'll be able to make things fine. Please trust me and let's work for it together.